OCCali_Girl
Birtday week
May 22, 2011
So I hate the diet mentality but Monday is a new day and I am going to get back on high protein low carb meal plan tomorrow thanks to my band I can do this and be successful! No I can NOT go to the movie tomorrow night! LOL
I wonder sometimes if I am trying to do this alone, and I know that won;t work, so I need to get back to therapy and continue to be successful I deserve it!!!
Thanks for listening!
Addiction
May 08, 2011
I have been successful at loosing weight and gained much of it back and damn it, it scares the hell out of me! Today I forget how difficult the weight maintenance is, I know I don't need to focus on that now, but it is scary none-the-less.
I am proud of what I have accomplished this far and made some HUGE changes in my way of eating... but I am sensing my need to eat sugar and crave these things that I have not eaten in 6 months.. It could be "my time of month" but it could be that I am not dealing well with things and well food has been that solution.
I have also been eating later at night. I "Feel" hungry and do not like the feeling so I want to eat. the food I am choosing is better than what I used to choose, but I need to get away from eating so late at night... OK this is something I need to focus on!
I CAN do this!
Feeling good
Mar 15, 2011
Now I am not gonna say I love fills but I know they help and I am hungry after 2 -3 hours which TOTALLY sucks! I like slider foods for breakfast, things such as yogurt & cottage cheese, but they are not holding me for long, it is very annoying!
I feel like I am doing pretty well, down over 40 lbs and just feeling like I should take a little break from trying to loose which I think will help my weight loss in the long run, so my body does not think it is loosing too much.
I know there are more things I should be doing, of which number one is exercise! Man I hate it!! I have such a mental bloc against exercise... I need to have sex that is GREAT exercise I hear! LOL Any takers?? Hahah just kidding!
Just thought it would be a good idea to blog a little and get out of my own head. I have to admit that I am truly VERY proud of myself of what I have accomplished and need to remember not to discount these things! What I am doing here is VERY impressive and I deserve a lot of credit... Yeah me!!!
Rough Food Day
Jan 24, 2011
My First fill!
Jan 13, 2011
I have to say being that this is my blog, and I can say what i want that I don't really understand people who say they arn;t loosing weight, I can not see how it is even remotely possible to not loose weight when you cut your calorie intake form 2000 or more to under 1000!! damn!!! I am down 25 lbs,which is about .5 lbs a day I hope to keep going with that! If you follow the food plan you will loose weight! if you eat crap you won;t... simple!!! sorry but this is how I feel about it!!!
Well I am doing OK and feeling that this adjustment was a great one for me and i will be able to loose ore weight in the next couple of weeks, along with my walking! I am doing well damn it! and I need to be proud of myself!
OH yeah and I just have to say I LOVE my surgeon, he is really just awesome!!! I am so grateful he is the man guiding me through this process!!
Things are a little rough
Dec 29, 2010
I have never counted calories before in my life! it is HARD!! needless to say i ahve not been on the scale recently!
I can say I have done some really good things for myself so I need to congratulate myself fof that.... No sugar, and no diet coke!! Good for me!
Then after the food challenges one of my incision points got infected (probably Staph) and so my surgeon had to open it up and now I have to pack the fucking wound every day!!! GRRRRRR so yeah this sucks!!!
Thats all for today
TTFN!
Tough weekend
Dec 20, 2010
I over ate almost all 3 days! Now mind you it was not like the past where I REALLY over ate, but I did not make good food choices either. I did have movie theater popcorn, sooo yummie no problem going down!
On top of all of it has been pouring outside so I have no been able to walk, but as I write this I realize I can go to the mall or somewhere to do it. so I will do that. It will be a good choice! I am worried I am going to gain my weight back already!!! Noooo!
And I read about some of the people who are not successful and it freaks me out!! I know I made the right decisions but things are difficult right now! I am on my own and I am not very good with that!!!
I hope I can get through the holidays without too many slip ups.. my brain is y biggest enemy!! My head hunger!!! Grrrrr!
But one success is I sat across from my friend who had a Giant sundae for her birthday and I did not have ONE bit!! Now that is a Big deal!!!!! :)
Significant Chages
Dec 17, 2010
As I was taking my walk today I was thinking about NSV's and the things I have changed in my life in just the last 3 weeks... and I realized everyone here, regardless of the type of surgery has made some MAJOR NSV's to be where they are today and that this should not be lost on any of us! We should all be very PROUD of ourselves!!
4 weeks ago I was eating fast-food at least once a meal, I NEVER thought about calories and had no concept of what I was putting in my mouth. I NEVER exercised; I drank 64 or more ounces of diet coke EVERYDAY!! I ate for boredom, happiness, sadness and to just avoid my feelings....
and really was completely unaware of my body. I knew I was Fat; however I did not even really realize how large I actually was!
So now 20 days later I have changed EVERYTHING about my food life. I have not had 1 sip of diet coke, I weigh and measure each bit of food, I have not had a bite of refined sugar, I drink more water in a day than I would in a week and I actually woke up this morning and took a walk.!!. I have NEVER done that!
This is a big damn deal and I need ti remind myself of this, even on the days when I am tipping of the wagon or feeling like stuffing my face. I already like the way I feel sooo muhc better and it will only get better from here!!
Motivation-->Fear
Dec 10, 2010
I was hoping to feel restriction right after surgery, however it did not happen...but I am TERRIFIED of two things.... Eating too much & injuring my stomach/insides and just the thought of throwing up so I "act" as if I am restricted. I am amazed that just having the band has motivated me in ways I never thought possible!
Fear is working for me! I have no intention of "testing" what I can and can not eat with my band... its just not worth it. 13 LBS IN DAYS... I almost cant wrap y head around that!!
My thought from the day I had my surgery is this thing is in me and it will make a difference if I let it!
I love my Band and am SOOOOOO thankful to my amazing surgeon!
Good Day
Dec 09, 2010
I really have to say I love my Surgeon! He is such a great man! He really cares about his patients and will go the extra mile for them. I said thank you to him and started to cry... I am so emotional now that I am not eating... I know it is good but geeze I start to cry at the drop of a hat! LOL
Sooo I am happy with the way things are going, but I gotta start to exercise and maximize my loss!!
Good day all around!