|Anyways, that was a short and sweet bio of me! |
Now on to my surgery story!
March 2003-February 2004
This is when my investigation into Lap-Band began. While listening to a morning talk show, Kidd Kraddick, they talk about a new weight loss option called Lap-band. They were giving away 2 free operations. I quickly jumped on the Internet and started reading about the procedure, anything I could find. Reason this procedure lured me in was that nothing internal gets cut, stapled, changed, etc. This was a big asset also to help convince my family, the very low risk operation that is involved. Well after doing some extensive research in facilities in Missouri, Georgia and Arizona and understanding what is involved in the follow-up steps, or choice for the Lap-Band operation was Scottsdale Bariatrics, Dr. Blackstone and staff. Because I’m currently finishing up my senior year in college, "untraditional college student", flying out to Arizona has been a bit of a problem. So my aunt, who lives outside of Phoenix, has been doing an excellent job at researching the facilities also out there and agreed that the doctors and staff at Scottsdale Bariatric seemed to be the perfect choice.
March 16, 2004
Well it looks like I won't make it out to Scottsdale until the week or two before I expect to have the operation. No date set yet, but got to go through tons of paper work! Don't these people know my nose is already buried in books at school? :-)
My mom flew out to visit my aunt this week and to visit the clinic. My mom got a chance to meet everyone and was very impressed at the facility as well. She said Randy was a big help asking many questions that my aunt and mom fired at him. If you knew my family, when it comes to medical procedures they want to know everything step by step. That only means good things for me of course.
Well time to get my nose into these large questionnaire packets and send them back to the center.
All goes well, June will be the beginning of a new me. Very nervous about that, what to expect, what all will change in my life, etc.
Few things I look forward to:
- Being healthy
- Spending time with my niece
- Going out and spending time with family and friends again
- Graduating from college fit and ready to hit the work force
- Ice skating
- Snow skiing
- Not being embarrassed to ride an airplane again
- Being able to landscape without tiring out
- Fitting in stadium seats
March 23, 2004
So it has been a week since we last talked. Had some real nice emails, thanks. People taking the time to answer some questions etc. I also emailed a few people to let them know they have been a big help or an inspiration in making my decision for this operation.
So what else, got my paper work done, just waiting on a letter from my local doctor. Since I will be basically traveling back and forth every so many months from Arizona to Missouri, Dr. Blackstone wanted to make sure my doctor was as well committed to my new life change.
You know what is funny, although the fear of an operation is probably always on someone’s mind... I think I have more fear of what is in store for me as a new life style and person. You know you have lived a certain way, been overweight a certain period of your life and now its all about to change. Probably be pretty emotional for awhile, considering I know ill think about all the things I have missed out in life.
-=== So many more things I can list ill save some more for my next post.==
April 3, 2004Well, SBC should get my info tomorrow and I guess the process of pre-test and scheduling will begin. I really can't wait. Everything in my body aches these days, and it is getting annoying to say the least. Joints, muscles, etc always seem to be hurting or aching, be nice to go through a day without feeling bad.
Although classes are going well, it has been tough to get into exercise etc... Eating isn't going well, but since I'm 2 months away (hopefully) from my operation, I really need to do some changes to prepare myself.
Funny how you get it in your mind the food you are eating now, mostly junk food etc, you think you won't ever get to eat again. Which isn't the case.
Oh well, I will keep you updated when I hear something and start my testing.
April 6th, 2004
Well Carol called me today, and they got my pack! The process begins with my first consultation with Randy this Friday at 4:15pm. Then I should know if I need any special examinations other then the normal ones. Once that is done, the big date will be set! Hooray!
April 14th, 2004
So last Friday I had my consultation with Randy, nurse practioner, and from what he said it went great. With my past health history, no major surgery's, he gave me the sign off to just get the bare minimum test before surgery.
Those test are:
- Hemoglobin A1c
- glycated hemoglobin: indicates a patient's blood sugar control over the last 2-3 months.
- Cholesterol and Triglycerides
- Cholesterol and triglycerides are two forms of lipid, or fat.
- CBC - Complete Blood Count
- One of the most important blood tests that your doctor will order for you. Shows : red blood cells, white blood cells, and platelets.
- PT/PTT - Prothrombin Time / Partial Thromboplastin TIME
- PT is used to evaluate extrinsic clotting mechanism: I, II, V, VII, X. PTT tests intrinsic & common coag pathways (XII, XI, IX, VIII, X, V, II
- UA - Urinalysis
- Checks the urine as a screening test to look for chronic infections (not all urinary tract infections have symptoms), diabetes (sugar in the urine), kidney problems (protein in the urine), and a host of other things.
- Diagnose patients with malnutrition and to monitor patients at risk for poor nutrition.
