I know that almost from Day 1 I complained about aspects of my surgery, and it seems I never gave it a fair chance. But honestly, from Day 1 when I woke from surgery “incredibly hungry?, I never felt that I was on a path to success. I never felt that anything was different or that I had a fighting chance. So now with tears in my eyes, and frustration all around me, I have to realize and admit that I am a VSG Failure after only 2 months.
I never really feel any restriction, except if I eat really dense meat like chicken breast. And I am always hungry (and no it’s not “head hunger). I measure and weigh, track and record everything I eat. No I don’t always get it right, but most of the time I do. And yet I’ve not had much.
Though I may have had one or two slips, I’ve mostly followed my plan as closely as I could- under 35 carbs per day, small servings, 700-900 calories, high protein intake…no starches! No starches! No starches! Basically I’m on an Atkins diet plan, and with all of that I’ve only lost 6 pounds my second month-BARELY 6 POUNDS! Half of that 6lb lost I contribute to an illness.
My family doctor said that if I’m following the plan prescribed, he would have expected me to lose much more weight my second month out….at least 10 pounds.
So I’m down a total of 30 pounds down- 24 lost the first month. And I need to lose at least 165 pounds total. I know that I should not compare my journey to others, but there comes a time for reasonable realization when I have to accept that this may not have been the right choice for me. Even the surgeon has adjusted his expectations downward of my success since my initial consultation.
I didn’t risk my life and finances to walk around hungry and tired, to only loose a miserable 6 pounds a month (if I’m lucky). I know VSG is only a tool, but it’s a tool that’s not working for me….I’m always hungry, I’m always tired, and I’m not losing weight. It has been suggested that I should have had a restrictive/malabsorbtive surgery –which my surgeon opposed.
Now I’m at a lost bc I don’t have options for a revision this early in the game. And I feel like a failure for taking my family through all of this for a complete disaster.
I’m not looking for a pity party or even advice. Just needed to vent one last time.
~Regena from SC: /Surgery Weight 317/Highest Weight 321