Cristina K.

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i am so totally happy with my weight & my body. I am the same weight i was in October - but that doesnt matter to me. I am wearing a size 11- looking great - both to myself & others.I am hoping & working to stay this same weight all my life- if i flucuate a few pounds i work on it & loose it within a week.  I know if i were to focus & buckle down - i could be "smaller" but i choose not to be.  I still want curves & my man loves me the size i am. I dont feel people are looking at me because of my size - i feel i look great - i feel awesome - even naked i think i look great- which is a bonus.  i am totally happy where i am & if i can stay here - i will be totally fine & happy for the rest of my life. i am small & feel awesome. :D

I am doing the 10 day plateau buster diet right now. on day 3- its going well. i have lost 5 pounds in 3 days.
I have found that not keeping a log of what i eat & when i eat it - has been my downfall.
i am into a 12/13 pant size right now & i have been telling myself i am fine with that. BUT - i do know that i can do it & really want to do it (get to 136 like the doctor wants me to)
i have found that if i do not keep it on the top of my mind - all day everyday - i am sabotaging myself.
I still eat small amounts, stay away from sugar & high fat....but- i do eat out with my freinds & family & not always at the healthiest of places.
I have started going to support group meetings with my sister (who has also had WLS) - i think i need to. its so nice just to sit & listen (or ask questions) with a group of people who have been where i am - or need my advice or suggestion to help them.
I also will be getting in here more often, as i like the whole new flow & make up of the site. the weight tracker, the ticker, the food logs - all awesome.
i also like to read others logs & see the posts on others progresses. It keeps me motivated.
this surgery is not easy - it is a whole change of life & habits & a life long commitment. I think i have just now realized that.
 I think i thought before when i am "normal" size- i could "act" normal. that isnt so....
thanks to everyone on this site who keeps the inspiration & support going. i for one- deeply appreciate it.

I have been doing well. i have lost 79 pounds so far. I am feeling good & excited about all the weight i have lost.  i have hit a few stalls along the way- but i re-evaluate what i am doing at the time & it doesnt last long. I have lost 51 inches of flab.
I am now noticing all the excess skin - yuck. But - i guess its easier to camoflague a few trouble areas than a whole body of fat.
I have been noticing I have been hard on overweight people- I shouldnt be like that, i know - but i seem to be becoming prejudiced towards them.
I dont think i will ever get used to the "hey skinny" - its something i have never been called!
I am now running into the people who are like - dont be getting too skinny, you are fine where you are.... Do people really think i care about what they think??? I am doing this for me & i will quit when i feel good about my weight.
Dr Schram says i should be 136 pounds by Halloween ( my one year) - but for me personally, my goal is 145 pounds. I dont want to be skin & bones- just slender. But  I guess i will decide when i get closer to both weights & see what i think.
I have wayyy too many clothes- i have cleaned out my closet after every size & its now time again. first got rid of the 3x & 22's. then got rid of the 20's & 2x's. next the 18's & 1 x's. Now - its time to get rid of all the 16, 15's & XL's. I am wearing L or some Mediums, 14 & 13's. I have spent wayyy too much money (even at Goodwill prices, i have spent over $400) on clothes. I have started taking in the clothes as they get too big, I am not buying anymore clothes until I am at a 10. A size 8 or 9 is where i plan on stopping- no matter what the scale says.... going from a 22 to an 8 would be heaven.
I am finally "normal" both on the scale & in BMI range. I am so happy not to be categorized as "Morbidly Obese"- what a terrible name -

