2 YEARS WOW

Jul 24, 2010

went to group this past Wednesday, I really needed it , The topic was regaining Ur weight! I think I can say we all  don't want that.. Well So far I am maintain my wt.  between 180- 188 lbs it depends on what i have eaten. Lately I have been cheating with food . I hate not haven dumpin.   Its been really hard, My adjustment to my new body and maintain my marriage, Has been  hard.  Its hard to find someone to talk to who will  understand the fight,  My friends look at me like the skinny girl who should  be happy, But what they don't under stand this is a new body and the rules change for u. When u were big "fat" u could smile at the guys in the office or the club and  that was u  being  out going or the nice girl in the office, now that Ur body changed,  That same action is viewed different.  I hate it I am still me I still want to smile. Bein in a box is where i was for a long time I could not move now I can, Now I CAN. I love that I can.  I really want to keep this feelin forever. I dont want the FAT to come back .  But old habits die hard, I really need to fix my mind .
TWO YEARS wow  I look at the before pic I have 24hrs before surgery and now wow I cannot believe i carried all that wt with me. I love My doctor  Clapp he help make this happen, and u  no what no matter what happens the mental ups and downs It was worth it  I AM A LIVE AND I CAN MOVE!!              

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