Celeste B.

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Well, last night I went to After Session Care meeting and it was really really good.

It was a group meeting with the psych doctor and we all shared our feelings and progress thus far. It was very informative and much needed.

All I can say is if you are reading this and considering WLS or have had WLS and are not attending any group sessions, shame on you. These meetings are to inform and encourage, I see that now. There were pre-op as well as post-op patients in there. Just being able to share everyone's progress and their methods is such an awesome experience.

Also, knowing that you are not alone in this journey. The comradery(sp?) is very powerful and is what is needed for us to succeed.

Love yah all

Well, I went to the Post-Op Information class on Tus 07/03 and it was...for lack of better words....AWESOME....

I learned about different type of exercises...and about nutrition.

You know I have been hungry right?  Well, not really hungry just bored of broth and soup and protein drinks...bkah blah blah

SO!!!! The lovely, beautiful and gracious nutrionist gave us a new and improved menu.  Do you know I can now eat any and all types of white fish and some scrhimps......shoot, I don't need no stinkin meat...I am good right here

I  can pretty much anything that can be mushed with a fork, or for better clarity that can be fed to a newborn when they are introduced to solids for the first time.

It is pretty cool now and not so bboring.  And who would have thought that I would take a liking to Diet Snapple Best damn drink in the world to a sistah right now

BTW. my weight from Mon-Tues was 3lbs difference. So, I seem to be losing 2-3lbs a day, which is fine with me

I am down to 233lbs as of 07/03/07

Well, since I am the most intelligent person in the world, I missed my appointment yesterday, but was able to get weighed in at least.

Current weight is 235.6
Starting weight    268
Goal Weight is     145

Will update more after my follow up instruction class

I have my post-op instructional appointment on Monday July 2nd. I hear I will be introduced to new foods that I can eat.

Because, the food I am currently eating is very BORING.  I want to have some TUNA!!!!! Okay, I am better now. But, between the broth, protein drinks, sf jello, sf popsicles, can a sistah have some FOOD

But, this is what I wanted and it does serve a purpose. I have not weighed myself or anything so I cannot update on my weight as of yet, except to say that my hubby said that my face is shrinking. I love that man. I can almost wrap the bath towel all the way around me. I just noticed that this morning, all by myself, I am so speacial.

So, in short all is well, my mind is still playing tricks on me. I know and remember the taste of pork chops, taco bell, hot dogs, bbq sausages, etc etc and cannot and would not dare eat them, but at the same time the temptation is definetly there. They say this is the hardest part, getting your brain on board to the new realities.

Tell me this OH fam, "WHY THE HELL IS EVERY OTHAT COMMERCIAL ABOUT FOOD" 

Why did the Taco Bell commercial come on and I found myself mesmerized in front of the TV for that new cheesy burrito they have.  That is just not cool. num yo ho rang gay kyo. I will survive, buyt they wuz wrong fo that one

Well, I will update tommorrow......MUAH

I am back from surgery.  Dr. Villares was and is a wonderful gentle soul. I am so appreciative of him and his abilities.  He was very gentle and assuring.  I got to the hospital @ 5:30 am on Monday  morning June 18th.  First, of all, the registration area was understaffed, so I did not make it back to Pre-Op until roughly 7am.  Then come to find out "I WAS THERE TO EARLY"  My surgery was @ 9:30am NOT 7:30am.  So, then I met my Anastesiologist(sp?) both of them. Then met w/Dr.Villares.  So, then, my poor husband hung around for as long as he could before he had to leave for an appoinment. he had it scheduled for my supposed (7:30am appnt).  

So, moving forward I go into the surgery room. I was freezing in there.  All I remember was them telling me I was going to be on this table that is half the size of the regular hospital bed and to find somewhere to place my hands/........OKAY??......So, then they take my arms place them on the stretchers then I rememeber waking up in the recovery room...somewhat....then I heard someone say they were taking me to my room.  I was in the hospital for 2 days. I left the hospital on Wednesday.  I roomed with this wonderful lady named Alice, she was in there for another reason but I was so glad that I met her.  We walked the halls together and kept each other motivated.  Then, one of the other ladies I had met previously was on the same floor, but in another POD, and we walked the halls together.  

On Tuesday, we went to one of the Baiatric Support Groups that my hospital provides.  Tuesday was for Nutrition.  I had learned alot and we rcvd a very warm welcome.

So, Now I am learning how to eat. Swallow and f'n sip....

I am so hapy that I did this.  Now, the weight cannot come off fast enough.  I will be posting some photos soon. 

Thanks for all of your support.

