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McHottie Tech, Tears, and Bimonthly Periods!!
Aug 06, 2011
It's been a lil over a month since my last blog, so much has taken place. I did 2 sleep studies and now have a new friend and her name is c-pap, she makes sure I breath and don't desat during the night...life is good. NOT! I have been sleeping with this machine for over a week now and have taken it off in my sleep every night. Geesh I hope I can get use to it soon because it has a lovely memory stick in it and records EVERYTHING. The tech who took care of me both times has now been renamed...McHottie Tech. LOL...I facebook stalked him but chickened out on friend requesting him. Mostly because then I really would be stalking. My last visit to the dietician left me in tears. It was a horrible visit and it could have prevented me from completing this journey. The first time I met her she was cold, but it didn't bother me because I was just starting out. My next visit was with the NUT who changed some of what the dietician laid out for me. So now I meet with her and she is a complete ass! She got on me for snacking...SF FF jello, cheese sticks, and almonds....that's right folks it wasn't peanutbutter cups, cheeze its, or cookies but that nut job still fussed at me. She said I need to get use to not snacking because after surgery I won't be able to. Um that's so not true, but neither here nor there. So, I looked at her and said you do realize my stomach is still big right? Which means I'm still hungry. I'm taking in less food, excersizing almost 2 hours/ 3-4 days a week and you think I'm not hungry? I told her how her and the NUT were giving me different information but she didn't care because it wasn't documented in the computer so I couldn't prove it. This heffer just kept digging at me. I have rather thick skin, but I couldn't even look at her anymore I was so angry. She didn't even bother to say wow you lost 3 lbs in 10 days...amazing. Nope just kept telling me everything I was doing wrong. So, when she left the room I lost it. I started crying and then got angrier that I allowed her to get to me like that. I did my best to calm down and leave, but I had to speak to a nurse before I left about a note for another doctor. By that time I had stewed so much that I told the nurse I never wanted to see that woman again. I didn't explain why I just made my statement and was going to leave. She asked me to wait and the office manager came and got me. She brought me to a private room and wanted to know what was going on. Again my anger and frustration consumed me and the water works were in full effect. I expressed my concern about how a naturally thin person could dismiss my noticeable hard work. How it's great she has always been thin, but that I was there for her help not her attitude and judgement. The office manager assured me she would handle the situation and gave me an immediate appointment with another dietician. The new dietician came in and was amazing! So, I left not feeling totally rejected. On to a lighter note, I am meeting my surgeon in 11 days and I'm so excited. So due to my horrific carb cravings prior to my cycle (that I'm now getting twice a month now that they took me off birth control) I have started a liquid diet for the next 10 days. I absolutely will hit my 5% by the 17th. I may have to add some baked chicken breast, but that will be the max of deviation allowed. I want this so badly it's crazy. I want the life I never had and so desperately look forward to.
