Life Changes & Plastic Surgery?

May 04, 2015

Ok, ok!  It has been a LONG time since I posted anything here & a LOT has changed in my life since my last post!!!

So, here are the highlights:

• Jan 2014 - My 20 year common-law relationship ended (long story, no need to explain here)
• May 2014 - I put the house on the market
• Aug 2014 - Didn't get any offers on the house so decided to keep it
• Oct 2014 - I went on my 1st roller coaster ride since I was 18 + a ton of other rides & coasters at Canada's Wonderland!
• Feb 2015 - I got a 2nd job as a superintendent at an old mansion that was converted into 11 apartments - in Barrie!!
• Feb 2015 - I moved to Barrie with Drake, my youngest son!! Now I'm in the same city as my sister for the 1st time in over 20yrs! :)
• Feb 2015 - I gave up my trailer (my brother now has my lot)
• Apr 2015 - Found a tenant to rent my house
• Apr 2015 - 1st surgical consult (not a fan of this guy)
• Apr 2015 - Finally started painting again! Not as often as I would like, but its a start!
• May 2015 - Approved to transfer the house mortgage into my name only! Now for the legal part.

As for my weight - I have stabilized in the 170's & want to go to the next step - remove all this excess, sagging skin!!!  I have been working my butt off at the gym, doing yoga, walking/jogging, etc but the skin will never go back to what it was before I abused it for so many years!  I hate to admit it, but honestly, I am jealous of the other people that I know who have gone through the same surgery & lost a ton of weight but do not have the same amount of skin hanging from their bodies.  They look fantastic & I am so happy for them!  For the most part, I think I look good...dressed, but I absolutly hate my "front butt"!  I am still embarrassed & uncomfortable wearing some clothes & still am unable to dress the way I would like because of it. Also, on a more graphic note, it gets in the way when I'm doing yoga!  When you have to literally lift your stomach up & move it out of the way so you can do certain yoga poses, there's a problem! And, if it's not tightly confined, it makes embarrassing clapping noises when running!  While I don't mind the applause for my efforts, it's just not the same when it's coming from my stomach!  LOL
So, it's time to do something about it.

I have a surgical consult on Thurs to discuss my options.  I originally thought I was just going to have the "apron" removed but after talking with the last surgeon (who I did not like at all), I have decided that it will not be enough to get the results I am looking for.  After years of being overweight, 4 kids & lack of exercise, my stomach muscles have taken a beating & need some tightening.  I can feel how hard the muscles are in areas (under the extra skin) but also know that no amount of exercise alone is going to fix it.

So, although these surgeries are not covered, I am willing to pay financially in addition to the price I have already paid with my health & all the years I missed out on being able to do what I want.  It's not just how I look, but how I feel in my new body.  I have worked SO hard to get this far & it is discouraging when I look in the mirror & not see all the work I have done in the reflection staring back at me. I feel like I'm wearing one of those fat suits you see in the movies. This "stuff" is not part of ME.

There have been times in the past where I thought "maybe I should put some weight back on to fill out the sagging skin so I don't look like a shar pei" but I give my head a good shake & remind myself of just how far I have come, what I have been through to get here & what it was like before!

Am I being superficial?  Sometimes I think I am, but after all these years of putting everyone else 1st - I think it's time to do this for ME! :D  Superficial or not!

I AM WORTH IT!  I will apply for financing & get the surgery!! :)

Now to decide - tummy tuck, breast list, thigh lift, arms....or lower body lift?  The surgeon I am meeting on Thurs does all but the body lift, so I want his opinion.  The last surgeon gave me some good information, even though he was a jerk, but I am taking it as lessons learned. Right now I am leaning towards the tummy tuck, breast lift & thighs but will see what he has to say.

I will post an update (if I remember, I know - I have not been keeping this up to date) after my appointment!

Keep Smiling! :D

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