SYRENITY
~ 3-13-07~
Mar 13, 2007
Today went well I wasn't hungry I felt my stomach make some rumbles a few times but I didn't feel hungry like yesterday. I drank my carnation instant breakfast before I left for work. At work I drank my diet peach snapple which took me all damn day to drink for some reason I started it about 12 and drank it on and off until about 7pm. It was a 32 oz bottle but damn had that been a pepsi it would have been a wrap in an hour.
Around 2pm I made some chicken broth and I also made a protein shake. I sipped on both until I left work at 5:30 I went to the movies and after I went to eat guess what I had a CUP of chicken vegetable soup and I also ordered a side order of steamed broccoli and a glass of water. You can probably guess by now that broccoli is my favorite.
When the food came the broth was delicious it was flavored just right. I took 2 stalks of the broccoli and cut it up and put it in the broth. I was very proud of myself because lawd knows I wanted to eat those chicken chunks they had in the soup but I refrained from eating them and left the table with the bottom of the bowl filled with the chicken and half of a broccoli stalk I was actually full after that.
My Baby kept trying to tempt me with the bread that came to the table and other things on the menu but I stuck to my guns and felt good about it when I left but lord knows I wanted to order the jerk pork chops and plantains {Shaking my head.... you just don't know} I am trying to think of the big picture and I am trying to stick in there for the long haul. I am definitely challenging myslef working in an office with mostly women and working in the food service industry isn't helping either for those that don't know me I am a caterer by trade and have my own business and I also work in an office dealing with the online catering aspects of most of the major restaruants in NYC as well as Boston and Florida so entering and revising menus and dealing with corporate catering orders every day is definitely a big challenge for me..
I will find out on friday if I lost any weight during this first week of liquids. I'll keep my fingers crossed.
Stay Blessed
~ 3-12-07 ~
Mar 12, 2007
I have to be honest the majority of the day went well & was pretty easy but by the end of the day it became a challenge. I woke up this morning and had my carnation instant breakfast then about 1pm I had some chicken broth & a diet peach snapple. About an hour later I had a vanilla protein shake then finally about 4:30pm my stomach started growling and feeling tight and I drank some peach tea crystal light.
Now I knew I was going to have to eventually do this liquid thing but nothing prepares you until you actually are doing it. Like I said the morning went well I didn't really get hungry until late in the afternoon but when I drank the crystal light my stomach liked to slap the holy hell out of me like heffa please ! You know your fat ass is HONGRY ! yes I said HONGRY not HUNGRY. It is amazing that when I could eat everything without restriction I could go all damn day without eating and not be hungry some water would do me just fine but, now just because I can't eat solid foods my big ass stomach wants to growl this is some straight bull.
Well, on my way home I decided to get something to eat / drink for dinner. I stopped in the chinese restaurant & ordered a wonton soup but I requested that they not put the wontons in the broth. I also ordered some steamed broccoli because on my pre- op diet booklet it states that we are allowed to have veggies for lunch & dinner if we are hungry but, we are limited to 2 cups of veggies per day. Ok I can work with that the days that I eat veggies I will either split up 1 cup for lunch & 1 for dinner or save both cups for dinner altogether. Tonight for damn sure I had half of that broccoli & half of the wonton soup broth for dinner and you couldn't tell me that I wasn't tearing up some Jerk Chicken or some Baked Mac & Cheese.
I am about to go have my second shake for the day to get my grams of protein in. I also saved it until now so that there will be something on my stomach and I can sleep in peace without stomach cramps. I am thinking about eating half a cup of sugar free Jell-O before I go to sleep along with some water since Jell-O is another item we are allowed to have on the pre op diet. Anyway I made it through the first day alive and so far I'm not cranky like I was told I should expect to be but is is only 1 day so, let's pray I can make it through the week the same way.
I didn't miss my pepsi today
1 day down 13 to go !!!!
I GOT A DATE !!!!
Mar 08, 2007
He asked if I had any further questions and I asked 2 he then began speaking into his recorder regarding our conversation and things in my file and when he was finished we both went to the schedule an appointement for my surgery. Johanna who is the surgical coordinator was really nice and we laughed and talked so much about the upcoming events that as I was about to leave I realized she had not told me the date so when I asked her what my date was she was like oh my god we were talking so much I thought I told you the date but we had a really good laugh at that.
I then had to go to the front desk to pay my co payment and take a small pre op exam I was told that I would be called later with the results. Johanna also told me that I had to call and schedule my pre op blood work and EKG because she didn't see any appointments open on her screen. She told me I could start calling for one on monday but, of course you know my big butt couldn't wait so when I got home I called and I was given a date of March, 16th to do the pre admission testing. While I was on my house phone with the pre admission office Christina the Nutritiionist called me on my cell with my test results from the pre op quiz I took before I left the office.
