dizzfree37
It's a struggle.....
May 10, 2011
I am driving myself crazy thinking about this test for nicotine...I worry that I didn't quit soon enough....and I'm ashamed I have cheated. I quit for the 3rd time on Thursday May 5th, 2011...I woke up that am smoke free and have stayed that way since. It's a struggle because EVERYONE around me smokes, my mom, sisters, fiance', friends....I just want to stay at work....no one smokes that I work with and it's a smoke free building....so I dint have any cravings there. I believe the key to quiting is life style changes....just as I have changed the way I eat and exercise.....I have changed the routine I have held for many years...anything I did in the mornings when I got up...or how i drive to work...I no longer go to my car for lunch....I cleaned my car out and shampooed the carpets....I never smoked in my house, so that was never a problem. I don't understand why the nicotine has such a control over smokers....Seriously...I only had maybe 4 cigs a day...most of the time it was less, mostly because I don't smoke at home and my work is smoke free building, so WHY is it so hard??? I want to be healthy...I want to be free from cigarettes ......sorry I keep repeating myself...but I'm really writing this for my self...to remind myself why I quit and why it is so important to me!! I have noticed that writing this blog helps me get past any cravings and it makes me feel good about what I am doing. Ahhhhhhh.....the count down is on.....13 days to my sleeve!!!! I WILL SUCCEED!!
