Lost almost 2 more pounds

Dec 01, 2009

So, I weighed myself today and I have lost 2 more pounds since yesterday.  It was that time of the month and now I am done so maybe that was the reason for the slow loss.  I will take 3 pounds in a week anyday!  I am not going to weigh myself until I get weighed at the Dr's office next tuesday.  I have to go in to see the nurse to make sure I am doing ok.

I have to talk to my nurse about one of my incisions.  I have an incision in my navel and there is a small part that isn't healed.  It is really hard to keep it dry because my belly flaps over my navel.  I try to keep gauze in there to keep it dry.  It doesn't seem infected or anything so that is good.

On the emtional side of things I guess they are going ok.  This surgery has opened my eyes to a lot of things that I was using food to cover up.  Food used to be my friend.  I looked to food when I was sad, happy, angry....just everything.   Now I have to find different ways to deal with things.  I am not going to lie I have really wanted to smoke a cigarette and I haven't smoked in over 10 years.  If it were not for the fact that I would probably end up with an ulcer I probably would smoke.  I know that is bad but I feel like I have lost my best friend.   The fact that food meant so much to me makes me want to cry.  How could I have put such importance in an energy source?  Food is something that I NEED now.  It is a chore to eat.  I don't look forward to it all day long.  I just eat because I don't want to loose any muscle or hair ya know? 

This journey is just starting and has been harder emotionally than I ever thought it would.  I truely thought I was fat because I ate too much.  I never knew it was because I had made food my life partner.  So far, though, my relationship with my husband has been getting stronger because HE is my life partner. 

I am done rambling for now!

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