Officially 10 months out

Jan 18, 2011

I can't believe it's been 10 months already! Time sure has flown by. I can honestly say, I love myself these days. I like what I see in the mirror, but, have to admit looking back, I don't recall seeing that morbidly obese person that's in my previous pics ever staring back at me! Life sure has drastically changed for me. I have tons of self-confidence, that I "thought" I've always had. But, I was actually an empty shell of a person inside. My lack of self-confidence hid behind humorous remarks I would say about myself to others. How sad, looking back, I made myself the but of many "fat" remarks that I find so offensive nowadays! Just the other week, I was at a gathering with friends, and one of my very good friends made a comment that took me totally by surprise. It was like this: I was talking to about 4 guys (all younger than I), and as I turned to walk away, one of them says; HEY....and I turn around and said "Hey is for horses"....almost without a second thought those words came out of me.... and my friends husband who wasn't even part of our conversation, yells across the way...."No Hey is for cows". I don't even know why I got so offended by that, but, I turned around and I commented back; "hmmmm, I don't think I even come close to looking like a cow these days, and I don't think you want to mess with me verbally, cause I will chew you up and spit you out!" Well, that didn't sit well with him and he basically called me a cow, again. So, I turn back to the guys I was conversing with and I told them; "that's ok, I'd rather be referred to as a cow, than a skunk!" At that remark everyone was in hysterics... and my friends husband turned red as a beet and turned around and walked away, mumbling something or other.... Needless to say, it was a wonderful feeling to put him in his place. But, most of all, in the past I probably would have gotten so upset by his remark, it would have brought me to tears. Not anymore. It's a new day baby! I'm not just looking good, I'm feeling good! Life is so great for me. I don't have to feel any shame about how I look these days. I don't have much more to go to meet my goal, and I don't care if it takes another 6 months, but, I will get there! I am planning on a longer and healthier me for the rest of my life!

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