Still Here

May 22, 2010

Well its been over 2 years and Im still here.  Hardly any complications.  My life has changed so much, I could never put it into words.  And when they say everyone's journey is different they are not lying.  I cant say that I didnt have to watch what I eat and I cant say that my food choices havent changed completely but for me it wasnt as strigent.  And I think thats what I needed.  I must keep up with my vitamins since I dont eat a lot and can easily go 2-3 days without eating more than a hamburger.  And then some times I can eat everything in sight (an exageration of course) I am so thankful for this tool.  And I am workin it like no bodys business. I have been out of the gym for about 3-4 months and Im back in now.  Feels good.  I am holdin strong around 150-152.  I retain water and can go up to 156 and then when  I have those weeks and months that I dont want to eat I have gotten down to 143.  Right now I am trying my hardest to get my arms done and my tummy tuck.  At that point I will feel a bit more complete.  Thanking God again for this blessing.  I feel great.

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3 weeks til my 2 year surgerversary and 3 lbs til my goal

Mar 20, 2010

I am now 148lbs.  I cannot believe it.  I cant remember ever being this small.  I am in a 10 solid and can fit some 9's.  A lot people tell me not to loose anymore but if I could stop it I would.  So it will stop when its ready.  I feel good. Gotta remind myself to eat stil and stay on top of my vitamins but I feel great.  My ex is doing much better, will be going to visit him in 3 weeks to check on his progress.  
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Life deals you blows, how do you handle them?

Mar 05, 2010

I just experienced something that I have never experienced before in life.  My ex who I still love with all my heart was in a major car accident 3 weeks ago and is now paralyzed from the neck down.  Ive been at his bed side for the past 3 weeks.  I pray everyday all day for his health and recovery.  Its taking a toll on my health.  I was already fighting a bout of anorexia but it seems to have gotten worse.  I really have to get a grip on this before I get sick.  I have lost 4 pounds in 2 weeks and who knows how many inches.  But all of that aside please pray for him.  His name is Geremy and no matter what we went through, he didnt deserve this.
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Learning me...

Jan 18, 2010

So Ive lost weight, significant weight but I havent taken the time out to learn me.  So Im into learning me now.  Ive been though some heartache this past year and its time to learn me and be happy with me so that someone cannot hurt me like that again because I am not depending on them for happiness.
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Down to a size 11 but not feeling small...

Dec 14, 2009

So I went to a Xmas party last Friday evening and the dress I wore is a size 11.  I was shocked as all get out that it fit.  I dont know why since Ive been wearing size 12 jeans for almost six months, its just that I am no longer in plus sizes.  Anyway, so I figured that when I saw the pics of myself I would look at myself and say DAMN you look good.  But the exact opposite occured.  I looked at myself and said I look FAT??????  Its my arms.  I hate them.  Always have.  And now its just worse.  There is a pic of my with my arms slightly behind me and if my arms werent so big you could see how small my waist line is.  I cannot wait to have my arms done, so that maybe my image of myself will improve slightly.  I mean I have belly skin too but that can be hidden, Im not pressed to wear a halter top or a bikini anytime soon.  That can wait, but these arms have to go NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  So pray for me yall that I can afford my surgery next month as I planned.  I am unemployed right now, hopefully employment will come soon and I can get this taken care of.  Thanks for listening OH FAM!!!!
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What the hell?????

Dec 29, 2008

What have I been doing to myself.  I have officially gained 3 pounds.  I have sooooo fallen off.  Moving has really put a damper on what I was doing for myself.  But that is it.  Starting like all of America on January 1st I am done with all this nasty disgusting fatening food that I have reintroduced back into my life.  I have done so much damage.  Good thing I still do not get hungry and my restriction is there.  I just need to get a hold of these sweets and fast foods.  Period.  So thats that.  I am reaffirming myself to the plan and getting the rest of this weight off me.  125lbs here I come.
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Dating

Nov 11, 2008

So I have been trying this whole dating thing, and I will tell ya, I almost let myself go.

See I never did the whole dating thing.  I never was asked out so I am definitly inexperienced.  So I almost let my morals and values slide because I was excited that I was actually desired.  But I had to pump my breaks and realize that I have values and I have morals and I will stick with them.

No I will not meet you at your home and you havent even taken me out anywhere.  I will not be you late night fling, unless we both have discussed such.  I am glad I woke up before it was too late.

6 months and welp yup I see it NOW!!!

Oct 21, 2008

So I am finally at six months, and yup I see what everyone was talking about as far as the honeymoon period and just sticking with the plan.  I am at 197, and havent moved from there in a month.  I know its also because Ive hit a plateau but I have also not been doing anything about it either.  I am just feeling so BLAH!!!!  I dont feel like counting calories and watching every morsel of food that goes into my mouth.  I know it also is coming from me moving to Houston, its a new life and I just want to be on auto pilot.  So I am not going to force myself, but I will not let myself go either.  I am going to exercise which I have been doing and just do the best I can with my food intake and not beat myself up with calories.  Houston is cool, trying to adjust to a slower pace and just a different lifestyle.  I have a job, that I hate I might add, so money is cool.  Just need to find some friends.  Any Houston people out there? 

5 MONTHS!!!

Sep 10, 2008

Well this month wasnt my best I must say.  Sad  I only lost 8lbs.  Thats it.  I mean I knew it would slow down but hey not that much.   Mad Sheesh.  Well I will give myself a break, I am on the rag so Im sure I will lose about 3lbs in a couple days.  But still 8lbs is sad.  Scrawny 2  SAD!!!  I do have some to do with it. My eating has been just horrendous this month.  Fat Man 5  I have been exercising my ass off but I guess I need to work more on my eating habits now.  So thats my goal for September, work on my eating habits.  Today, is weird.  Lil' Diva (my pouch) is acting up.  Its like she isnt feeling food today.  Nothing is staying and nothing is tasting good and nothing is not getting stuck.   Vomit So tomorrow Im going to do cereal and smoothies.  Anyway, I am now at 197, so I am happy with that, I finally am in ONDERLAND!!!!  I am a 14 solid now.  I havent tried on any 12's yet, kinda scared to.  I will probably wait until next month.  I finally can see subtle changes to my body that are allowing me to notice that I am smaller. 

 My birthday was this past Monday, I am now 29.  On Saturday, I went to Red Lobster with friends and family.  And then I had a dessert/cocktail party.  Martini  It was nice.  I didnt eat any of the desserts except for my sister in law's banana pudding.  But I made some chocolate Martini's and OH MY GOD!!!  Thats my new drink.  It was so damn good.  It tastes like a root beer float.  Milk Shake 

I will be moving to Houston  Houston on the 28th.  I am so excited.  New Life, New Place. NEW JOB!!!!!

 Well here is to losing 10lbs next month!!!! Peace Day 


WOW!!!

Sep 07, 2008

I just wanted to post 4 of my biggest WOW WOW  moments since this amazing transformation began.

1. I am able to cross my legs, and I mean really cross without leaning to the side or anything.  Just put one leg over the other and cross them for any length of time.  AMAZING!!! Amazing 

2. I can see my beautiful colar bones.  They are beautiful and graceful.  I feel so feminine. It's A Beautiful Thing 

3.  I can see my tendons in my fingers/hands and feet.  I am amazed every time I see them.  Its just beautiful.  The things we never realized we didnt have when being overweight. Fat Woman 

4. The last and best thing.  I am now in ONEDERLAND!!!!  197!!  I cannot believe it.  I cant remember the last time I was 100 anything. Probably Jr. High. 

And thats that.  I feel wonderful.  I will post again in a couple of days.


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