Paige V.

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I am two year out, less than goal, but still losing slowly...about a pound or two a week. I am still technically overweight, but in another 2-3lbs I will be normal weight. I am not trying to lose but it happens. Never had this problem before, lol!

Along the way I had a baby boy. I got pregnant at 7 months out, but I have since lost all pregnancy weight plus an added 13lbs to finally get to goal at 21 months out!! I plan to lose another 10-15 though.

It has come. I somehow hoped I would be immune to this particular frustration, but no such luck. For the past week, I have went up and down the same pound over and over and over again. I sooo want to be in the 250's but I am tettering between 260.8-261.8. TEASE! I bought some Winter sweaters to wear in Ohio when we go at the end of the month, but I need to lose a few pounds before wearing them, and I just do not think I will be making it =( 

I know I know..I know all the facts. Its just my body adjusting, and eventually the weight will come off. I mean, it HAS to come off....there is no way I can continue to eat between 500-700 calories on any given day and NOT see the weight come off. I know I already look better. I am having people comment, but I just want to see the numbers. I should just stop weighing myself, but that is also easier said than done. It waaay too tempting to "just take a peak."

Anyway, I didn't want to post this on the forum because I know everyone deals with this, but I needed to let my frustration out somewhere and my family just does not understand.

These are my goals and I will share as I go, if they are met or not. I hope I am not being over zealous, but we shall see:

Month 1- minus 25lbs- lost 23, not quite my goal but I'll take it. 28 since pre-op diet.

Month 3- Minus 60lbs

Month 6- Minus 85lbs (and this would put me in Onederland)

Month 9- Minus 105lbs

Month 12- Goal..minus 123lbs


Do you feel these are realistic?

Wow..is it seriously the Saturday before my surgery?? Is this really the last weekend that I will have my WHOLE stomach. It is kind of a strange thought. So, yesterday I met with the surgeon, and he said I am sure you have some questions and concerns about how you might eat after surgery. I promply replied, "not really, I am just concerned that I am going to die during surgery..I have a four year old!" His eyes about popped out of his head. I am guessing not everyone is as blunt of a person as I am ;) I got the typical response that I knew I would get, but I guess I was hoping to implant into his mind, that I am someone Mom. That I have a lot to live for..so please do not view me as just any other case. I think I am well prepared as far as having everything I need in the hospital as well as afterwards. Plenty of protein, popsicles, yogurt...and even babyfood! Lol..who woulda thunk I would be eating fruit baby food as an adult. It was strange purchasing it. My little man had a breakdown about this all. He is well aware of me having surgery and for the reasons. However, he has spent two nights away from me in his life (one night- two times) and he does not want me being away from  him. He also thinks that there is much more of me to be fun...he is four, what can I say to that ;) Its crazy to think I might be "normal" sized this time next year. Wow...so many thoughts..so scared...so excited. I suppose we all felt this way prior, and each emotion I am feeling is normal.

I was very thrilled to learn I was approved in under a week with Geha insurance. I am one of those people who has nothing in life come easy. I have had to fight for everything I have ever wanted, so you can imagine how suprised I was to be approved for the surgery this quickly. Granted it took almost a year getting to the point that we were ready to submit to insurance, but I just assumed it would take several more months of appeals to actually have the surgery. I was really mentally ready to go to Mexico and have my sleeve, but now I do not have to! I am soooo thankful to save the money, and stay close to home! Mexican surgeons do not scare me at all, in fact, I believe a lot of them are more qualified than some American surgeons...but to save the time away from my son is wonderful!

I am all set to go to US Bariatrics in St. Augustine, Florida with Dr. Koppman. My tentative surgery date is 9/7 but I am thinking I will have to move that back by a few days due to my work schedule and inability to attend my pre-surgery classes. I am excited to be getting the Spider Sleeve Gastrectomy, and have minimal scarring. Not that I ever expect to be in a bikini...its nice to know the option might be there!

I am, of course, having the typical pre-surgery fears. Mine might be slightly more pronounced than the average as my dad passed away from sepsis related to surgery. It was his FIRST surgery (granted it was open heart) just like this is mine. I have this absolutely precious 4 year old little boy who is my heart and soul. HE is the reason I am doing this, but also the reason I am scared to death of it! I am sure all mothers of little ones understand what I am saying.