vickijeff
A Little about me !
My name is Vicki , I am 31 years old , I live in a small Community in Newfoundland , Canada ( and Yes I am very proud to be a newfie ) I have battled my weight for as long as I can remember. My fist diet began when I was 8 years old , I was the youngest member of weight watchers ...this dieting trend continued throughout my adolescent ,teenage and adult life . I have never been successful at dieting but then again I dont know anyone who has ... my weight has fluctuated but steadily it has crept up to the 345 lbs I weigh today... Overall I have been a rather active energetic person and physically my weight has been more of a nuisance then a problem ...Emotionallly though is whole other story ...I have such low self esteem , I never feel attractive or even worthy of the fresh air I breathe most times ! I hate the body i am trapped in. I feel so judged all the time , like nobody sees me ,just the body , I avoid any social situations at all costs ...Its really pathetic because I know I'm a good person I have a real humorous personality , I have such compassion for other people , I just hate how I look so much and that supercedes any good qualities I have ... I am fortunate though to have very few chronic health problems related to my weight ,besides the aching joints and low back pain i really am generally healthy ...But I know that its only a matter of time . I guess what I hate the most about being Fat is that it has taken away my ability to take part in the things enjoy most , My life has been robbed from me and I want it back !!!
I have a wonderful husband whos so supportive and caring, (we dont have any children only because my weight will not allow it)I do have 2 step children ages 18 and 15 who i am now just getting to know, and thats a challenge in itself ! I have two great parents , who are making this weightloss journey possible for me , without them I could never afford to pay for my surgery ...but they have been witness to the years of torment I have endured with being over weight and would do anything in their power to make this happen for me .
I am a registered nurse , I am currently off work with a back injury but look forward to resuming work a little lighter then when I left ! .... ummm what else ...I love animals ... I have three dogs and a cat (2 of which I inherited with the step kids ). I love the outdoors , camping ,ski dooing , fishing ... all of the things that now at almost 350 lbs has become almost impossible to do . But I forge onwards , I am nearing the end of one part of my life and in the very near future I will begin the new life I deserve...
