8 Months Out-Down 102 pounds

Dec 17, 2008

Thursday, December 18, 2008

I am 8 months out and down 102 pounds. I will post new pics soon. I am so grateful for all that God has done for me. I'm in awe when I think of how I had the surgery, had no complications, and I'm continuing to lose the weight. I'm working on making good choices of what I eat daily, and I am working on making a better committment to taking my supplements daily. Most importantly, I am really working on getting exercise to be a part of my daily routine. I still haven't made that a priority and I know that exercise MUST be a part of my routine. I am really going to resolve that I owe it to myself to be more active.

This is an awesome journey. I went from weighing 337 pounds to 235 pounds. I went from a tight size 30/32 to a size 18. I can run up and down my steps easily. I can chase my son around the house and play with him. I can wear high heels and not wobble in them. I can put on pantyhose and tights with ease. I can walk without pain in my lower back and knees. I can walk with my head up and not hang it in shame because I am so ashamed of how I look. I have a waist and I can see my collar bones. So many blessings....

Since I cannot eat anymore to deal with feelings, I've had to deal with issues that come my way. I am more vocal on things and don't just let things fester. I'm journaling my thoughts and I'm grateful that food is no longer my coping mechanism. I must note that this is a work in progress. After livinig a lifetime using food to cope, surgery doesn't magically make that go away.  Losing weight is a blessing, but it does not mean that your life will be perfect. If you have issues with credit as an obese person, you will have issues as a small person until you pay the bills off. If your relationship is strained as an obese person, it will be strained when you lose weight unless the issues are discussed and dealt with. Poor self image and self esteem issues do not all go away with every pound you lose. It takes a minute for the mind to catch up with the body.

I am enjoying the journey and I am grateful for all things.I will post pics soon.

Love,

Nikki

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