The only questions she brought up were the cup size of food that we are allowed to eat post op I got that wrong by a few ounces and the second question was how many weeks is the first visit to the surgeon scheduled after the procedure. I put 3-4 weeks but I was told by Christina that they overlooked this question as being wrong because they don't tell patients that the first visit is a week after the procedure to check the band and port stitches. She stated they don't tell patients this until after the procedure when they are being released from the hospital .... UMMM call me crazy but, why not tell patients this before hand or remove that question from the exam maybe it's me. So basically I got 1 question wrong and in her words everything else was perfect.
I start my liquid diet on Monday 3/12/07 This is going to be one of the hardest months of my life. I have been praying on it and now it's 4 days away but, I trust that I will make it through ok. I didn't think that I would have a date so soon so I didn't purchase the protein for my shakes, Jello or the broth etc... so between Friday and Sunday I will be a shopping fool. Luckily I went out to dinner last night and tomorrow night my mom is having a seafood / fish fry for me and my girls which I opted to do friday night instead of tonight. It didn't make sense on a thursday night when we all have to get up and go to work tomorrow. Saturday my cousin and my friends had planned to take me out for my birthday to some secret location I have been trying all week to find out and I am not sure what I have planned for sunday but which ever way it goes this weekend will include my last couple of solid meals at least for a while.
Pray for me with this liquid thing I know I am going to be evil as hell lol especially without my pepsi. May God have mercy on my loved ones lol. Until next time..
Stay Blessed.
~ 3-3-07 ~
Mar 03, 2007
Then On Wednesday I get another call from the surgeon's office and I started getting nervous because the message they left on my cell began with the message being related to my appointment on the 9th. I listened further as they explained that my surgeon will not be in town on that day and would instead like to see me the day before. On one hand I was like thank God he didn't cancel and reschedule for the follwing weeks or the following month and on the other hand I was like damn I already put in for a day off for the visit on the 9th.
Luckily I was able to switch the day to the 8th without any problems because they do the schedule monthly at my job and they had not finalized or posted the schedule for March yet. Now I have to be at the doctor on my birthday lol. Oh well I guess it's a whole lot better than having to wait a month like my cousin who got pushed from last month to the 20th of this month to find out her surgery date so I feel blessed.
This whole process went by so fast I just keep praying that nothing will hinder me from reaching my goal. I know some people didn't have such an easy process and when I read about their setbacks it worried me in the beginning. I began to wonder if I even wanted to go through all of this just to lose weight but, I am thankful that I have not had to experience any disappointments as of yet that is aside from parting with my money for out of pocket costs but If it means a healthier me than it is more than worth it in my book.
Right now I am still overly excited I didn't think that I would be I thought that at this point I would be a nervous wreck and on pins & needles waiting to see what day I would have to undergo such a serious step and follow through with one of the biggest decisions I've made in my life. But I know I still have to wait for at least 1 more exam and for insurance approval which I have read can be hell on wheels for some people but, I am not anticipating anything bad happening.
I trust my surgeon and his word and from what he has told me my insurance is one of the two that responds the fastest and he never has problems with approval from so that was good to hear and hopefully it will hold true in my case as well. Until next time everyone stay blessed and never give up even when you feel like you want to. God will see us all through this chapter in our lives.
~2-18-07~
Feb 18, 2007
2/8/07 I had an appointement with the nutritionist and I was also supposed to do my pre-op bloodwork or whatever with the nurse in the same visit so because I was limping and had to take 3 buses to get from Brooklyn to Manhattan {for those of you that don't live in NYC it would have been a 45 min ride from my house to the hospital on the train} but since my leg was messed up it was easier for me to take the bus which ended up making my trip a little over 2 hrs which sucked.
Well long story short my appointment was scheduled for 3:30 and I arrived minutes to 4 after calling at 3pm to inform them I was running late when I got there I had a shit load of forms to fill out but since I arrived late they took me right away. I sat with the nutritionist for about 30 minutes and she asked me a bunch of questions regarding my medical history and eating habits then we reviewed the booklet that she gave me about the foods I am expected to eat and when. They were things I already knew but it didn't hurt to review. After I went back to the waiting area and filled out the remaining forms I was also told that the nurse had left for the day but that I would be able to call the next morning to make an appointment to see the surgeon and that I would be scheduled to see the nurse the same day. Only plus to that was that they never asked me for the $325 payment.... Shhhhhhh ! I won't tell if you won't lol.