- Analyzed Calcium
- During a calcium urine test, urine is collected for a 24-hour period. The urine will later be analyzed for the amount of calcium content.
- Chest X-Ray
- EKG - electrocardiogram
- Is an electrical recording of the heart and is used in the investigation of heart disease.
- Abdominal Ultrasound
- Is a method of obtaining images of internal organs by sending high-frequency sound waves into the body.
I thought for sure I would have gotten a call from the center by now giving me a date. So maybe I will call them today and see whats going on
April 15th, 2004
Ok sort of exciting news today! I got some "official" set dates.
- May 7th, 2004 - Go to Dr. Clippards office and get all
the pretest done.
- I have two more test to do, but so far I've been billed $510.00
May 8th, 2004
Well hasn't been much to talk about until now. Just finished my regular semester classes and now await final exams this coming week.
I did go to my local doctor and started my testing. I was a bit nervous, but they were easy and went very fast.
Now the bad news. They all didn't come back great. My Triglycerides were high, and I had blood in my urine. Sooo, yay another dern medicine to take. Frustrating having to take so many medicinces. It will be nice to be healthy for sure.
Now the good news. Although those two things were red flags, they won't stop me from having the operation I was told from my doctor. So that is good! Just something to watch.
In 10 days, I begin my journey to Arizona!
May 14th, 2004
Today I had my ultrasound on my upper stomach and kidneys. Someone check to see if my ribs are broken or not please! Ouch, she was pushing a bit to hard on those sides. I hate that technicians won't tell you if they saw anything bad or not, you know they know. Oh well, now I gotta sweat out results for 2-3 days.
Other then that, next Friday I guess I jump onto the highway and take off for Scottsdale. Anxiety hasn't been to bad lately, I think that has to do with some really nice comments on the message boards and seeing some family this week. I am fighting some serious allergies right now that have me feeling week and tired. People keep telling me that won't be a problem out in Phoenix, hope they are right.
Fixing some things... Probably gonna make my own site soon.
June 7th, 2004 at 2pm West Coast is my Surgery!
Well I guess I have a story to tell... LOL
I went in on Monday, of course my 2pm operation was delayed until 3:30pm... When I got to the hospital my anxiety, emotions, etc all faded... I figured if I there, then I gotta do it, no turning back. Well in pre-op I waited and waited and waited, seemed forever... IT was forever because they were running behind.
Finally the time came, the rolled me in and all I remember was getting my arms tied down and a shot of goody juice... CLONK..
Operation was difficult my doctor said, this was first time she had done someone with a BMI like mine and the lap band. I woke up normally from anesthesia, and then all hell broke loose. When they pushed me over to the other bed to go to recovery, I had so much anesthesia in my body, my throat muscles decided they didn't want to wake up... BAM... my throat muscles collapsed... I turned purple/blue... No air I was getting... Luckily, I had one of the best anesthesiologist in Phoenix and he recognized the systems right away... They shoved the breathing tube down my throat and there it stayed for 28 hours.... PURE AGONY... But everyone said I was a great patient, didn't complain, once the tube came out I was up on my feet moving around... Suppose when there are cute nurses all over the place you gotta show how man-ly you are... LOL
I finally got moved to bariatric ward, where I was also praised for being so strong, after having such a trauma even and being in ICU... I was released yesterday, but had no computer service... Also the pain in my stomach isn't the nicest thing I've felt... Especially the port side. I barely got any sleep at the hospital because the beds were like rock and to short for me...
Anyways, 3 more liquid meals and finally get something substantial! Hooray... I'm not hungry at all though, and actually just eating the Jell-O sort of feels me up...
Been doing my walks every 2 hours like told, I'm still in the yellow zone I guess for a month cause I've had a blood clot in my past... So they are just taking special precautions... I gotta give myself a shot everyday... YUCK! Doesn't hurt, but it is just the thought you know...
Whelp there is my update, I'm a live, "not kicking" lol, and holding that oh so sore left side.
Thanks for all the great messages and prayers, I know that is what helped pull through the slightly dangerous trauma episode I had.
~Dirk (Big ole loser!)
By the way, my doctor called me a cute teddy bear... She’s real cool... But how embarrassing in front of all those nurses. LOL
Did I mention I need pain medicine? Oh my aching side..
My weigh in.... So I go in to the physical trainer, definitely not expecting as much as I got last week... Stepped on the scale and another 11 pounds shredded off!
July 3rdMe, young, thin, sexy? LOL Not with that hair!
