2 days to go.....

May 19, 2011

well......2 days to go and my sleeve date is here!  a little nervous....a little scared....of course I'm thinking I will be the only one this won't work on and I will never loose any weight.  I'm scared I will never wake up, I have a thousand things going through my head.....which I assume is normal.   Any surgery is scary.....               I am going to spend the weekend planting the rest of my flowers and making sure my girls have everything ready for next week.  They have their last day of school on wednesday and I want them to have clothes and things set out and ready to go since I wont be home and grandma will be with them.  They are old enough to get along on their own for a couple hours......but not old enough in my mind to take care of eachother.   lol....don't tell them I said that......they would be so mad!!   

I am going shopping today for all the foods and liquids I will need for the post op diet.  Want to be sure I have what I need so I dont "make do"   with something that might hurt my new tummy.    My mom and I have enlarged the diet time sheet and instructions so we can get all the meals prepared in advance once I get home.  My mom is going to take care of me for a couple of weeks....and help me keep myself on track.   This is going to be one hell of a ride!!    I know the weight will not come off super fast, and I know I will REALLY have to pay attention to how much and what I'm eating......but that sounds like a dream compared to eating whatever I want and however much makes me full.   You see.....with this new tool......I am going to have a serious restriction!!   no more binge eating, no more hiding food and eating it later when no one is around,   no more stuffing myself just because I can.  I HAVE to pay attention to everything that goes into my body or I will jack up all mine and my dr's hard work!!    well.....more later.......

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