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Well OH familly
As you know I am finished with all of my Pre op stuff and was waiting on my surgery date.  I get a call from the surgeons nurse on Wed and she was like - I have bad news.   I said " NO WAY"!  Well she goes on to explain that  I did not pass the PSHY eval!  WHAT .  I am totally shocked by this since I took that test back in March and I though everything was cool.  Well come  find out- they have been disaproving everyone lately because they are confused about what there role is.  Basically the surgeons need to know the patient is mentally capable and not dependant on antidepressants.... things like that.  Well they thought they were to determine if someone is a good canidate according to their dietery habits.  So I was turned down because she said because she doesn't feel like I will change my habits and the weight will come right back!.....
SO  since the surgeon disagrees and thinks I am a good canidate he is sending me to another PHYSCH person who I can set my appt with on MON and go from there.

I am so thankful to be a military spouse so I don't have copays or any financial responsibilities as far as the surgery or pre op stuff.  But I do have to jump through a few hoops.  I will keep everyone  posted on my surgery date!

Hello OH Friends

Today I went to the hospital to have some blood work done.  All is well with the blood work and so I stopped by my friends at the Bariatric Clinic.  Well my chart was flagged as "almost  done".  Needless to say I shoot up to Nutrion and they go ahead and bump my last appt up to today.  THAT RIGHT I AM FINISH WITH ALL OF MY PRE OP STUFF.  Wait,  that is not the best part,  the bariatric nurse told me that they may wave the 2 week pre op diet since my BMI is only 38.  She said if I lose more than 10lbs i don't qualify  for the surgery.  .  So the surgeons will be in on Wed and she will call me and they may wave the pre op diet all together.  .  She just has to get the final word from the surgeons and I could have surgery as soon as June 11th (since someone cancelled.)

I am sooo freaking excited! 

Today was my fifth meeting with the nutrionist and all is well.  I am now weighing in at 221.  I am afraid of losing anymore weight because I am afraid of gettig turned down for surgery.  It would suck to be this close to my day and then be 10pounds to little.  I know me and I can blink 10 pounds right back on at Mc Donalds.

I talked to a friend of mine who had VSG in January and she told me to start eating everything in site, because she knew of a lady who got turned down.  I am so consumed with surgery thoughts right now.  What to eat, when to eat- !

What in the world will I be consumed with once I have the surgery?  OK now I am consumed with that thought!

Well family, 
Today I had my upper GI test done.  It was really quick and painless.  I went in there with cotton mouth because you can't eat or drink anything 12hours before- not even water.  So they had me drink this "light" barium stuff.  It smelled really good.  Kind of like a tropical punch Now and Later, so I thought I was good to go!  Needless to say it taste like Pepto Bismol-.  I usually don't sip anything but man that stuff was terrible. 

So now I only have 2 nutrition appt and one support group meeting to attend and then we can set the date.

I have been thinking lately of making a good bye video to the old me.  I saw the contestants on the Biggest Loser do this.  I would like to tell the new me- the skinny me- that it is OK to be happy.  You don't have to miss  the old fat you- but its ok to move forward- etc etc ... stuff like that. 
I think that it will be really theruaputic for when I am overwhelmed with emotions.  Kind of reasuring when I wonder _DID I ONLY TAKE THE EASY WAY OUT?

OH Yeah btw- I lost the 9 lbs!

Well today I had my 4th nutritionist appt.  So that means 4 down only 2 more to go .....well after talking with her for a while she tells me we don't have to wait a month, but that I can come back in two weeks and then one last time at the beginning of June.  YAY!  So my last official pre-op test will be on June forth then I can get my surgery date!  I am soo excited!

Now for the bad news-  I have gained 9lbs in a month.  The nutrionist was not dissapointed but I was.  She thinks it is water weight.  Sorry but i am not buying.  I know my PCOS is acting up again- but 9 lbs- is alot.  It is hard waiting for surgery and gaining weight-  PCOS SUCKS- My PCM is supposed to call me today and hopefully prscribe something.  We are military so while we don't pay out of pocket- there are sometimes more hoops to jump through to get diagnosed with ANYTHING!

I am trying not  to shop but....I thought it would be nice to have a few new summer shirts.  Nothing too expensive just a few to carry me through until surgery or immediately after.  I start out at OLD NAVY.  I bought two shirts that I had to talk myself into in the dressing room.  saying things like-
" I don't look that big"  or "f I put on a shrug with this my arms won't look so big", so these thoughts and "MAN this is gonna look soo good after surgery"  prompted me to buy too shirts that I look terrible in.  So I will take them back to the store along with the little summer dress I bought at WalMart, back today.  BUMMER. 

Did I also mention I am gaining weight.  That would make sense if something had changed in my diet, but ... it hasn't.  So I am getting fatter,  my clothes are getting tighter, and I am just waiting to finish my last three months with a nutrionist so I can have my VSG!

Question to my OH family-  Did any of you feel like you were mourning food in the months before the surgery?
Like you better eat it now- you can't have it soon?

Well I am still in the testing process before surgery.  Next week I have my 4th nutrionist meeting.  Only 2 more from there and then we set the surgery date!  YAY!

All I can think about is shopping.  I know it would be a waiste to buy clothes since I a so close to my new body.  I also think of all the new things I will be able to wear  come Dec or so.....
New panties
New bras
maybe even new shoes

sooo exciting!