Well, sometimes it is hard to be a big soft hearted teddy bear of a guy... I tend to wear my feelings on my sleeve and easily can be touched by something or driven to tears. At times I hate being such a sap... Well anyways, I went to my surgeon today for my first fill meeting. After sitting down with the Nurse Practioner and talking about how things are going we finally got down to numbers... This is wear the emotions started to build up... Stepped on the scale, wasn't expecting to much since I had just weighed myself on Monday... Unbelievably another 4 pounds in 3 days... Which ment I set my first goal of 50 pounds in 1 month!!!!!!! Next, I waited a bit so the lil scale machine could do its other analyizing...
May 27th, my Body Fat % was = 48.0%
Today my Body Fat % is = 36.6%
I have lost 11.4% of that yucky body fat from my body!!!!!
May 27th, my Fat Mass was 223.01lb
Today, My Fat Mass is 154.51lb
I have lost 68.5lb of FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
May 27th, my weight from muscle was 241.51lb
Today, my weight from muscle is 267.01lb
I have gained 25.5lb of muscle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
At this point I was estatic, happy, overjoyed... Didn't know what to say.. The surgeon and nurse figured that I was doing so well, NO FILL FOR ME!!! HOOORAAAAAAAAY! Anyways, I took off and went to the car to call my mom, and then it happened... Stupid broke out in tears of joy, took about 5 minutes to control myself so I could tell my mom it was tears of happiness, not pain... Do I think the band works, hell yah...
Little extra Tid Bit:
4 Really's Rule
Thought I might share a rule that my therapist gave us at our pre-op and post-op meeting. She made sure to stress though that you shouldn't use this rule until you are signed off on your full diet. Anyways, the rule goes something like this. If you see that fattening food you have been craving to have ask your self. - Do I "Really" want or need that? If you use Really once in your sentence then you probably could get by without having it. This pattern continues with the same question like "Do I REALLY REALLY" want or need that? "Do I REALLY REALLY REALLY want or need that?" So if you use Really 1 - 3 times in your sentences, then most likely you can get by without having that high calorie fatening food item. Now if you get to the point that you say, "I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY want to have a bit of that"... Then you should releave your craving. Now remember, lets take for example your 4 REALLY craving is Cheetos (one of my big favorites). Don't rip the bag open and start eating them like you would with any other food. First of all, they are just air and cheese dust, so you could basically eat a big bag of cheetos and not even have that full filling in your 2 ounce pouch!!!! Instead, go to the store or grocery store and by one of the very small bags, take it home, wait till your dinner, and then take 4-5 pieces of them out and put them on your plate. Throw the rest of the bag away. And tada, you have satisfied your REALLY craving, without hurting your self fat intake etc.
Today I had to remind myself and take a look at the 4 rules my surgeon gave me.
These 4 rules, after you read them will seem pretty simple. Of course this is MY program, or atleast the one that my surgeon tells people, but really makes a bunch of sense if you think about it. You will see some lines that apply to just gastric bypass, but in a nutshell it is for all weight loss surgeries.
The Four Rules for Post-Operative Success
Although these rules are essential to your post-operative success, you can start applying each and every one of these principles before surgery. You don't have to wait to change your life through following these simple guidelines.
Thanks to these four easy steps, you don't need to worry about counting calories, fat or carbohydrates ever again. It's important not to follow any other program, whether it is off the Internet or from another surgical office. Your surgery is a tool to be used with these 'Four Rules' and experience shows that unless you follow them, we cannot predict any weight loss results.
Age, overall health and genetics make each person's progress a little different from other patients. Don't compare your progress to another patient – either your weight loss, the amount you eat or how much you can exercise. As long as you follow the 'Four Rules,' you are on the road to success. With commitment and dedication, you expect to achieve the same long-term success within one year.
When patients reach a 'plateau' and stop losing weight, it is usually because they are not following these simple but very important rules!
1. Protein First Every Meal
Eat the protein portion of your meal first – every meal – one to three meals per day. Eating protein helps the body feel full and sends a signal to stop eating.
Protein is also very important to building tissue in the body. Muscle, your organs, your brain – everything is built with proteins. The body does not necessarily need three meals a day, so listen to your hunger cues and don't worry about the clock. At the beginning, after they can tolerate solid food, most patients only eat one or two meals a day.
2. No Snacking Between Meals
Eating anything flavorful or containing calories in between meals is considered snacking. Do not eat between meals at all! If you absolutely have to snack, the only snack that is acceptable is protein. In the beginning, turkey jerky is a good protein – and you must work at it a little to eat it!
Later on, after six months, beef or venison jerky is acceptable, but only if you feel like you have to eat something. The main problem with snacking on flavorful food is that it contains glucose or some other sugar. You feel good when eating sugar and when that sugar is gone, one to three hours later, your brain sends a message to snack again.
Snacking actually makes you hungrier and it will slow down or even stop your weight loss. And depending on how much or how often you snack, you can actually gain weight!
