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Ok so here i sit at one year out... wow where did the year go... after I type this I am going to look at all of my prior journals to refresh where I have been, where I am at and where I want to GO.... well I am very happy but still have some concerns.. I would have at least like to have made it to 100 lbs gone but a little short of that, then I think well I still have a goal to attain right short term of coarse.
.long term not sure as of yet what is feasible..
 mid term would be very grateful to be at 150
never really established a goal I have never known what my woman body should be at due to being a teenage mom... I want to be true to myself and not be on a diet mentality in weight loss surgery.. just my own personal belief I want to have a chance at normal... not constantly worrying about weight .. just making sure to keep it in check...
 I have how ever made it to a non scale goal which was to be a size 9 and I am there and have even found some brands and stores where 6-8 fits comfortably thank-you Maurice's (teehehehe)
and now well I can officially  say i am in  a real Plataea why did it have to be at one year dan nab it... I wonder though am I done losing? where will I be next year.. I don't know for sure as far as weather I am done losing or not but I will for sure be true to me and continue to be healthy and happy in my new active lifestyle. 
High light of my year was to ride in a plane with total comfort... visit my daughter and see a concert at the Red Rock amphitheater in Co... I am sure non of this would have been possible had I not started this journey a year ago.. It hasn't always been easy I have had emotions to deal with but with the Grace of my God I have made it through and I look forward to many years to come.. cedar point is on my agenda for next year...

I am eight months out and wondering if I am done with the majority of my loss... i have been stuck at this weight for a bit now not sure how long, but have a scale and its down to 174.4. I am wanting it to move so much to 165.. but ultimately I would like 159 and 150 for my rebound... if i am comfortable with that we shall see only time will tell I a have started tracking my food intake again and do very well when I'm at work on schedule but when I'm home I do not eat regular or near the amount of protein or anything for that matter... we will see where this journey takes me soon enough... as I keep on keeping on....

 two weeks before... wlsthis is me 5 months after ...

I did it I stepped on the scale and guess what the scale gods shone upon me I am offically out of the two hundreds... yes and wearing a size 14 comfortably... I will continue to do what I have been doing thus far and be true to myself... this seems so surreal to me... Praise God ...

well I can remember being so upset about being hungry when i was only a couple of weeks out, Now eating is so hard to do.. I am on  a break from work for shut down and finding it really hard to eat... back to the protein shakes, smoothies I go. My taste buds are not liking food if that even makes sense I am begging to realize enjoyment for eating is non- existent to me now. I have the memory of food enjoyment but when it comes to actually eating well that is another story... I have read of people being out years and wishing they could have this feeling again so for now I will just shake it out... I am also cold for the first time in my life I know I'm in Michigan but I always thought of my self as kinda breed for cold climate well not any more am really going to invest in a mattress heater for sure. Cold pillows used to be my friend but not anymore... well enough complaining I'm on the downward end of a size 16 towards a 14 have saggy booty again in 16 which means after next month I will be in a 14 kinda sad though I have some really nice cloths in these 16 (a friend let me borrow them) I will have to look into the clothing exchange for sure. I am focusing on size not scale it is not my friend at all I dint want to get into a numbers game with a inanimate object... So for now I continue to eat on my Dr's orders , take my vit. and exercise as regularly as I possibly can we will see what is to come for my six month mark...

well I'm back to work, back in a routine and feeling pretty good about all of it.. I was a little worried because i have been in a scale stall sense the third week.. I keep pressing on I broke my own personal goal of under 20min mile during exercise. I have made the decision to participate in a 5k on Thanksgiving morning for a base because in July its on for another.I was so worried about stretching my new tummy tum but now its pretty hard to just get  the food in. even though the scale hasn't really moved but inch's for sure has I went from my 22ish 1st week, 20's 2ND week, and now I'm wearing my skinny 18's and leggings which a co-worker came up to me and said saggy britches I had to laugh because they were my go out dancing pants now I go to the store today and put on a pair of 18's they look good but know that they will loosen so then i grabbed the size 16's just to see how far yet i had to go to my surprise wow they fit and fit good.. but I know none the less I will not buy them because I know after a stall is a loss and 65% of your expected weight loss happens in the first six months..so for now I am happy adjusting to my new life change.. I will visit the stores when ever discouragement tries to settle in.

I never thought i would look at eating as a chore but boy that's what it feels like now.. Lucky i am still on soft protein because i am able to squeeze in the protein shakes when i get sick from trying to eat meat... but its not the journey its the climb right now... lol jk go miley c...or whom ever wrote the song.. I have so much energy and talk talk talk man with sugars that i used to walk with so high i was always down and oppressed by them now that i have normal sugars Dr's are thinking i have anxiety issues but I'm happy and sometimes cant control my excitement... i will just stay busy an use up this new found energy in the positive.... today was a trial for getting back on my bowling league I bowled with my kids bowled 90, then a 136, then 175... have to adjust to new size finger holes and  a little less in the middle but none the less no pain so yeah I am offically gonna do my league... till next time...

Got have food today yeah!
But tried fish and either stuck, too dry, or ate too fast,  threw up well what i thought was gonna be like in the past but i guess not, only white foam and no food came out and the discomfort lasted about half hour... Try to figure out how to keep track of protein when you can't keep it down or eat it all just guess ta mat-ion lol... did real well with serving of cottage cheese now i have to get on a plan, so i can plan for success those who fail to plan fail right... so off i am to the treadmill gods once again ....Nikki

I am begging my journey... still apprehensive as to am i actually going to have any  weight loss due to my entire life I have always been this weight. I have been very comfortable with who I am and love myself most days, then wham insulin dependency and what a roller coaster ride that was emotionally, physically and mentally draining. I feel like i have been given my life back It still surprises me when i test my sugar and its not in the two-hundreds and wow am i able to wake in the morning. I am four days away from being able to eat with a fork for the first time in like 5 weeks, this road hasn't been easy and I know it won't be quick but with out insulin and my health restored to me I know I can do anything that life puts in front of me. Looking forward to taking my kids on rollarcoaster rides next summer cedar point here we come!!!!