shannoncrosby

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I am now six weeks post-op and if there's one thing I've found I have problems with, it's the household food police. I mean, I know they mean well by watching out for me and all, just the same, it becomes quite difficult to focus on the task at hand when I am being watched over with a stern eye. What makes it all worse is the fact that they don't even know what I'm supposed to be eating. They're treating me and my food intake as if I were diabetic (which I'm not) and reading every label I bring into the house for carb and sugar intake. It's frustrating because I'm doing my best and yet I seem to meet opposition at every turn.

I know they are just looking out for my best interest, however, it's time to allow me to find my own way and not lean so much on me about what I consume. In any event, despite the shortcomings they may possess, I am thankful for my well-meaning family. I know they're not trying to hurt me or my feelings by doing what they do, but I could use some breathing space.

As if it wasn't tough enough that I'm stuck on a plateau of sorts, I've managed to have broken my toe. What that means for me is no walking, no aerobic exercise, and if I'm lucky recumbant bicycle riding. I am SO FRUSTRATED right now...I can't stand it.

Does someone, anyone have some advise to help me get over this weight loss hump, as well as get around the issue of my broken toe so I can get back to losing weight?

It's been three days now and I find that I have hit my first plateau being stuck at 50 pounds lost. I'm not worried about this small hiccup, however, I am somewhat frustrated with my current conditions because I don't know why I have come to this position so soon.

I don't know.

Maybe It has something to do with a new addition to my diet? Maybe it's because I'm not eating enough, therefore, storing what I consume rather than burning it off? Maybe I'm not exercising enough and need to increase my regimen? There are so many scenarios to draw from, yet I don't quite know which one(s) I need to focus on. No matter. I think I'm going to adjust something with all of these conditions and see how I fair. I have a strong suspicion that doing so will increase my weight loss activity once more.

Getting to know the new me is probably the single most difficult part of weight loss surgery so far. I say this in part because while on many levels I am still the same person, I find that I am also changing the way I think about and process things. No longer do I feel the festering of negativity that accompanies being overweight. Instead I have exchanged it for a more peaceful outlook on life. No longer do I look in the mirror and want to cry because of what I see. No longer do I live with self-doubt about my health and body image. And no longer do I find excuses for why I can not do things about said health.

I do find myself feeling a little guilty when I discuss my weight loss successes with some family members, primarily because I don't want them to think I rubbing in their faces the amount of weight lost to date. Although I am not purposely doing this, I can't help but feel as though I am in some way inadvertently hurting their feelings.

I don't know...

I suppose I simply need to have internal monologue with myself and realize that I am a great person with nothing but the kindest of hearts, and that my intentions are not derogatory. If anything, I am simply trying to lead by my own example from past experience. Nothing more, nothing less.