RubyDarkstar
Rededication
Aug 24, 2009
Well, it seems that I wasn't as prepared for the surgery as I thought. It was still a shock to realize that I can't eat whatever I want, when I want. As my body heals from the inflictions of having my innards replumbed, I'm starting to "get" what this new life I bought entails. The mourning period for my former self is slowly fading into the background, though I'm sure that those sad feelings will crop up now and again.
That said, I'm starting to feel lucky that I have been given this chance to reinvent myself as a happy, healthy person. Grateful, even. It does work. I have, after a few months of mourning, denial, and anger, and the whole spectrum of grief stages, decided to let my former self die, yes. But this sparkling new person, is ready to take my former self's place, and I'm looking forward to getting to know her, to be kind to her, and at all costs, protect her from harm. She is my new self, and I am she. I find my lackluster start in this process, is at last, starting to catch fire, and run. I"m an old bride about to renew her vows to my longest standing relationship---to myself.
0 comments
That said, I'm starting to feel lucky that I have been given this chance to reinvent myself as a happy, healthy person. Grateful, even. It does work. I have, after a few months of mourning, denial, and anger, and the whole spectrum of grief stages, decided to let my former self die, yes. But this sparkling new person, is ready to take my former self's place, and I'm looking forward to getting to know her, to be kind to her, and at all costs, protect her from harm. She is my new self, and I am she. I find my lackluster start in this process, is at last, starting to catch fire, and run. I"m an old bride about to renew her vows to my longest standing relationship---to myself.
About Me
Ashby, MA
Location
23.0
BMI
Surgery
06/09/2009
Surgery Date
Jun 13, 2009
Member Since
