Somethin to think about....
Feb 20, 2010
So I've really been thinkin the past couple of days about this 6 month thing. Since talkin to my Dr I have come to the conclusion that he's right. And, GOD knows what his children need, so if Im meant to have it I will and it will be worth the wait. Im gonna take this time to not only get my self in better mental/physical shape...but also spritually. I LOVE my GOD like i love none other. Above my children, my spouse and myself. Now, I dont usually get "all religious" cause I dont wanna push my views on anyone...but theres times I just have to shout it from the rooftops n give credit where it's due. I just wanna thank GOD for giving me this tool that could change my life. Just the fact that a sugery like this exsists is a miracle to many. Some of us wonder why we have to be the "fat" ones and why we have to go thru the struggles we do. But, quite honestly, I'd rather be morbidly obese than suffering from cancer while my babies watch me waste away to nothing. Not that it couldnt ever happen, but at this point in my life praise Lord its not. I guess what Im sayin is we all have strife n sorrow in this life...its how you face it. Are you gonna sit back and be all poor me? Or are you gonna get off your butt and take advantage of the tools GOD has made available to you? We are strong women and have been chosen to go through the things we have because GOD has that much faith in us that we can overcome. GOD is Love.
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Well, well. Whoda thunk.....
Feb 19, 2010
Well, went to PCP today to beg for him to write off on my 6 mos of consecutive weight management and he would not. I have the coolest damn PCP n the world though. We sat n talked for bout 30 min bout everything. He said he would because he believes I am a great candidate for WLS and will do well with it, he just thinks it would be best to do all the preliminary things n really take the 6 mos to get in the best position (mentally/physically) I can be for surgery. Which after having talked to him I believe he's right (as bad as it sucks lol). I have some depression issues right now, whats funny is I didnt even know I was depressed. There are many factors contributing to it though. I just lost my Father quite unexpectedly last July (he was only 51) and still won't allow or can't allow myself to deal with it. I also was hurt at work and lost all medical coverage AND MY JOB, drew Workers Comp for about 6 mos til they dropped me without properly giving me the treatment I needed. Don't worry girls~Lawsuit...Im on it! My husband also lost his job at the same place for some bogus sh&t, but thank GOD he's got a different job. It's just been a good run of bad luck, but thanks be to the Man above it's getting better. My home life is great, I love my Hubby like none other, he's my soul mate and we got along like Best Friends. My kids are totally awesome and so much fun! N were better off financially then we have been in ages (Praise Jesus!) But I'm depressed. Which explains why I feel like the couch is quicksand n my ass is stuck in it all the time. So startin some Zoloft n been tryin some anxiety med...got my fingers crossed. Anyways Dr went ahead and ordered my sleep study cause evidentally after talkin to him I found out its not normal to wake up every mornin feeling as though someone has beat the Hell outta you and you have not rested at all...whoda thunk? And finally, my PCP gonna get in contact with my WLS surgeon (because their office is notorious for having horrible communication issues) and make sure he can get the ball rollin for me. So thats how Im rollin for now....................
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I f'n hate shoppin
Feb 14, 2010
Went to Lexington shoppin with my best friend. Of course she's small n can wear anything. Went to a store where you pay $150 each for one pair of jeans. You know it was all skinny little things in there buyin these clothes. But anyways the salesman comes up to us and totally ignores me but bends over backwards to help her. Ok so they dont carry my size in this store but the least you can do is greet me, i mean for all he knows I could have wanted to purchase my hubby some of these ridiculously priced jeans. Finally after weve been in the store like 15 min and she's tryin on clothes this other salesman says hi n asks if he can help me...I said F no! I said I wouldnt buy a bucket of water from this store if I was on fire. Making sure I said it loud enough for the WHOLE store to hear. Then the original salesman comes up n asks whats wrong what happened. I told him I didnt appreciate bein overlooked and yeah they may not have anythin to cover my big a$$ in there but the least he could do is tell me hi cause for all he knows i could have been shoppin for my hubby n he just lost a sale...then he kept tryin to apologize n I said ya know dont worry about it, theres a Fossil store right across from this one n I can get him 5 pair for what I would pay for one here! Then I walked out. Im so sick of stuff like this. I cant wait til I have my surgery and am smaller. Im gonna go in that same store n seek out the same salesman and pick up like 5 pair of jeans...then just when it comes time to pay for them Im gonna say "Wait, I just remembered youre the guy who wouldnt even speak to me when I was fat.....Im still not buyin anythin here, Im goin to Fossil" LOL
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