Remember that surgery has only changed your digestive system and not your eating habits. Your commitment to a change in lifestyle is the key to making the surgery work for you for the rest of your life.
3. Drink Water - 48 to 64 oz. Per Day Minimum
The importance of water can't be emphasized enough. Especially in the beginning, when you can only tolerate a mouthful at a time, it is so important to continually sip water all day. Make sure you drink 48 to 64 oz. a day minimum – that's 2 to 3 quarts per day.
Eventually, you will able to drink 2 to 4 oz. at one time. No tea, soda (with or without sugar), coffee, or juices are allowed. Drinking flavorful liquids actually encourages snacking and flavored drinks with sugar.
Exercise every day for at least 30 minutes. Walking is fantastic exercise and is probably the easiest way to get started exercising. We understand that in the beginning you may struggle with a simple walk down the hall and that your energy level can be very low. Your job is to move your body a little more every day. At 4 to 8 weeks (everyone is different!), you will mostly feel back to normal. After you have been cleared by your physician, you may begin other forms of exercise. Eventually, incorporating both aerobic and resistance training into your daily exercise routine will help you remain healthy, at a healthy weight, for the rest of your life.
Well I just got in from..... (drum roll)..... Walking my first 1 mile in almost 9 years... Little tired, but as for conditioning I wasn't to bad, my feet were the thing that actually got to me the worse.. To much weight pounding down on those things...
My mom said just now, "would of anyone or myself thought I could do a mile of walking this time last year?" The answer is no, I had a tough time just making it to my car outside my apartment building...
The other goal I recently have done is to walk up a couple flight of stairs with very little huffing and puffing, actually almost none... Now this was my true enemy, just going up one flight would make me feel like I was about to choke and die... I would almost faint from the lack of oxygen...
Sooo, things are going well.http://promize.brinkster.net/wlspictures/wolf_eyes_md_blk.gif">
Sooo, August has arrived and to my surprise and many others I am slamming on this weight loss. Lets all say it together, but 63 pounds in 2 months!!! Hooray.
I had a goal to be 399 before classes started, and I am 9 pounds away from getting that goal. Think I can make it? By August 23rd? I truelly hope so, considering if I don't do that much weight loss it will be time for the ole fill. The FIRST FILL! Yikes!
Anyways, real reason I signed on, was I thought I would post my bill I got from my hospital telling me what my cost COULD of been, if I hadn't had such a cool surgeon and a special price plan.
Intermediate Care / Telemetry -------------------------- 3600.00
Pharmacy ----------------------------------------------------- 4088.06!!!
Pharmacy IV Solutions ----------------------------------- 796.02
Inonsterile Supply ------------------------------------------ 416.01
Sterile Supply ------------------------------------------------ 3458.10
Other Implants ----------------------------------------------- 6735.50 (Thought my breast looked bigger?)
Chemistry ----------------------------------------------------- 656.00
Hematology --------------------------------------------------- 284.00
Radiology, Diagnostic ------------------------------------- 649.00
Chest X-Ray -------------------------------------------------- 300.00
OR Services -------------------------------------------------- 5984.00
Anesthesia ---------------------------------------------------- 168.00
Respiratory Services --------------------------------------- 1373.00
Cardiology ------------------------------------------------------ 889.00
Self-Admin Drugs-No Det Coding --------------------- 16.68
---- Total Charges ------------------------------------------- 29413.37
Surgeons special package ----------------------------- 10000.00
Surgeon Fee ------------------------------------------------- 5000.00
Anesthesiologist ------------------------------------------- 650.00
Nutrionist & Physical Therapist (3 visits each)------- 300.00
Total for the whole operation and program ------------ $15950.00
I saved umm, $19413.37!!!!
Well, haven't posted in awhile... Guess it is cause I have been waiting for that big Scale Victory that I am so close to! But the band has been really fickled for me the last few weeks, and my hungier pains seem to be above average.
I think it is time for that first fill, although I am still losing 8 pounds a month.. I guess I will call my surgeon tommorow and get some advice on what to do.
The image of that long needle going into my ribs is bothering me a little bit.
The good news, I did reach the 70 pound goal in two months, how can you say that is bad right? But things have basically come to a stop, a plateua, so time to adjust I believe.
Anyways, I will post soon, when that big SV happens... Till then, I continue the walking and exercising in hops to reach it!http://promize.brinkster.net/wlspictures/phoenixflames.gif">
(drum roll please)
I can now say....... that....... I weigh in the 300's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That's right, no longer am I a 400's person, never never never again.... I am proud to say, I past that mark with a 5 pound lost over the holiday weekend. No fattening food for me! I never thought I would get past it, I mean I was stuck at 401, 405, 402, 405, 401 and on and on for 2 weeks! (does the SV dance) Today I can proudly say I weight 397lbs!