Well, I went in to see Dr.Villares and it was a cool visit.  Needless to say that I am still very happy, that has not changed @ all.


Okay, here is the verdict people.  I am borderline diabetic, low iron, and anemic.  The Doc said that I am a "Low Risk" patient.  I am still very happy with the verdict.

My husband had some valid questions about how long will the weight stay off and will I have some energy.  The doctor answered them very well, (as if there was a question that he would not)  But he told my hubby that after 2 weeks I will loose 20lbs easy, and just thing of him giving me 20lb dumbells and have me walk around daily carrying them and see if it can be possible. Well he said that is what I am doing now, so w/out those 20lbs I will have more "spring in my step".  I am so stoked about this.

Well, I go to the hospital at 5:30am for surgery @ 7:30am on June 18th, 2007, Monday.

I went and got me some more protein drink samples from the Pharmacy. I am getting ready to drink this one called "Apple Exstacy by Nectar"...SOUNDS GOOD....BUT WE WILL SEE

Okay, today is not so bad. I am freezing my protein drinks so they a slushy.  Playing with my brain to think I am eating ice cream.  

My appointment w/my surgeon is @ 11:45am today, to go over my test and the surgery on Monday. I cannot wait.  My hubby is going to this appointment with me.  I realized that I have not included him in my journey and I am not sure if it is wrong or not.  But, my reasoning is that I am doing this for me and ONLY ME. By me going to my appointments and doing what needs to be done alone helped me know that this is ll for me and no one else.  Not to say he will not benefit from it. When I am able to have more energy, and just feel sexy again, and not feel like some type of reject.

I just wanted to update again, I am feeling great today and ready for my appointment.  I will update when I return from the surgeon.....let's see if I am still happy...lol

tomorrow i go to see the surgeon one last time before he tells me to count backwards from 100.....lol

i will update tomorrow and let you know what happened.

Well, this is day 3 and I am okay for now.  The Chicken Broth is really good....maybe my mind is playing tricks on me...lol

I am so excited that I am currently 5 days away from the BIG DAY. I am not scared, just anxious to get there and get it done.  I have so many plans and understand that there is so many things to do and take into consideration. 

I must make sure that I am aware that I will be on a restricted regime for the rest of my life....
*Am I okay with that?....OH YES!!!..I am so okay with it....
*Am I willing to exercise and do what it takes to utilize my tool to its fullest potential?....YES

I have done my homework, researched my insurance to get approval, consulted with my husband for total backing, and from there it has been all good.  I could not ask for more.

Enough babbling for now. Will update tomorrow

What I Won't Miss:

1. Having people call me “big mama.” 
2. Seeing the looks on the people’s faces that I knew from high school. 
3. Having family tell me I’ve gained a lot of weight. 
4. Taking pictures from the head up, only. 
5. Having bras cut into my sides. 
6. My feet and ankles hurting when I stand up. 
7. Legs hurting when I walk or try to climb stairs 
8. Being out of breath from walking. 
9. My back killing me during the day. 
10.Waking up in the middle of the night from back pain. 
11.Feeling exhausted all the time. 
12.Always being sleepy. 
13.Not finding any cheap stylish clothes my size. 
14.Having clothes from when I was smaller that I just don’t want to throw out. 
15.Not fitting my favorite top. 
16.Getting evil looks from the person next to me on the plane or bus. 
17.Feeling self conscious about how I look. 
18.Not being able to cross my legs. (I don't remember ever being able to do this) 
19.My fingers and toes being swollen. 
20.Having to spend more money than thinner people on my clothes 
21.Having men avoid eye contact with me. 
22.Not being able to give myself a pedicure comfortably. 
23.Having to do the fat people shoe tie. (u know, tie your shoes from the side.)  
24.My shoes being too tight on my feet. 
25.Having to wear flats instead of high heals. 
26.Feeling like I need a fork lift to get out of the bathtub 
27.Having people at a pool stare at me. 
28.Being treated like I can't do anything athletic by small people. 
29.People saying “you’re so soft, I just want to hug you.” 
30.Not being able to see my feet. 
31.Looking at pictures and not recognizing myself. 
32.Having people say "you’re pretty for a big girl." 
33.Using the big girls stall in the bathroom (aka handicap stall) 
34.Having my breasts be a net for my food. 
35.Having the bath water only cover half of my body. 
36.Avoiding all cameras 
37.Dreading my jeans in the drier, because you know it's going to be smaller when it comes out. 
38.Distant family members thinking its ok to comment on my weight gain. 
39. Buying Big Beach Towels and using them as a regular towel. 
40. Always wearing my business shirts untucked. I look like a fool with them tucked in.