megawatt823
Back, after 46 pound regain and FINALLY shedding weight again!!
Jun 10, 2014
HI ALL!!
I have not posted since 2011 and SINCE then, have had some .......well, issues.
I was emotionally eating, eating the things I PROMISED myself I would not eat (chips, tortilla chips, queso, potatoes, rice, breads, sweets...) SIMPLE CARBS. I never did get back into soda.
BUT!! I was drinking alcohol, too. I was trying to deal with "friends" turning their backs on me for losing a person; I had one so-called friend, after I dropped 150 pounds, tell me that my ass was still fat. She was/is a large girl, so I chalk that up to her watching my transformation and not liking that I was now not larger than she was. And, she is now out of my life. I do not need negativity ANYWHERE in my life.
SO! I gained. AND I GAINED!! I noticed my clothes fitting a wee bit tighter. I noticed I wasn't feeling as good as I had. I noticed that I was being HORRIBLE to my husband. All I did was go to work and come home, like I did when I weighed 326 pounds. I thought I had failed my tool, myself and my hubs. I was a FAILURE and a LOSER, and not in the good way. I beat myself up. I threw up CONSTANTLY.
I drank every day. I ate the wrong things. I kept telling myself I would go into my basement gym and work out. I delayed it, would walk on the treadmill and get back into it, only to be in horrible pain.
Last summer, July 2013, I had had enough and went to my ortho doc. I had advanced osteoarthritis in my right hip. O AND A BAD BACK!! AND I weighed in at 226. I GAINED 46 pounds and it seemed to have come on VERY FAST!! I was mortified, but told myself, I CAN LOSE IT. I had two choices: cortisone shots in the right hip or total hip replacement. I said to the Dr., I AM ONLY 44!! He said, It is wear and tear, genetics. BUT It will help you.
I FINALLY broke down, in October 2013 and called my surgeon's office to get back on track. Met with the N.P and Nutritionist and weighed in at 218. OK some loss. We worked together to figure out WHY I am vomiting all the time (I mean, ALL THE TIME...sometimes on a weekly basis!!)
OFF the G.I doc I went in November 2013. Endoscopy and colonoscopy in Jan 2014. My tool is intact (that was the first thing I asked after the procedure, still loopy from the drugs!) My pouch is about 6 ounces and everything was looking good, EXCEPT the ULCERS on my stoma. AND the hiatal hernia - most likely from my throwing up for 4 years. Colonoscopy was fine, too. The ulcers on my stoma, which is still intact and just as tight as it was when I had surgery, were the problem. NO caffeine. NO sneaking cigs, NO drinking. But, I would still partake here and there.
Jan 2014 - Met with the Ortho Dr and said, after my last shot in December which did nothing (the one in August was OK), I said, LET'S DO THIS.
April 1st 2014 I had my total hip replacement of my right hip. AND LOST 17 pounds in 2 weeks. My doc was amazed at my 2 week appointment; I was in the hospital 2 days and ate very little, pounded water, peed a lot and shed pounds. I was eating grilled chicken breast, scrambled eggs, but I would take a few bites and it felt like my pouch did RIGHT after surgery!!! WOW!
I was out of work 6 weeks on short term disability through my company (thankfully 100% paid) and I kept doing my physical therapy, small portions, dense protein, no simple carbs and I kept losing.
AN ASIDE: I use My Fitness Pal, my handle is megawatt823 and I log EVERYTHING! If you are on MyFitnessPal and want to follow me, send me a request and I will reciprocate!! :)
June 10th 2014: No more booze. I am BACK under 200 lbs, weighing this morning at 190!!! My hip is amazing; I am walking without a cane (yes, I got to use the walker for 15 steps and THEN was given the cane 10 hours after my hip replacement!!!) and!! I wore my NICE platforms to work yesterday!!
AND! My clothes are fitting better, my co-workers noticed the weight loss, my hubs is seeing it and my waist is more defined. My goal says 160....if I could get to 180, I will be OK with that weight.
I also bought Al Roker's book 'Never Goin Back.." http://www.amazon.com/Never-Goin-Back-Winning-Weight/dp/0451414942/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1402413513&sr=1-1&keywords=al+roker+never+going+back
WE ARE NOT LOSERS or FAILURES if we have regain. Our tools are still intact and we can use them. I was mistreating my pouch and now, after eating clean and doing ALL the right things, I am OVER the simple carbs and sugar. I can't even SMELL that stuff without getting a wee bit ill.
And, I even had a bite of some pasta salad and I threw up. It seems my body is not liking the simple carbs anymore so I steer clear. DENSE PROTEIN and Fruits and Veggies for me only.
I just wanted to get this out there as I am 4 & 1/2 years (or thereabouts) out and wanted to tell everyone, I AM BACK and WE CAN WORK IT!!
Thanks for reading!
HUGS TO ALL!
Megan Flanders
Denver, CO
