184 and love is on its way.

Dec 05, 2011

I am now down to 184 pounds. What an insane couple of weeks this has been. I read back to my previous log about watching my heart and feelings closely but that just went out the window. I am in love deeper than I have ever been in love. Will left to head back to Australia (via his home in New Zealand) on Dec 2 and it tore my heart out. I am constantly thinking about him and wanting to see, touch, hear him. I want him near me. We have plans to reconnect in a couple of months but my heart and soul is constantly aching for him. This is more intense then I have ever fallen in love before.
He is the father of my twin boys and we had such a deep connection this time. I don't know what it is but I have never loved with such abandonment before. Irony since a couple of posts ago, I said I needed to be careful.........nice plan but so much for caution.
Last week, I had the first issue with my sugery. I went to the doctor at a walk in clinic to get a renewel of my prescription. I told him my heart was pounding hard (maybe the love quotient) and he checked me out. He said that my heart was fairly slow and had extra beats in it. So, he sent me to the emergency for an ECG and bloodwork. He suspected it was an inbalance in my electrolytes. Will came with me and despite my resistance to being there, kept me entertained all night. We were finally released after several hours as we had to get back to the kids. So now, I await to see the doctor tomorrow to get the results from the bloodwork and the ECG.

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