Rjshawn
Since I was about 16 years old I have been struggling with my weight. Unresolved issues that happened in my childhood resulted in me turning to food for comfort. Food always made me feel pleased and satified. I did lose some weight when I was 17 due to the fact that my Doctor said I will not be able to have children due to my weight so I lost about 50 pounds and then it happened!! I became pregnant with my now 17 year old daughter Unique. I took such good care of myself during my pregnancy and my daughter's birth was the most blessed and proudest moment of my entire life. But after she was born I developed post pardum depression and once again the weight came on and I gained 80 pounds. Then God blessed me again with a son 23 months later and the weight just kept coming and coming on. Though I breastfeed for 4 years (yes 4 years) my weight did not seem to go down.
Then as Me and their father's relationship was disssolving food became more and more my best friend, would eat when I was sad and when I was happy when I was stressed and when I was feeling lonely. I have always been active so moving around was not a problem especially with two little ones but as the years have come and gone I have developed some health problems, In 2004 I was diagnosed with Psuedo Tumor Cerebri which is a build up of pressure that forms in the brain. When I was going throught his I had massive headaches and had to get several spinal taps. Then my knees and ankles started to ache and one day I looked really good at myself in the mirror and I hated what I saw I actually asked God to take my life because I was so unhappy and God spoke to my heart and told me I was BEAUTIFUL that I have to learn to help and LOVE MYSELF. This is being a HARD Process for me learning to love myself but after 36 years of being unhappy at just looking at myself in pictures and not looking into Mirrors it is my day... my time to start Loving ME and doing what is best for me to live a long healthy life.
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