Vanessa B.
Goal met ...and passed!
Oct 21, 2010
About a week after my 1 year anniversary of surgery I met my goal weight of 145! It was a pipe dream for me when I set it and now it's a reality! Since then I have promptly lost another 5 pounds. I don't know whether to be grateful or scared. I don't mind the weight I am now but I am hearing from family, friends and even my doctor that I have lost enough. I am actually thin now, although when I look at myself that's not what I see. I think I look great..healthy and just right. I am trying hard not to lose anymore and eating some things ( bread and denser meats) are a problem for me. It doesn't do any good to eat them if I throw them back up!
I am still terrified that the weight will come back. I have the tools to keep it off and have definitely changed the way I eat but fear isn't very rational. I am still in the "honeymoon" phase of my surgery just being about 13 months out and am scared that when I hit the 18 month- 2 year mark I am gonna blow up like a balloon!
Guess I just keep doing what I am doing and let it play out!
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I am still terrified that the weight will come back. I have the tools to keep it off and have definitely changed the way I eat but fear isn't very rational. I am still in the "honeymoon" phase of my surgery just being about 13 months out and am scared that when I hit the 18 month- 2 year mark I am gonna blow up like a balloon!
Guess I just keep doing what I am doing and let it play out!
One year anniversary tommorrow!
Sep 29, 2010
I can't believe that a year has gone by so quickly! I also can't believe that 1 year can make so much of a difference in how I feel not to mention how I look! It's almost like a dream! My RNY is one of the best decisions I have ever made.
I am officially down 130 pounds have lost 15 inches from my waist, 14 inches from my bust ( ok so they have headed south) and 15 inches from my hips. I am now a size 6 to an 8! It's all so exciting.
My biggest fear is that I will gain the weight back now, I am exercising regularly and trying to make healthy food choices but I get scared that the ugly beast of the past will rear its head.
More to come later....
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I am officially down 130 pounds have lost 15 inches from my waist, 14 inches from my bust ( ok so they have headed south) and 15 inches from my hips. I am now a size 6 to an 8! It's all so exciting.
My biggest fear is that I will gain the weight back now, I am exercising regularly and trying to make healthy food choices but I get scared that the ugly beast of the past will rear its head.
More to come later....
almost a year postop
Sep 14, 2010
I can't believe it has been almost a year since my surgery! What an exciting journey it has been.
First of all let me say...I would do it again in half a heartbeat! Nothing tastes as good as I feel now.
That being said, it has been easy for me, no complications of surgery and I haven't really pushed my limits as far as diet go. I have exercised and I feel so good now that it almost seems dreamlike.
The morning of my surgery I was 277 pounds with a BMI of 42. I now weigh, as I write this, 150 pounds with a BMI of 24. I have went from a very tight size 22 to a loose size 8.Amazing!!!
There have been some frustrations..."head hunger" is probably the worst. I love bread and I have wanted a big juicy cheeseburger since my surgery...no way I can eat those things...believe me I have tried! Every time I end up vomiting...so for now at least I don't try anymore. Another frustrating thing is hearing people tell me now that I have either lost too much weight or that I have lost enough and need to stop. I'm not stupid...my goal is a very realistic 145. I am 5'8" and that is a nice healthy weight for me. Even the doctor at the bariatric center told me not to lose anymore and that was when my weight was still above the normal weight range and into overweight according to my BMI. I asked him why I shouldn't get to a normal weight and he told me very few bariatric patients get to a normal weight. He did eventually agree that if I could get to 145 that it would be ok.
Oh well, over all everyone has been very positive and supportive. I still have some fears, the biggest being that I will gain the weight back, but I do feel like I have the tools now to control my weight and not let it spiral out of control. Another fear that I have is not being able to stop losing weight when I do reach my goal.
I am trying to be better about keeping this blog and about my thoughts and feelings as my journey continues. I am glad that you have taken the time to read this and to step on my path with me :)
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First of all let me say...I would do it again in half a heartbeat! Nothing tastes as good as I feel now.
That being said, it has been easy for me, no complications of surgery and I haven't really pushed my limits as far as diet go. I have exercised and I feel so good now that it almost seems dreamlike.
The morning of my surgery I was 277 pounds with a BMI of 42. I now weigh, as I write this, 150 pounds with a BMI of 24. I have went from a very tight size 22 to a loose size 8.Amazing!!!
There have been some frustrations..."head hunger" is probably the worst. I love bread and I have wanted a big juicy cheeseburger since my surgery...no way I can eat those things...believe me I have tried! Every time I end up vomiting...so for now at least I don't try anymore. Another frustrating thing is hearing people tell me now that I have either lost too much weight or that I have lost enough and need to stop. I'm not stupid...my goal is a very realistic 145. I am 5'8" and that is a nice healthy weight for me. Even the doctor at the bariatric center told me not to lose anymore and that was when my weight was still above the normal weight range and into overweight according to my BMI. I asked him why I shouldn't get to a normal weight and he told me very few bariatric patients get to a normal weight. He did eventually agree that if I could get to 145 that it would be ok.
Oh well, over all everyone has been very positive and supportive. I still have some fears, the biggest being that I will gain the weight back, but I do feel like I have the tools now to control my weight and not let it spiral out of control. Another fear that I have is not being able to stop losing weight when I do reach my goal.
I am trying to be better about keeping this blog and about my thoughts and feelings as my journey continues. I am glad that you have taken the time to read this and to step on my path with me :)
and so it goes
Jun 10, 2009
Today was my first behaviour mod class. It's so nice to know that other people have the same hopes and fears that I do!
I am not scared of surgery...I am scared of failing yet again! I know initially the weight will come off BUT what if I can't break old habits , what if I go thru all this and gain the weight back again. This is what terrifies me!
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I am not scared of surgery...I am scared of failing yet again! I know initially the weight will come off BUT what if I can't break old habits , what if I go thru all this and gain the weight back again. This is what terrifies me!
The beginning...
May 31, 2009
Well here it is, my first blog entry. I decided about 6 months ago on the advice of my primary care doc to start pursuing some type of weight loss surgery.
Darn things have moved fast since then!
I went to an orientation session at the bariatric center that explored the different surgical options available here and decided on Roux En Y gastric bypass.
I have since managed to quit smoking (geez that was hard!) and have had a lot of the required stuff completed I have a couple more meetings with the doc and dietician in June and hopefully am looking at surgery sometime in August.
I am seriously excited to get this surgery completed and get on the raod to becoming the old Vanessa again!
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Darn things have moved fast since then!
I went to an orientation session at the bariatric center that explored the different surgical options available here and decided on Roux En Y gastric bypass.
I have since managed to quit smoking (geez that was hard!) and have had a lot of the required stuff completed I have a couple more meetings with the doc and dietician in June and hopefully am looking at surgery sometime in August.
I am seriously excited to get this surgery completed and get on the raod to becoming the old Vanessa again!
About Me
Evansville, IN
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Surgery
09/30/2009
Surgery Date
May 31, 2009
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