Now, I have only told a couple people this, but while I was at my plateau of lower 400's I did check my stomach measurement. Since August sometime, I have lost a total of 5 inches around my waist!!!!!!! Hooray again for me! (does the NSV dance)
Before classes started this month, I had to get some new clothes. Everyone, I think, has seen the pics of those HUGE shorts I was wearing that barely fit me anymore. Well when I ordered them, I thought they were a certain X size. So I ordered what I thought was just 1 X size smaller. Well they arrived and when I put them on, I could fit into them, but they was still a little tight. I was like, hummm, that is odd? So I picked up the old pair and then the new pair and noticed that I had ordered 2x smaller shorts!!!!! And I actually fit into them!!! Somewhat? Another 10-15 pounds I will be fitting into those... So another NSV of a 2x clothing drop! (does another NSV dance!)
Now one of the most important NSV that I could post and the one that gets this old man a bit teary eyed. I met my 3 year old niece over the weekend. I had not seen her since she was 3 months old. I was very nervous that she would be scared of me cause of my weight, or I would be that one relative she didn't get along with. Because of my huge weight in the pass, I always missed going to family outings and things. I just didn't want to people to see me huffing and puffing etc. Well anyways, 95% of the time I kept up with a 3 year old girl who wanted to show me EVERYTHING she did the whole weekend.. It felt so good... I had wanted to meet her for so long and it only took like 5 minutes for her to open up to me.. I was a very proud Uncle as I got to see her olympic swimming event and her olympic horse show.. Of course those are her goals at age 3 already... LOL
Wow, almost a month since I last updated. Things haven't been all great, but then they haven't been bad either. I'm in my last semester of college and this year semester isn't easy. Don't they suppose to be nice to us our senior year?
Anyways, my weight loss had hit a big plateau, I couldn't get pass the 399 mark and kept going from 410 to 399 to 405 etc. Wasn't making any progress like I had before.
This Friday I finally had my first appointment for a fill adjustment. I didn't really like the hospital at all I went to, was in the ghetto, old, and the staff seemed a little second rate. It was definitely not Scottsdale Shea. While waiting for the surgeon, I was about to freeze, they had the air conditioner blasting in the middle of fall! Another 10 minutes probably would of had to be diagnosed for freezer burn! lol
Anyways, the surgeon finally arrived and I got up on the flouro table and there it was, the image of my little port inside my body. All straight, nothing twisted, etc.. Was neat to see. The nurse started prepping me up with the iodine etc and then the doc turned around with that 6 inch needle!!!! What the hell I said!?!? your not gonna numb me first? He was like no, the needle is very thin ... And actually, I barely felt a thing when it went in. Once done there, had to do a sip test, and wow, definitely a new sensation. Water wasn't going down very well at all. Rest of the day I made sure I didn't eat, didn't want to take a risk or anything.
So the next day, I went to lunch sort of early.. Ran to Wendy's to get a small thing of chili, at first the two first bites were pretty hard to get down.. So I made sure I chewed the food well and it seemed to go down ok, this was about 11am. All of the sudden around 2:30 my stomach just began to give me cramps and I began to get nausious.. I started dry heeving several times..
Rest of the day I was miserable, nautious, sore tummy and diareah.. Still not sure what is going on, but sort of shows signs of food poisioning.
This morning I'm little better, but stomach is still a bit woozy and tumbling.
I am down to 393 though, I guess that is a good thing?http://promize.brinkster.net/wlspictures/wolf_eyes_md_blk.gif">
You know, even though the weight continues to fall off and that is great, the emotional or psychy side of things can be hard to deal with. You are feeling better about yourself, you have more energy etc, but the facts of life it doesn't solve things like companionship or dating. I am sure it will in the future, but I wish it was a snap of the fingers type thing you know. Guess I am blue cause the holidays are coming up, and just another year of not being able to share it with anyone.
As far as the band, took this long for it to really start to fill tight. Odd huh? About 2 weeks after the fill I start feeling the affects, well that is good, means I should start losing again at a good rate.
I focused again a little harder on my exercise, then I was doing before. Before it was mostly just walking and a few weights, but now it is full fledge weights and really working at it hard. To be honest, I am a bit sore today, but I think that is the workout + being cold outside.
Anyways, a year from now, I should be in a better mood huh? Maybe in love? Or better yet, someone loving me. :) Talk to you soon.
Exercise: I can't?
Yes you can!
This is for all of you who say "I can't exercise" for whatever reason...
I'm to out of shape....
I'm to big....
I'm scared it will hurt my band....
Let me tell you, I was all of the above and I am doing just fine....
