so...now what?

Feb 23, 2009

I'm not a blogging person, really. i make lots of typos and its hella late so bare with me...
 when i first started meeting with Dr.Higa he gave me the statistics and about how much people normaly lose after surgery and keep off yadda...yadda...Well, he also had a goal in mind for me. he wanted to see me get down to 139. when he told me this at 271lbs i was like, i dont even remember seeing that weight on a scale! i was just stupified. well, after a few times seeing him i changed my goal to like 150ish, i just couldnt even imagine being 139 at all!!
 so i got down to 160 and flat-lined for quite a while. it was so fustrating, being right there...and....you....j..u.s.t CANT!!! but then i tried the 5 day pouch test and, (if you read my previos blog you'll see i still have a"bad habbit" of starving my slef aka 5 day pouch test!) i didnt even make it to day 5 and i lost those last 10lbs! i was so stoked, and i kept it off too! yeah, i would fluctuate 150...155..153...159...(oh no!)...154... just peachy keen!
 But then i took a look in the mirror and said to my self, "YOU CAN DO BETTER!" but it was hard, really hard, i got back up to 165 one week and its just all the damn easy, get up, and GO fast food! but i handled my self and did what i new i had to do...ditch it!
 no not all the way, its all about portion control and i think that week i was dealing with some marital problems. any way...
 so along comes my WLS aniverssary and im still at 150ish..eh...but not ok...then somthing happens...my body kicks back in to gear and im down 145...and a few weeks later...
        B  A  M ! ! !
                  139 bitches!!!!
 
 

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