Surgery in 8 days.....

Jun 02, 2011

So many emotions running through my mind.  The organized person in me has run through all of the 'needs' checklist several times, packed my bag, and purchased things for post surgery.  The neurotic person in me is full of anxiety and is stressing that there isn't enough time in the days ahead to get things at home ready for me to be gone...

It's funny.  My husband spent 25 years in the Navy and used to leave for months and sometimes a year at a time...  many many times through our marriage.  I don't once remember him making lists of lists for his abssense.  Why do I obsess over cleaning that pile of mail up or making sure all laundry is folded and put away before I check into the hospital?  After much self serching this week I realized that the reality of surgery haunts me - I want to put things "in order" before I check into the hospital.  God forbid if something goes wrong, I would hate for anyone to come into my house and say "Goodness what a slob" ...  (even though I know I keep an immaculate house)....  One of the many many things I really need to work on.  Add it to my list....   ;-)   

I am anxious and nervous but really just want to get on with my healing and recovery.  Some of my friends think I am crazy for having surgery now.  Its been a crazy busy year for me and my family.  Husband retired from the Navy,  we moved to SoCal,  I started college at 40,  we are building a house and will be moving in 6 weeks AND I chose to have WLS during my 4 week summer break before my summer session classes start.   WHEW.  Don't think I could cram one more thing in this summer.  I have always been able to thrive under pressure and come out on top.  This is the ultimate test.  

My liquid diet starts on Monday.  Everyone keeps asking me what I want for my last supper.  Frankly,  I haven't been binging or filling myself full of foods like I thought I would.   Sure, I have said goodbye to lobster mac n cheese, and some other horrible calorie busters,  but I just haven't had much of an appetite for anything.  I think my nerves are getting to me.

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