Slump is Over, Stress has Begun Again

Jan 26, 2010

Well, part of my "slump" problem was that my band had gotten too tight with all the extra stress I was dealing with over the holidays. It wasn't just typical holiday stuff; my grandfather got really sick and then passed away at age 70, then my relatives came into town (many of whom hadn't seen me since before my WLS), my coworker went into drug rehab (leaving me to support 3 financial advisors all by myself and man the phones and do the things she was supposed to have already done ), my husband left the country to work with a new company, to name a little bit of the extra stress. So I got a tiny bit of saline removed (0.2 cc) and that has made all the difference. Now, I can eat all that I should be able to eat and feel not hungry anymore and that lasts for 3-5 hours, depending on what I ate and my activity level.

So my coworker came back from drug rehab and had to attend out-patient rehab for about 6 weeks. For the first four, she was doing okay at work, doing the minimum required to keep her job. She'd been officially put on probation for 90 days, too, meaning that one mistake and she was gone. Well, this past week alone, she had 3 big ones. And she only worked two days of the week! Monday was MLK Jr day, so we were off, and then she was out on Thursday and Friday, taking her child to the Shriners Hospital in Tampa, Fla. Well, they were down there on Thursday, and I know she was back in town on Friday having a CT scan or MRI or something like that done. I heard her say that while she was on the phone with the hospital. I guess she either didn't care or didn't realize I was still sitting right behind her. Probably didn't care. She'd led us along for so long, why stop now? Well, Monday, she walked in and was fired. I mean, she was messing up people's money, for crying out loud. You just can't do that. One time is an "oops," but three and four times (or more) isn't. It makes clients' start questioning not just her, but all of us, and we can't afford for clients to question our credibility in this economy. The market has been rough enough on us and our clients without any personel issues added in there. I'm not saying I've been perfect, but gee whiz...I've not been that bad.

So now, the added stress is back. We are finding more and more things she didn't do that she said she did. We found a complete stack of Christmas letters printed on the expensive stationary that were never mailed. Just stuffed in a drawer! And we found stacks and stacks of filing that she looked me in the eyes and said she filed, but she'd actually just stuffed in a binder under her desk! When I found that, I was infuriated! So who knows how many weeks we are going to be dealing with clients calling in and asking why something hasn't been done yet (when it's because my former coworker failed to do it)?! I just hope they believe me when I apologize to them and tell them I will handle it.

*exhaling*

I am actually not as worked up tonight as I was this afternoon. I threw a staple puller! That felt good! Not as good as smacking her or shaking her or yelling at her, but it helped. Lots of deep breathing really helped me. *exhale*

On a much happier note, I've now officially lost 100 lbs!! (I finally broke down and bought a digital scale, so my weight is the same at home and at the surgeon's office [within about a half pound]).

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