Diuretics and Laxatives

Aug 27, 2011

Well Tuesday is my official weigh in to see if I've lost 5%.  If I haven't then they won't submit to insurance for approval.  I've gone my entire life (the majority of it) overweight and never have I done the things I am doing over the next three days.  I bought laxatives and diuretics last night and have started pumping them into my body.  I'm not insane and I don't want to deplete my body of potassium, which my heart needs to pump.  I'm taking less than the suggested doses and working into it gently.  I have cut my food almost completely down to nothing.  It's 3pm right now as I am writing this post and this is what I've had today: 2 slices of reduced fat turkey bacon, one cup of sf jello, one reduced fat cabot sharp cheddar cheese, and 1/4 c. of soft serve ice cream...kinda felt I needed some sugar.  Calories: 200 Carbs: 11 Protein: 13  Water: 60 oz
I know that this isn't healthy, but I have never wanted anything so badly before.  If it weren't for me starting to retain fluid due to my cycle, I would have made weight without any drastic measures.  I just have to make it through to Tuesday morning at 8am...hopefully my body will lose it's excess water and what not and drop my weight a few lbs.  Until then...

Sunday Morning:  I only ate bkfst and lunch yesterday, so I only consumed about 400 calories.  Lunch was a repeat of brkfst plus a hard boiled egg.  I just repeated the same meal for bkfst this morning.  I took diuretics 3 times in the past 24 hours, instead of 4 as the bottle suggested.  I will be taking another dose after I finish eating.  The scale this morning said 269.6...WOW!!  I will take that, even if it is just water weight and my lack of nutrition.  I will go back to salads and chicken on Tuesday after weighing in.  BTW I was 274.8 yesterday morning.

Monday Evening:  Okay so I completely broke down yesterday.  Geesh how I hate having a period and feeling like I can't get full.  Then on top of that I'm at the hospital all flipping weekend surrounded by delicious food that everyone brings in to make the staff plumper.   Ugggghhhh so disappointed in myself.  I had a vending machine size of famous amos cookies and a bagel.  Holy CARBS!!  OMG they tasted so good and I totally ate them like a closet eater.  I was completely disgusted by myself after and didn't eat a single thing the rest of the day...(I had 400 calories between bkfst n lucnh prior to my binge).  I made it through the rest of the evening without scarfing down food I saw.  But again, it tasted amazing.  LOL.  So, I woke up this morning and stepped on the scale and it read 270 even.  I will take that and love it, but I have to make it through today.  So, what have I done today: Bkfst - a hand full of cheese nips (delicious but uncalled for) lunch - 1 ounce of broccoli and .5 ounces of chicken.  Dinner - Campbells chicken noodle soup 80calories...broth only.  When I came to work at my second job tonight I weighed 272 with clothes on...I don't tend to like to run around the hospital naked...now at 11pm (still at work) I am down to 271.5 on the same scale.  YIPEE.  I just need to maintain through til the morning.  So, I am not eating or drinking anything after my hot water with lemon at bedtime, I will not wash my thick ass hair in the morning (excess water on me on the scale...I think NOT), I will be wearing scrubs tomorrow (the lightest ones I can find) and I will have on ballet slippers instead of socks and sneakers.  LOL.  Yep I'm crazy.  I will check in tomorrow with an update.

Tuesday:  I dropped 10.5lbs in two weeks!  I freaking made weight and had room to spare.  Absolutely amazing feeling.  Filled out all of the necessary paperwork and scheduled all of my preop appointments.  Happily on my way...

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