The Decision Was Taken Away From Me

Mar 15, 2010

I only told a few people that I'd had WLS, and these didn't include my bosses. I only told one coworker, who was sworn to secrecy. Turns out, she lied. She told one of our bosses. He is the younger one (about 37 years old) and we three would discuss losing weight and our eating habits. He'd noticed I was losing weight. He knew I'd had a surgery, but I only told him that I was having a hernia repaired (I did).

Fact is, I only wanted a select few people to know because this was a really difficult decision to make and it's super personal. It's not everyone's business, unless I want it to be, and I didn't. Did she care? Apparently not. I don't know when my boss found out, but at this point, it just looks like I lied. Now, I look like the stupid one. I feel like I need to discuss this with him now and just clear the air.

Point is, I feel totally betrayed and I want to cry and scream and hit her all at the same time. How could she do this to me? I never betrayed any of her secrets. I knew she was dating a woman for a long time before she let him know. I could've spilled the beans, but I didn't because she asked me not to. I respected that. I knew she was attending AA, but kept that secret for her, too. Why do people do this to me? I trusted this woman. I really want to hate her, but I can't. I can totally dislike her, though. And if I see her in public, I just might take a swing at her.

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