sonatasmom1
I Got the Nothing is Changing Fast Enough to Suit Me Blues
Oct 12, 2011
I got the blues. Nothing serious. Just tired of staying where I am (on the scales) blues. I can talk a good talk about being patient – and how plateaus are part of the journey – but the truth is, I’m not finished with this journey – and I want to get where I’m going so badly! I figured that I would stop losing eventually. I had just hoped that it would be later rather than sooner – and much closer to my eventual goal. I have tried changing things up – getting back to the basics. Increasing the exercise. I stubbornly stay within 2 or 3 pounds. Gain a little – lose a little – over and over and over again. I have said that if I stay where I am, I will be content – but deep in my heart of hearts, I know that isn’t true. A friend wrote the other day that “fat people are NOT happy with their bodies” – no matter what they say. As a fat person – I have to agree with her. I want to wear the cute clothes – I don’t want to have any hang ups about what I look like – I WANT to be free from all of the stuff surrounding obesity. There was a Dr. Phil show the other day where a mother who had struggled for decades with her weight was trying to keep her young adolescent daughter from going through the same thing – and frequently put her on celery and water diets to achieve that end. She couldn’t see that the message she was sending her daughter centered wholly on what she looked like – and not anything on the kind of person she was becoming. I know that what I look like is not THE thing. Who I am on the inside is far more important. But the inside is wrapped up in the outside – and even though I have lived much of my life separating the two – in reality, it is difficult to detach one from the other. The good thing about the blues? Admitting to them often allows other people express that they are feeling the same thing. And knowing that I’m not alone really does make a difference. It also helps knowing that the blues are not the destination – just a brief stop on the journey!
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Stockbridge, GA
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36.9
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Surgery
02/24/2010
Surgery Date
Feb 05, 2010
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