I  have given away all my clothes size 18 & over. I am trying to condense my closet. I have had a few issues lately. Everyone is making comments as to how much weight i have lost. But- some do it in less tactfull ways than others. " you better start eating", "you are so little theres gonna be nothing left", "you better be exercising"... why cant people be happy for me? Why is there always someone trying to put me down for what i have done?
My boss is having a freaking competition with me - "i exercised so much last night i cant move today" - crap like that--- she doesnt want me to get smaller than her i guess - its so annoying! i have come a long way, sacrificed alot & she cant just let me have that! she has to compete with me. she always has to be the center of attention. oh well- i guess i have to deal with it.
i have been slacking on my exercise - havent been doing it at all. i am really disappointed in myself for that.
eating was such a big part of my life that i have been trying to fill that void with something. people still try to pressure me into eating things i know i shouldnt- they dont realize this surgery wasnt a temporary fix! - this is forever!
i have started smoking & drinking on the weekends- i never been into much since my seizures- but now it happens so much faster! i need to keep an eye on it b4 it gets out of control. I guess i am just in an unknown point in my life. i have had such a dramatic change to it & havent learned how to deal with it yet. I was just divorced about a year ago & my ex is still in my life - i am in limbo! i dont know where i am headed - but- i know where i want to be.
i have lost 58 pounds & am having such a renewal of my life ! my sex life is better - its so different without the extra added weight - it like we are 18 again, but on the other hand - he is more jealous than ever.
i guess i maybe need a little guidance from someone who has been here before..???

I went to my 3 month check up with Dr Schram on Wed. I am doing very well. I am 3 days away from 3 months & down 52 pounds already. He says i have lost 43% of my excess weight so far. I am ahead of where he normally expects his patients to be (30% is the norm) He says i am at a 5-6 month level. Which is awesome, I felt i wasnt losing enough, so it makes me feel good to know i am. I feel so good right now. i weigh 204, am down to a 16 pant, XL shirt. (from 22 & 2/3 x)
Dr Schram said my goal weight should be 136 & he sees me hitting that befor my 1 year anniversary on 10-28-09.
It is getting easier- i dont crave things i know i cant have. I read labels all the time- too many sugars- i immediately put it down. I am eating about 400-700 calories a day normally. A few times i have been so busy at work i just done have time to eat anything- which is bad, i know. 
 

Feeling great, rolls are getting smaller. Down from size 22 to 16. People are really starting to notice the difference finally !!
I can run up 40 stairs at work & not be half as winded as i was before WLS. I am excited! only 70- more pounds until i hit my goal weight. My first "goal" is just to be under 200... only 10 more pounds to go.

I am down to 223 now. I have been doing good on watching what i eat but i am having difficulty on counting things. I cannot seem to eat anything that isnt " pre measured" - I dont know whats in it i dont know if i am getting enough protein in. My weight loss has slowed dramatically & i know that is why. I also am having a hard time eating every 2-3 hours, at work i am on the run & i am never hungry. time flies & before i know it, its 2 or 3 oclock. i am also a little discouraged that no one really notices my weight loss. i am down 3 pant sizes already & i can definitely tell. maybe they just dont wanna be nosey or imply i was huge before ( i was!)
i have discovered something this week- eating used to be my thing , i loved it, i could do it all day. now, its like a job, a chore- something i have to make myself do!
i am not sure if i am on track with my weight loss either. i dont feel like i am - but i dont know! i mean, i know 5 1/2 pounds a week is awesome, but sometimes i feel like its not enough. i guess i want it instantly.

I got this from Queen323's prifile today: "Pre-ops or newbies that may read my blog please know that as most say this process is 10% physical and 90% mental. I love the new me I have become and although I “think” I’m the same I must admit I’m not. I’m more disciplined, confident, sexy, sassy, and comfortable with myself than I ever was before even when I was smaller. I look at situations differently than I would have a year ago and I’m a better woman than I was before. April 14^th was truly my “birthday” and I have to recognize in order to take advantage of the gift of new life I must say goodbye to the old one and that’s HARD because I’ve known that woman for 31 years. I MOURN the passing of the old me and celebrate the entrance of the new me. She had 31 years now its time for me to give this other girl that was always in me her time in the spotlight. "
I read her posting & it really moved me. If you have time go read the entire post. She is at a point where she cant shop at the plus size stores any longer. Her words were so poignant, they brought tears to my eyes.
I cannot wait to be there at that point. It seems like I have been waiting for 17 years now.
I have lost 24 pounds so far, in 26 days- weight loss is slowing a bit- but i also have been slacking on my exercise- instead of 6 days a week its more like 4. I need to get better & keep to a set time. I wait until 9pm & then i'm like , well- i'll do it tomorrow.
I am happy though that my pants look terrible on me :) My mom said they look like pajama pants because they are so baggy.Ha! I have been able to also fit into a few clothes I couldnt wear before.
I am in the pureed food stage & I find it much more satisfying. I think i am going to turn into tuna fish. It is tasting so good, its high in protein too.

