Tina, I was in your spot a few weeks ago. I had surgery 11-13-02. I know your feeling nervous, excited, tearful, and all other emotions wrapped into one. The only time I cried was when I was getting ready to go to the hospital, I showered and was walking into my closet to find something comfy to wear. When I walked into the closet I had this OVERWHELMING feeling. It was severe anger and depression all in one. I took what I wanted to wear and cried like a baby. I never realized how depressed and angery I was with myself until that moment. I wanted to tear my closet apart from end to end . I felt like the Tazmanian Devil in there. I wanted ALL the fat clothes to be gone. I wanted that outfit I was putting on to be burned with a torch. I wanted the old me to be gone so bad. My son heard me crying and yelling at my clothes, He came to me and hugged me with his loving arms and said "Mom, soon..... They will all be gone soon..." I cried so hard I started snuffing lol. But my point is. I realized at that moment The NEW Karen was going to walk out of that closet. The new Karen was going to survive. And, those dern clothes I hated so badly are going to be out of my life for good.
Tina, I wish you the very best, My prayers are with you. You very soon will walk out of your closet a new woman. Your fat clothes will go away too. And The new Tina will survive.
Everyone takes this surgery different before they go into the hospital. That was my experience. I hope your experience before leaving your home will be a good reminder to you of how great things are going to be.
Love and Blessings to you
Karen Surgery 11-13-02 down 41 lbs