Just got back from the gym, right now it is averaging about 1:20 - 1:50 hour:minutes.
Stretching / Warmup - 6 laps around inner track.
Bike - 10 to 15 minutes (I really do hate the cardio part)
Lower Back Machine
Lat Row Machine
Bicep Curl Barbel
Shoulder Press Machine
Chest Incline Press Machine
Peck Deck Machine
Leg Extension Machine
Leg Press Machine
Bench Press Machine
Shoulder / Back Pulldown
Calf Raise Machine
If I can do it, you can do it!!!! Rarely, I do feel a little pinch from the port, but that is about it.. I know I have shed about 6-7 inches around my waist, and my bat flap arms are now become batman muscles
Now get out there and exercise!http://promize.brinkster.net/wlspictures/phoenixflames.gif">
Hooray! Made it through Halloween without buying any candy at all! No bags... Not a one! Hoooray! I did have a sugar cookie though decorated with halloween theme, but about it.
Ok, so I don't understand why all these boards people are sometimes to hateful or backstabbing? Aren't we all here to help each other? To give support etc? Doesn't make since people would toy with other peoples emotions, or say nasty things behing their backs etc. I just don't get it, and it has really turned me off to posting on the boards at all. You also put trust in some people, or believe in them and they turn against you as well. The internet at times can be a cruelier place then the real world, atleast I can see their face when they insult me or talk bad about me. Here you gotta hear it throw the grapevine.
Now with that all being said, I guess I am again sort of at a plateau. But, let me say I am feeling a ton better overall health wise. The exercise is really doing some wonders in my shoulders, my chest and my arms. My knees as well are getting stronger. The only thing about doing cardio (if it isn't the bike) is that walking and jogging does a number on my feet. I have upped my time doing walking and cycling though, so hopefully it will pay off.
Interesting test next weekend for me though.. Going to the Rams football game and I have avoided stadiums quite sometime now cause of having to fit into those little tiny seats. Never been to the Rams stadium though, but I have done a few seats lately at the auditoriums at the college and other places, and I finally fit into those.. So wish me luck! Will see if I have a new NSV or not next week.
First let me say, I went to the Rams game and basically sat very comfortably in the seats. My knees hurt a little bit from being squished in the isle, but heck my knees have always hurt when having to go to one of those sporting arenas. I had such a great time, 50 yard line tickets! What a view it was, could see everyone, their expressions, everything. Was so fun and good to see my uncle, aunt and my good buddy.
Today I did some measurements, so these are my 5 month measurements:
Upper stomach: 58" (66" start)
Waist (belly button): 66 (75")
Chest : 55" (58 1/2")
Neck : 18" (19 1/2")
So thats what? 22 inches gone? Yay for me!Oh, I am at 375lbs now, 4 more hits my Century mark! (-100lbs)
December 5th, 2004
December 5th, 2004... There is a day to remember, why?
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December 21st, 2004
Whelp gang, first off, sorry I haven't been around much to respond to your post / emails / IM's etc. The last 3 weeks I have been pulling my hair out and stressing real hard. There was a ton of projects I had to complete for college and many, many test. But Saturday, I went to my graduation.
I do have recent pictures from thanksgiving / graduation / pre-xmas celebration I will try to get up later this week. I am buckling down for a big winter storm tonight in SE Missouri. Supposedly we suppose to get from 7 - 14 inches of snow! Hooray? Sort of, I love snow... Always have, but I got to admit since losing all this weight I am just constantly freezing my arse off! I guess I need to grin and bare it to be able to see my snow!
As far as my weight loss, it continues to go downwards... I have lost another 5 pounds since my century mark which is great. Basically, this whole lapband thing and watching what I eat etc has become second hand now, I don't really focus on it anymore or stress about it. It has now become a habit and I just let things happen like they should.
A big NSV/SV? Not sure what it falls under is that I am now in the 40's of my BMI!!!! Yes, I started in the 60's and now I am in the 40's! Miracle... hooray! Oh yah, bought a new suit also and I think I look pretty good in it? Heh, I have pictures, those will come soon as well.
I had an early Xmas celebration because of graduation and all, and one of the big surprises I got was a new set of clubs. My mom said my face was in shock when my aunt/uncle brought them out... and I was I really wasn't expecting anything so nice for a graduation/xmas present. I am so excited about getting back onto the greens next spring. Golf has always been one of my favorite things, but walking with all this weight wasn't.
So now the question is, how much time will I be able to spend on the computer? That question is unsure. My focus now is to find a job, any job, anywhere in this United States. It is scary to go back to the workforce for sure, especially at my age, and just having that new graduate feeling of your not sure you are ready for your field of study? Did that make since? Hope so.
I have peeked on a few times to see what people were up to, sorry I didn't get to post responses.
