Getting To Know the New Me

Oct 18, 2011

Getting to know the new me is probably the single most difficult part of weight loss surgery so far. I say this in part because while on many levels I am still the same person, I find that I am also changing the way I think about and process things. No longer do I feel the festering of negativity that accompanies being overweight. Instead I have exchanged it for a more peaceful outlook on life. No longer do I look in the mirror and want to cry because of what I see. No longer do I live with self-doubt about my health and body image. And no longer do I find excuses for why I can not do things about said health.

I do find myself feeling a little guilty when I discuss my weight loss successes with some family members, primarily because I don't want them to think I rubbing in their faces the amount of weight lost to date. Although I am not purposely doing this, I can't help but feel as though I am in some way inadvertently hurting their feelings.

I don't know...

I suppose I simply need to have internal monologue with myself and realize that I am a great person with nothing but the kindest of hearts, and that my intentions are not derogatory. If anything, I am simply trying to lead by my own example from past experience. Nothing more, nothing less.

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