Sarah G.
And life keeps changing...
Oct 21, 2009
Thank you all sooo much for the amazing emails (I have yet to respond to them all...but Im working on it) comments, and just overall support. You guys are truly amazing. You lift my spirits more than you even know.I have not been on here in several weeks. As mentioned in my last post, I am going through a nasty divorce right now. It started out as something I expected but at the same time, I was shocked it happened the way it did. I can’t go into too much detail. But Ill explain briefly. Early last month I had to road trip down to Langhorne Pa to visit my gastric Dr. as I had been in the hospital with undiagnosed health issues. I decided to stay with some friends and visit a bit...so I left a couple days early. That Friday night I get a call from my mother telling me my husband had done something terrible and that she and my grandfather were removing him from the home..and that he was never welcome back again. Bottom line...my husbands bad habits could have cost my grandfather his life. I was shocked. Hurt. Sick inside. I didn’t know how to feel. I knew I loved my husband. But I also knew there was no going back. That this was it. And no matter how hard we tried...we would never get our marriage back, the respect of my family, or the trust that a married couple must have to make it. After talking with him...we decided it needed to end. And that it did. I have not seen him in over a month.
In all of this, I have met a wonderful man. Well...I’ve known him for a while...and have had feelings for him as well. After my husband left (and long before he left) he was there...by my side. And he still is. Hes wonderful. It’s very soon for me to be jumping into a relationship. It scares me to death. But I can’t walk away from something that feels this right. Theres a friendship and connection I have with him that I’ve never had before. It’s hard to explain. But I thank God every day I have him in my life.
I have been working very hard to get help paying for my outrageous hospital bill. After a month of trying, I was finally approved for the EBT card...so my bill should be covered, I have temp. health coverage, food stamps (which have helped me immensely) and some cash assistance. However...Im now being told I have to go after my husband for spousal support...and if I don’t...my cash assistance (which is only $130 a month) will be taken away. I spoke with my X about it...and he plans to fight it and take me to court. He won’t give me anything. Im not willing to go to court over money. It will get nasty...and I can’t handle that right now. So after filing...then being told hes going to fight it, I will have to tell the assistance office I can’t go forward. I don’t have money for a lawyer! I can’t even afford my protein, vitamins, or anything else that doesn’t fall under "food" .... So who knows whats going to happen?
Through all of this I had to get rid of one of my ferrets..as I cannot afford everything it needs. Im still not sure what Im going to do about my other pets. I love them sooo much. Im going to try to keep them. In tough times...my pets are often the only things that bring a smile to my face.
Im still looking for a job. Still no luck there. My car is about to break down on me. The wheel bearings are shot in the front two tires...so I can’t really drive it. But with no money to fix it...theres not much I can do. My family helps by giving me a roof over my head. But at this point, thats all they can give.
(sigh) I guess Ill get through all this somehow... I only pray its sooner than later. Im really being tested right now. Thankfully, I have a Dr appointment monday...Im going to ask about anti-depressants and something to calm my nerves and help me sleep. I guess thats a start...
I have some new pictures Im going to post. One is with my new boyfriend (hes such a cutie)...and the others are just randomness.
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08/20/2007
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