Whelp, to wrap this up, I am going to be in Phoenix next month, so if anyone lives around there a few OH people I know are going to meet up .. So maybe you can come by and say hi! Of course I am still nervous about the plane flight, not the fact of crashing or flying, but just the possibility of being embarrassed or such about my size...
Talk to you soon!
I am going to try and make a little Xmas present for the boards, but not sure ill have time
March 15th, 2005
Yah I know, long time since I last posted! I am sorry!
So here it is, March 15th again, my birthday... 38 years old now... unreal...
I'm closing in fast to my 1 year anniversary of my Lapband surgery and I am not sure what to think of my life currently. I have mixed feelings and emotions on how things are right now and how I feel.
Am I healthier then I was a year ago? But of course, without a doubt! Thats exciting isn't it? I've had to move out of my apartment this month, so been moving everything out on my own.. Something I couldn't do a year ago or two years ago (I had to have my family move for me last time)... Moving was something I use to do on my own about 10 years ago with ease. So having the energy to move on my own, thats a good thing right?
I pulled out my clubs yesterday and started swinging again. I haven't played golf in like 4-5 years, something I have greatly missed, but I defintely plan to play quite a bit this year Unfortunately, I still have a stupid slice on my driver
I flew on a plane for the first time in 10 years! A huge thing for me and my confidence. Was a little cramp, didn't need two seats though, just a seat belt extender... I suppose I can handle that.
But wasn't the lapband suppose to fix everything in my life? Awwh yes, a ridiculious statement I know, but I think a statement that some of us say to ourselves deep inside when we considered this operation. At 130 pounds lighter in my life, I thought for sure that my love life, social life, work life etc would all be different by now... But as I sit here this morning typing on the computer, nothing yet has changed really in my life but being healthier. Now don't get me wrong, that is probably the most important aspect of it all right? To be healthier and to live longer, but it sure would be nice to be able to share that lifestyle with someone or people? Spending the holidays alone (meaning a significant other) and then confronting my birthday alone is still a tough aspect for me to handle. So I wonder, whats the problem... I've been told im cute, I have a handsome face (or atleast been told that) and then I look in the mirror and i see the problem! I'm still fat, worse yet, im fat with sagging skin now as well! Morbid I know, but it is some of the demons that I am fighting with right now and for some of you.. you have already heard it before from me.
So what next... Awwh, this diploma from college im staring at? Waste of time? How do you impress an interviewer at age 38, when your starting basically a whole new career and your coming into the job as an entry level worker. Worse yet, how about those horrific looks you get when you walk in for an interview, all I can think of is they are thinking "Great, my health insurance is gonna go up with this guy around."
Now for the Lapband, how has that been? For the first 8 months it was great! Actually, when I went back to Phoenix in January they were over pleased at my progress, 100+lbs with only 1 fill? How could you not be pleased right? I was for sure as well as my surgeon. But something happen in February, not sure what? Was it slight depression? Was it just the winter months? Not sure what it was, but everything I did was wrong on the steps to follow for the lapband.
Things I did wrong:
- Wasn't drinking my 64oz of water a day
- Any time I felt just a tad bit of restriction I would immediately try to throw it up. Basically I was beating the lapband.
- Was sitting in my apartment all day doing very limit amount of exercise each week.
- Sweets became my friend (dairy queen), easier to go down, melted in mouth etc.
- Worse yet, I haven't been using OH message boards as a support place for several months now.
Gained 15 pounds... Not good
So finally, a couple weeks ago I guess I woke up again and have been trying to fix my bad habits that I fell into. I am letting the band work for me again, instead of trying to throw things up when I feel restriction. This of course helps with the feelings of fullness longer. Back to drinking my water as well as excersing each day. Lucky for me, I dropped the pounds I had gained right back off and I'm back down to my last successful weight measurement. I actually hope to be in the 350's next week which would be a new target goal for me.
I believe that sort of sums up everything for me and what i've been doing and going through. I think one of the biggest mistakes i've done is not use these boards like I use to get support and warm feelings that all of you use to give me on a daily basis. I also miss giving out support to those who need it and wanted inspiration as well. I know when I first had my operation, people like Kim K., Sharon T, Dana and several others were around to push and encourage me.
Ok enough! Sorry about my rambling on lolhttp://promize.brinkster.net/wlspictures/phoenixflames.gif">
It is sort of interesting looking at how people update their sites during this process. For the first 6 months, it seems the majority try to sign on everyday. Post how they lost 1 or 2 pounds etc. But when you make that century mark or the 6 month process, the frequently of most people drop off on posting their information. The big successes usually just happen when they hit big marks then or plastic surgery info.
I wonder why?
