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Obese Families in Crisis: The Intervention
Jan 26, 2009
So what a day! I took some time to watch Oprah's Obese Families in Crisis: The Intervention. And must i say that was like changing! Why? Well b/c there were so much that i never knew was my problem of me being obese and my attitude of food. I mostly thought it was b/c i loved it, but there is some thing else, some other connection that i have for food. I must say i never thought i was an emotional eater, till this point i still am not sure that i am, but after watching Oprah today and crying my eye balls out, i really understand my out look on food now.What i did like about the intervention was that there were questions that was raised and need to be said aloud. I am going to try it. I really can't do it with my parents ,b/c they won't understand my craziness but i figure it would be best to but it on my blog
1. "If you really knew me"............................
If you really knew me you would know that most of the time i feel incomplete, as if something is missing in my life. You would know that at times a enjoy being alone and i mean a lot. If you knew me you would know i get hurt deeply for other and pour it all to my self... i feel as if i have to change there lives. If you knew me you would know that i am a people pleaser, I will do anything for someone to make sure they like me .... that they will love me and NOT HATE ME!!!!!!!!!.... There is a void that needs to be filled and even i don't know how to fill it. If you knew me you would know that when i am sad, lonely , depressed i listen to The Corrs' Hurt before.... 20 times that day. If you knew me you would know that I smile to hind the pain and frustration that i have with myself...
2. " I'm angry that".....................
I am angry that I can never stick to the promises i make to myself. I am angry that I can't make my family proud no matter what i do, or if I am happy. I am angry that no one finds me attractive. I am angry that i can't find clothes to wear to my meeting. I am angry that i don't know what i want. I am angry that i can't acommplish my goal, b/c i give up. I am angry that i spend money like crazy just to lose weight and have nothing happen. I am angry that all the money i make goes to just food, I am poor b/c i am FAT....I am angry that my sister can do nothing wrong. I am angry because i am the biggest when i hang out with my friends and famliy. I am angry that my family lets me know I'm fat. I am angry that i want to do so much but i can't. I am angry that i can't afford to buy clothes. I am angry that i hate my body. I am angry that i am weak. I am angry when i get sad. I am just angry .............................AT MYSELF.