I have been doing well. I am up to 21 pounds lost so far. I am very excited about that. I do think i need to get rid of my scale (or least make it not easily accessible) I find myself weighing in 2 times a day, every day. I guess i think the pounds are magically going to fall off or something!
I have been working out 1 hr a day on my treadmill 6 days a week. I am feeling good about that. I am unsure how i will fit it in or find a set time once i return to work- i need to come up with a plan!
I have also discovered that i am an emotional eater! I never thought i was. I just discovered it, this past Saturday. i used to go get a pizza & have 4 or 5 slices ( no one is home with me on the weekends :) ) - now its like whoa! what am i going to do? it was hard & i am dealing with it.
Its been 19 days already, I dont even know if 21 pounds in that amount of time is good or not? Does anyone know?
i have overcome many hurdles this past week- of which i am very proud of myself: college class ordered out for Piza Hut, my nephew had a birthday party w/ cake & ice cream of course, went to the movies with my mother & had 2 pieces of her popcorn.
I think the fear of being sick stops me from even attempting to eat anything not on "the list" of approved puree stage foods.
I have time with myself now (that sounds strange) to really think about this life transformation- i am not stuffing my face with food so i have to think! I need to find me someone in my life that i can share things with. Not necessarily a boyfriend (but that would be nice! ) but a man that i can share things, listen to, who will listen to me, spend time together, cuddle on the couch with. I need someone to be there for me.
I love to cook, but now its hard because i cant be the taste tester- i never know if its good or crap!

i am doing well. Feeling pretty dang good. I had my first "episode" of frustration- my son made a 4 cheese pizza & i thought i was gonna freak out. I have 2 absolute favorites in foods: pizza & mexican food. I was glad my ex had dropped by , i made him eat most of it. the temptation was unbearable after 8 days on full liquids.
I have asked my college class to please not order pizza (at least for now!) - hopefully they will respect my request. I have decided when i do make pizza- i'm only going to cook what will be eaten. non left over on the counter!
I have begun walking on my treadmill, i am upto 20 minutes. pretty good for someone who didnt do any exercise other than my daily working & shopping, etc.
My sister had the same surgery a little over a year ago, my friend had it over 10 years ago. They are great support system for me, they give me tips, advice & i can ask them anything. They know the answers beacuse they have been there before.
I am going grocery shopping today to get a few different full liquid items, i am so sick of puddings, yogurt, popsicles & soup! I am going to pick up some juices, fudgecicles,frozen fruits,& some decaf coffee.
I have tried a few different protein supplements, most are pretty yucky. I did go spend 80 bucks on the liquid shots of protein (New Whey 42). They are pretty tolerable & a fast source of 42 grams of protein! i have found it very hard to get all the protein in on liquid diet without them.
I am working with my siblings to make the next 2 holidays a more activity based than food based events.
My family is BIG into eating. Eat till you have to go lie down, eat till its all gone, eat-eat-eat. More than half of the family is obese. I am a little scared of the feelings i may have when i see all the food i cant have. I will be into my pureed food stage by then so at least it will be a little easier to handle. I have been checking out the baby food section to see what choices there are. I also have recipes in my Barix handbook. Its already on my mind- i havent had to be in a setting yet where food is the "main event" & i know everyone will be watching me, especially if i start to cry or something!
I am so glad i chose the full bypass instead of the band. I am FORCED to change my entire way of thinking, living & bad habits. I know I can do it- it will take time to get going down the right path.
I am down 15 pounds already - i can feel the difference already . I am having my daughter take pictures of me, i wish i would have taken them before i went in! but thats ok- i at least can get them going. I am also going to take some measurements today.