I've been that way also, I guess now maybe it has just become a way of life? Or maybe it is cause the weight loss speed has slowed down now, so your not like Holy Cow! another 5 pounds?
Anyways, why I bring this is up, I noticed that my post are now like in month intervals and was trying to figure out why. :)
Well the other news is, im crushing on this friend of mine. Good right? Hooray?!? Well sort of... Remember when I posted that its nice to look like im 27/28? Well now it seems women that age or younger are interested in me. Should I go for it? Someone that much younger? I mean, losing all this weight not only for my health, was to get a social life also.
This week I hope to hit my 150 overall weight loss mark! Wooo Hoo!
Why did I choose band against RNY...
1 - about 100% less abrassive surgery... The soreness, down time, the chance of something happening on the surgery table etc is minimized a ton... Since I was completely scared of any surgery (being a virgin to the surgery table) I did not want to take any extra steps something could happen.
2 - I wanted to keep my internal organs just how they are... I didn't want to lose anything from my body, or change anything inside my body.. With the band, all it is, is a little restriction to slow down eating... Also, if something would ever happen, I could easily get it taken out... where as RNY is for life, and people have to deal with any problems that occur with it....
3 - Funny enough, I do like exercising and since the band is a tool that works with healthy eating and exercise, I knew I would be successful... Why I hadn't exercise like I should of before the band, the weight had gotten so high that it was just way to much on my knees anymore...
4 - Unlike RNY where you suppose to lose just about everything in the first 4-6 months, Lapband full success is in about 2 years... This would give my body time to get back to a normal size etc... The chances of flabby skin all over is less minimized as I exercise and drink plenty of water....http://promize.brinkster.net/wlspictures/grimreeper.jpg">
May 8th, 2005
Ok boys and girls, let us talk about what not to do to your band. The last week and half I have had a miserable time! And it was pretty much my fault, cause I slacked off and didn't follow the rules.
Tuesday of last week I was working out in the yard and got hungry, so got a Wendy's salad. Well, instead of eating slow and sitting down I sort of took it with me while I was working. And I guess ate it to fast. Mind you, salads have never really given me any problems before. Well I felt discomfort and restriction, so I stopped eating it. The restriction lasted basically all day and finally around 5pm I had to drink some water and throw it up.
So I threw it up and felt fine, was hungry that day for some reason, I had really worked hard in the hard I guess. So I ate a small dish of lasagna, but I ate it normally and fast. Big mistake I think! From then on, I was in a world of pain and discomfort for 7 days. I probably at most, got 30oz of water down and two fingernail size pieces of chicken down. Something definitely wasn't right!
Well after searching for 4 days for a surgeon who would take an outside lapband patient, finally found one. Walked in, talked about 5 minutes, and then after that, it took about 6 minutes for them to unfill me, flush me out, whatever was stuck dropped down, refill me and I was back to normal.
Yah, the last couple days I have still been a little swollen or sore, but I guess that is to be expected from a week of throwing up and heartburn.
May 27, 2005
So guess what happen to Dirk AGAIN! Damn symptoms of slippage... Since Wednesday night I had been throwing up over and over again. All of this while I traveled from Georgia to St. Louis. My throat, chest, etc was just killing me from all the throwing up and had to see my past doctor here in St. Louis. Of course this was his day off, so he had my go to the ER.
After bloodwork, 20 x-rays etc... I was clogged again, which was the good news I guess?
What sort of made me mad though, was this surgeon said, the 2 weeks ago, when I was first stopped up and they took the fill out... They should of kept the fill out for about 2 weeks or so until my stomach had time to heal and the swelling went down. He figures that over the last 2 weeks I have just kept it irratated over and over again and just swelled up again. He also started thinking that maybe the bad was just a bit to tight.
So, they took 1cc out of me, which of course instantly releaved me from my pain... It still leaves about .5cc in and I still feel a tad bit of restriction, so that is good news...
But MAN what a month, it hasn't been fun month at all ...
Other then that, the good news is, I have a date tommorow... LOL and it is actually with a gal from OH ... So wish me luck!
June 7th, 2005
1 year........ Wow... Well so you know, there wasn't any fireworks or anything yesterday, so guess it isn't an "official" holiday yet.
What can I say about this experience. It has had its up and downs for sure, but mostly positive of course. I have lost 140 lbs, which is basically an average person. So imagine not having to carry that around on my back all the time and on my joints. It has opened up doors that were closed for so long. Like confidence, health and many other things... But let me say, it hasn't solved ALL my problems in life, which I think in the back of our minds when we first have this surgery we think it might.
I did make a little flash movie, sort of put it together fast, and well of course it isn't completed yet cause my journey isn't completed yet!
Takes a bit to download and you might need to install flash player.
P.S. - The date didn