Boredom, Complacency, Maintenance & Regain

Oct 11, 2012

Well....I've been really bored and complacent over the last few months....ever since I cut back on my trainer sessions to save money, I have been going a downhill....maybe even before that I had lost my desire, my enthusiasm for this new lifestyle and my gratitude and wonder for all I've acclompished...

It's not that I'm not happy about my weight loss, if I think about it...the problem is I had begun to take it for granted and really didn't think about it....it was the same old thing to me, like as if I'd always been this weight....and I've found maintenace so unexciting....I mean, I need to do the same things I did in weight loss mode, except there is no reward of pounds dropping or new, smaller sizes to fit into....

I guess I just thought when I got here, when I reached goal, I would be happy....well...I guess I was for a short time...but then unhappiness about the saggy, loose skin set in....then I was excited again about planning for plastics, but now with that unsure and possibly having to be cancelled due to lack of money, I found myself floundering again and unmotivated....

So although my maintenace range was steadily 134-135, it has now been sitting at 135-136 and I think I have to face the music that it is a slight regain...and more than slight ,if you count my lowest scale weight of 130 in the losing phase....and regain is very scary....I don't want this to keep going up....where a few more months, a few more pounds, and then before I know it, I'm obese again...yikes!

I really don't feel like exercising or feel like eating right, when before I was so into it and gung-ho......but today, I've decided I got to get ahold of this before it does spiral out of control...so I've decided to see if I can get back to 130 & then stay there...I tracked my food so far this morning and I'm dressed to go over to the gym....now I just got to do it...

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