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The Marilyn effect
May 19, 2013
I can't believe I have so many clothes,
Mostly I can't believe how fast I can get into a new size these days. I have piles of clothes that don't fit properly and currently spend time trying to figure out where to get smaller sizes, without spending loads of money.
I read somewhere years ago that Marilyn Monroe was a size 16, and I decide that if I ever lost weight I'd be happy to get there, since in my memory I'd never been there.
Well I'm there. At first it was just a plus six 16, a little bigger than a regular 16. Now I'm into full on 16-14 regular clothes territory and I'm confused. Confused by the choices, and by the cuts - still. I always thought it had to be a plus size thing, that they kept changing the cuts and sizes to make us feel worse. It's an all over issue I guess and it's a bit weird - or maybe I just don't know enough about regular stores.
I know that could totally be the case, because I never bothered to learn which regular stores are more generous in their cuts and which are cut smaller. I see that this would be good information to have now, so that I'm not stumbling through some stores wondering why nothing fits and others wondering why it all fits, and the numbers on the tags are all the same.
What I'm really interested in is getting some nice summer dresses. I don't know if that will happen, with what I've seen in the stores in my price range - and what I've seen in the second hand shops. Nothing there I'm inot or can get into yet,
Of course this is my 9th month, and I'm in that fabulous stall that can happen where inches are changing but the scale isn't.
Hell even the super tight on my calves boots are lose and I'm finding all my shoes loose, and I still can't see the changes like everyone else does. People are not recognizing me so I must have changed, My sister, very politely explained I used to look like a snowman and now I don't. I guess I was really round, of course I am naturally glow in the dark white, I still don't get it though, I don't really know what I look like because to me the body shape is still the same and I look at myself all the time so I guess I just don't have the ability to notice things yet.
Either way I'm happy to be losing and I'm trying my best to continue it as far as it will go - because I want to lose more. I'm down 111 pounds, but still in the 200's - 211 to be exact. I want to get to the 100s. I want to do Run or Dye the end of August too, even if I can't really run well at this point, I'm working on 30 planks in 30 days and I'm starting a couch to 5k program soon. It should be fun, if I can get it together and stick with it. I don't have the greatest stick with-it-ness :) I'm working on it.
Keep smiling :)
