It's funny how differently I think about food now!!

Jun 18, 2011

Ok so today is my 33rd Birthday, but I stopped counting at 29!!  And oddly quite a few ppl I know are very surprised when they find out that I am in my 30's.  How does this relate to my views on food now.  Gosh let me tell you I have been stressing over food for months now.  I obess over food all the time, I'm always thinking about what I can and can't eat.  I never even thought much about food before.  Just opened mouth and ate.  That's how I got in my predictament.  But now when I wake up each and every morning I can't help but think of all the things I have to do that day and how they relate to eatting.  I feel like I'm getting OCD about food.  With my birthday approaching this week I tell you I stressed over where to go for dinner like a nut case!! LOL!!! I surfed many a resturant website to look at the menus, to plan my meal, over thought about when to order things to make sure that if I order the appitizer first then waitted until the waiter comes to clear then and only then put my dinner order in so that I have time to digest and can have a little dinner.  I have even planned out the seating ahead of time so that I can share my meal with my daughter.  Gosh a year ago I would never had put so much thought and planning in to a birthday dinner!! Honestly I am not sure if this is a good thing or not?!?! It's great that I am putting thought in to what I put in my mouth before I do, but the obssessive part is driving me nuts.  Oh and the cravings, God forbid something pop in to my mind, like oooh my friend makes this great Phillapean dish with very thin rice noodles, I think about that dish and I can't think of eating anything else until I have it.  And I think about it night and day, and not with just that dish, with anything that pops in my mind.  It's so weird, it reminds me of when I was pregnant with my first child. LOL!!  I just wonder if because I am only 4 1/2 months out if it just the adjustment period or if this is a long term thing.  Will I be OCD about food forever??? 

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