little quiver of nerves

Jan 29, 2017

so, little bit nervous. it is coming. less than two months now. THE SURGERY. i know it seems silly to fuss and i have been looking forward to this for some time. and i also feel that this is the best thing for me and will be a new chapter in life for me. i AM excieted. but a little scared. all surgery comes with risks. so I am a bit worried. 

I am also worried because my father just had a quad bypass. and he had problems waking up from it. kidney failure and an infection. and when my mom had her knee surgury last year she had a terrible reaction to T3s . i know my partents experiences will not necissarily be mine. but it is something to think aobut. the surgeon i spoke to seemd confidnet about my chances. even said i was a healthy canditate. so i have that going for me. 

i thank heavens for all of you here. (even if no one reads this but me) i will probably make a post about it eventually. but it is so nice to hear befores and afters. it is great to see photos and hear stories. both good and bad. it is nice not to feel alone. that is one thing that i dont feel going through this is alone. everyone on OH is super great about makeing you feel part of a community. 

i know i said i was nervous but it is not enough nervous to make me quit. i have come this far. i have done this much. it is too late to back out now i would regret it for the rest of my life. i need to do this. i want to do this. it is time, past time, to do this. 

ok deep breath lets look up some opti reciepes 

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