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Wow in one month it will be two years since surgery. A loss of over 100lbs in total, and a totally new me, inside and out.....Unbelievable!! This journey has been amazing, with the support of family and friends I have achieved something that I never thought was possible.

I love my life, I love all of the positive energy that I surround myself with... I truly believe that what you give out is what you will receive in return....with that in mind I'm sending you positive wishes that you find that peace or those missing pieces of you on this, your journey.

Set for March 17th @ 1:00 PM     

Well Everyone I finally did it.   

For so many years I have sat on the side of the road watching my life go by and seeing my wants and desires float right on by. I used to get all fired up about something that I wanted to achieve in my life, only to come up with some dreaded excuse as to why I let myself quit. 

The truth was I was so afraid to believe in myself. For so many years I allowed others to dictate who I was by how I felt that they looked at me or how they made me feel. I truly believed that I was not worthy or not as good as the people that I loved.

When things would happen in my life, I would look around myself for that person or someone that I thought was supposed to save me from life.

I would have thought that when I looked around and saw no one standing there that I would have gotten the message. 

But it took about 18 years. Wow that is a lot of wasted time. 

My waking moment was when I last looked around yet again for my saviour, and found myself, I realized that the space wasn't empty, I was the one standing there. ME capable and beautiful me, and had been standing there all along waiting to be called upon for strength and comfort. 

The Kaiser class was the first step in the new me. I didnt look at is as something that I had to endure in order to get to my surgery. More as an outing with my best friends. And with each week came a new realization, a new hope and a sense of finally understanding who I was. 

Wow for six months, 26 weeks, I attended every single class.. rain or shine. I rode one bus and two trains to get to each one.. walked in freezing cold rain. It didn't matter, I was never late and I never missed them. 

For me that is an amazing and never before achieved acomplishment. !!!

I have completed all of my labs and am now just waiting to hear from the referral office to see a surgeon. 

at this I stand facing the mirror, and I take a bow.... 
  

this is me.. before the kaiser classes and after... 

http://i20.photobucket.com/albums/b248/spanish_eyez4u/sidebyside.jpg

Hey there! The time finally arrived. I am going to attend my third OPTIONS class!!!! 

At first I was very upset that I would have to going thru six months of classes to finally be able to get to surgery. But I have come to find out that I truly need to re evaluate myself and these classes give me the perfect opportunity to look within myself and progressively make the changes necessary in my lifestyle to bring me success on the loser's end... 

Much Love to you all !!!!

Well here we are in July and I still have not heard from Kaiser for the classes..... Does this mean that a year will pass before I even get to think about being a Loser!!! 

Feeling Frustrated, I have called the office many times only to be told that the person in charge of the bariatric schedule is either not in or is too busy to pick up her phone... please leave a message!!!!!! 

I asked if I could go to a different options program office, I was told that I would have to change doctor's and go through the whole process again!!! I think NOT 

***taking a deep breath......in.... and out...... in and out.......

i was so excited I could hardly wait for my orientation meeting. I arrived I kid you not 30 mins early *for me that is astronomical *Im always late. Upon going to the conference center I noticed there were two others that were just as anxious as I was. So we sat waiting for the staff to arrive to check us in. In trickled yet more and more members awaiting the moment the doors opened and the arches started glowing to the Journey ahead. 

For the most part we sat there, and when silence was just too much a woman started asking if anyone had any ideas and answers. That she had been waiting for so long and was clueless about so many things when it came to weight loss surgery. Seriously everyone was very anxious to get their answers... I sat back and when I saw that there truly was no one that knew anything about WLS... I just couldn't stand back and let them founder..... I truly knew the answers. I felt so alive, because I had information I could spread the news.. I could help ... and I did for the remainder of the time we waited for the staff.

I am truly blessed for I  have so much to be thankful for. I have wonderful friends that have already been down this road and have enlightened me, which led me to an Obesity Help conference, and eventually here. 

Now the class was very unenlightening, the Orientation instructor truly did not have useful information. 

I did however leave with a new understanding... I was yet to be put on a waiting list for the actual 24 week class to start... ho hum..  

So again I wait.... 

Til next time... 

I just got an appointment for my orientation!!!!! 

I will be going to Kaiser sunset on Tuesday May 22, at 5pm.. Im so excited.. and I just cant hide it....

I was sitting in my office busy as heck, but my mind was on when I would hear anything from my doctor about the referral. I got so busy, I never had the opportunity to call Kaiser to follow up... 

Today I logged onto my KP account.. and there sitting waiting for lil ole me was a nice message from Dr. Lal.... 

He informed me that I should be hearing from Kaiser Sunset's Bariatrics program shortly, and that if I did not hear from them by the end of May to let him know...... I can say things are definitely moving along and looking up for me....

:-) :-)

doing a lil happy dance

It has been four hours, and I am still looking at the email response from my PCP at Kaiser.... 
I cannot believe the words.......

I GOT YOUR E=MAIL AND WILL PLACE A REFERRAL FOR THE GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY.
HOPE YOU ARE WELL
DR. LAL 

Ask me why I am sitting here with the impression that I have just been asked to the Prom by the one and only person that I dreamed of. I know it is the first step... but I feel like I have climbed to the top of Moro Rock (Sequoia National Park) again....

Wooooo HOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!  HERE I COME