Needless to say I called at 9am the next morning very anxious to get my appointment with the surgeon I also had to have my pcp fax over my blood test results and I had to email them a before picture of myself and .... TAA DAH !!!! My appointment is March 9th the day after my birthday. My first thought ironically was thank God I get to have my last dinner for my birthday lol I now hear that a lot of people say that and what's funny is that the psychologist confirmed it he said they even have a syndrome known as the last supper syndrome I was too through folks come up with anything these days.
Anyhow I feel like a child on Christmas Eve and I simply can not wait until the 9th I will know then for sure when this is really going down. I know for sure I will have to take one more test between now and then which is the cardio pulmonary because I have asthma but all of the other tests that I was expected to get are over as well as all of the paperwork that was to be submitted. The waiting game now begins.
As suggested I started sampling the different flavors of protien shakes and so far the only one I ruled out is the Strawberry Sorbet from Unjury that was a hot mess. The Chicken Broth from Unjury wasn't bad I would be able to live with that every other day. I tried a few flavors from GNC and the next two I am going to try are the Ensure & Carnation Instant Breakfast. and this week I plan to pick up the viactiv multivitamins to supplement the multivitamins I already take.
Well that is about all for now my next update probably won't be until the 9th when I get my official surgery date unless something pops up between now and then. If anyone has any comments or suggestions please feel free to holla at a sister. Until then everyone stay blessed.
~1-16-07~
Jan 18, 2007
~1-11-07~
Jan 13, 2007
~12-19-06~
Jan 13, 2007
~12-11-06~
Jan 13, 2007
Ok people so i have been out of commission for a few days battling this darn flu. Thankfully i am feeling much better i lost my voice and everything. Anyhow it gave me a little extra time to do some more research on the surgeon i would like to have my surgery done with. I have narrowed it down to 2 surgeons although i am leaning towards one of them much more.
First there is Dr.Julio Teixeira MD. who works out of St. Luke's Hospital and the one I am really anxious to meet with is Dr. George Fielding who was one of the pioneers of the surgery in the states and works out of NYU. Dr. Fielding has also preformed the surgery for Mohammed Ali's daughter as well as battled with his own weight and had the surgery himself. He has preformed over 5,000 weight loss surgeries and he has various other positive credits that impressed me as well. Personally i think he is the one i will ultimately choose.
I am scheduled to attend orientation for Dr. Teixeira's team 12/14/06 and i also have a one on one consultation with him 12/22/06. I am also scheduled to attend an orientation with Dr. Fielding's surgical staff 12/19/06 so i will be busy for the next couple of days gathering more information and making a final decision as to who will preform my surgery. I will keep you posted.
~12-4-06~
Hello all I just wanted to formally introduce myself My name is Alicia and i am 32 yrs old i have no children yet and i am in a committed relationship with a wonderful person. I have been overweight the majority of my life i was alway the thickest and tallest friend in the bunch and i began gaining significant weight during college. Stress along with poor eating habits contributed throughout the years along with subjecting myself to various yo-yo methods of weight loss.
I've Tried the pills, the exercise tapes, the weight loss centers, the teas, the shakes, diet pills, the grapefruit diet, low carbs, no carbs, the patches you name it i more than likely had my moment with it. Obviously nothing worked long term or i would not be at the point in my life where i am making this big decision. About 4 yrs ago was a critical time for me i was at my worse emotionally when i discovered i was significantly above 300lbs during a routine GYN visit and shortly after the internal disappointement began. I started to lose confidence in myself and my struggle with weight. I tried once again to lose weight on my own I joined a very popular gym which was my second attempt at that and i felt uncomfortable because 99% of the individuals that surrounded me when i went to work out were slim so of course although i knew i was there for a purpose I felt out of place so, the work out thing was short lived and once again i was at a stand still on my weight loss journey. In 2004 I was given the link to this site by my manager who's sister along with 2 of my co workers who had already had gastric bypass surgery. They gave me information first hand about their experiences and gave me the courage to research the procedure even further. Fortunately I let my fear prolong my decision to have surgery at that time which gave me time to research further and to find out about the Lab Band procedure which i have now decided to have. I am at the point now where i am looking at weight loss surgery as my LIFE OR DEATH crossroad. This is my personal fork in the road and I have decided to do something about it and God willing i will have made the right decision in the end. At this point i am deciding on a doctor to have the procedure done with. I have a few in mind that i am researching and I have an appointment with one of them December 14th. I will keep you all posted on who i choose.