Renewed Motivation

Nov 03, 2011

 I am really feeling positive again about losing weight and hitting goal....I have renewed motivation and focus...But with that comes a little obsession too...I'm back to tracking my food online the last few days, and I was shocked that I am hitting 1000-1100 calories! I don't know when that happened...since the last time I tracked, it was a struggle to get up to 600 cals...

I do know this...it is much easier to eat now..I actually feel pretty normal...I can eat a whole chicken thigh...granted, that is still small and I can't eat sides with it, but it is still so much more than in the beginning...I think around 3 1/2 months might have been the turning point, but especially since 5 months out, I can drink more and eat more at a sitting...

It is a bit scary....I realize that I never lost weight in the past on 1200 calorie diets pre-op, so I am not sure how much I can get away with being this high in calories...

I thought more about food and felt hungrier these past days with tracking...is it a coincidence in timing w/ just being further out from surgery, or does tracking for me...equal a bad thing of obsessing for me?? I also added back in 30 minutes of cardio each day this week, could that have increased my hunger?? I struggled mentally last night, because I actually was hungry and wanted to stay under 1000 cals....but in the end, I decided to eat...I refuse to go to bed hungry, like on so many diets in the past.

I've been losing weight steadily still, yes, it is slowing down, but I'm still getting there....
At 148, only 8 more pounds to goal! So, I may still hit it by my 6 months post op...which is what I was hoping for....but it is a stretch, since I only have 9 days! I go to the surgeon for follow up Dec. 1st, so I should definitely make it by then, if not at the exact 6 months mark....I feel like I may go past my original goal, if possible, and see what 130 looks like, but anything less, I think would be bad....
In 2 more pounds lost, I will be at the lowest weight as an adult after having my children.....since I did diet after the first 2 kids in 1998 and got to 146 lbs.

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