pearl768
HI, my name Kendra Kidd-Russell aka Pearl.
My story is complicated only because I complicate the matter. I want to lose weight and see that skinny person on the inside screaming to get out. I'm 31 yrs old, 5'6 and the last time I checked 393, but I'm sure by now I'm 400 pds. I'm engaged and raising my soon to be step children clavin Jr. (7) and Blende-lasey (6). These children have brought so much joy into my life.
I WANT TO LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT EXIST.
I have been dealing with my weight as long as I can remember. I have always been the girl with the pretty face. As a big girl and big person. You hear all types of comments, and at times I look at people and think; who the Hell are you taking too.
For example:I was in a line at the bank and a older white gentleman look back and told me how beautiful I was. and if lost some weight, I would be a knock out. Ok. He started off right and went down the hill.
Would he have said that to someone who has a face disfugurement? Your body is awesome and if they were to fix there face, everything would be complete. Somepeople are truly ignorate. What gives some people the nerve to talk to us like that. The sad part is that I didn't have the time or cutts to tell him off. I just smiled and nodded. I guess you become numb to the stares and comments.
Today is 8/31/07 it's 3:19 pm
I'm about to leave school and so glad. I'm working in CSI this year. CSI is indoor suspension.
Anyway, the day wasn't bad. I don't mind tormenting teenagers who think they know everything. I call it my gift. LOL
I have been researching this site alot lately. There's a plethora of information on this site. I am just finding black america. Haven't decided if I like it yet.
I love finding people who have the same BM as I do, and better when they have the same insurance. I'm looking for any common ground as I start this process.
I contacted a nutritionist yesterday, she doesn't take my insurance. I plan on changing my Insurance from United health HMO3 to United health PPO. The PPO will pay for my surgery and I need that. I haven't decieded if I want to wait until my insurance has changed over in Oct., to see the nutritionist, or if I should just pay out of pocket. I only need 6 months of supervised diet history. Does united health PPO pay for nutritionist? OK I have some homework to do next week. Until next time
Have a happy Labor Day.
(please excuse the errors in my spelling, and some missed place words. When I write I ramble especially when I have alot to say)
