Mini Goals

Sep 16, 2012

I never wanted to lose weight in an organised fashion before. I have to admit that the most structured program that I have ever followed is the before and after surgery programs we are given. Why? Because I used to spend a lot of time justifying why it was ok for me to eat what I wanted as long as I was doing something to work it off.

I have PCOS, weight can be a major problem for those of us with PCOS because it is HARD to work off, no matter what you do. Your body becomes a capable fat maker, you can gain weight eating anything on any diet that other people lose on. I took metformin for years , which messed up my stomache but helped me to lose a little weight or at least maintain where I was. I was between 289-295 those years. Never seemed to get lower than that, no matter how my clothes fit.

I stopped taking it when I lost my job and had no insurance, because it was hard enough to budget in my Prevacid on the 66% of my old salary that EI was giving me; so I chose the one that allowed me the greater physical comfort. I didn't go back on it.

After surgery I've been working on getting back into what my routine was pre-surgery. I'm trying to get in all the walking I did before surgery. I'm trying to add in more exercise too, and drink more water. I really believe that more water equals more loss, it always had for me.  But after surgery \i set some min goals.

Mini Goal #1 was surpassed today. I made it past 275 pounds. I can't honestly recall the last time I have been this weight, maybe the late 80's early 90's. I'm stoked.

Mini Goal #2 is 250 pounds. I'm on my way to that now, and if I can up the water and the evercise I might get there by Halloween. I don't know if that's realistic to shoot for or if it's too much pressure to put on myself right now. I'm just gonna put the timeline to the side and focus on getting happy when I get past 250 :) I don't have a timeline for this goal or the following ones. I think timelines will become easier to figure out for me once I have an idea how long it takes me to get to the other goals, and once I know roughly how fast I am losing at any given time.

Mini Goal #3 is 225 pounds. This one I can honestly say will be the ultra lowest I have been in memory. And it's just 4 pounds shy of my starting weight, which would put me close to onderland. I think this might  be time to start planning a vacation time. Around here I will look into running. I won't try it before that because I already have a bad knee and a bad ankle (seperate legs) and I feel this weight will be around where I can start to try this out and not hurt myself too badly (I hope).

Mini Gola #4 is the century club, which will happen anytime after I get to or past 221 pounds. This is on the 225 pounds end of the scale. I have no memories of ever weighing anywhere around this weight. My life isn't exactly full of scales and by the time I really started to keep track I over 250 and usually totally ready to throw out the scale everytime it went up not down (and I usually did).

Mini Goal #5 is 200 pounds. I have no idea what I may physically look like at this point, or at Mini Goals #3 and #4. I'm stoked to get there, that is the coolest part of my journey - that this seems achievable now. I'm also afraid I won't get there, or get past there.

Mini Goal #6 is 195 pounds. This is Onderland. I'm hoping to make it this far, and to still be adding in activities and to still be losing. This still seems a long way off to me.

Mini Goal #7 is 185 pounds. Probably haven't been at this weight since junior high or grade school, I was a big one. I think it's more realistic to put these goals closer together lossz wise as I know that loss can slow. This is five pounds shy of my suggested goal weight, I actually am not sure that this is low enough for me - but I won't know for sure until I get there.

Mini Goal #8 is 175 pounds. I'm thinking that this would be time to have a yay me party. Because I'm fabulous and got down to a more normal weight. I may have a few of these parties, but this one here would be the one I'd realy want people to come to.

Mini goal #9 is 165 pounds. I have no idea what this would look like or feel like. This weight it past my imagination. I do however have a final goal in mind, so I would have to get there and past this weight.

Mini goal #10 150 pounds. This is what I picked as my goal. I'm a little afraid of how I may look and feel at this point, as it is so foreign to me. I'm looking forward to the clothing options that become availabel in the Onderland. I'm hoping to be good about the weight loss and maybe go a little too far so that when the bounce back happens I won't be too sad about it.

This is what I have picked out for my goals. I made them mini instead of Main or BIG goals, so that they seem very managable and attainable. Everyone has dreams, I want to take this as it comes and roll with it; yet I am excited to see the results I am already seeing with not quite 50 pounds lost. I seem to be losing kind of evenly now, but my boobs were the most affected early on. I'd love to have a little more energy but it will come if I can get my carbs up to the 100 grams a day suggested by the dietician at the surprise 6 week meeting I went to last Thursday.

Let's keep our fingers crossed, that we all work hard and achieve the best things for ourselves :)

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