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I figured out I really love me even at my heaviest over 300 pounds and even today around 240 or so...I can't be mad at this band and the progress. I have to love the decisions I make and have made because it's all me...

But I do love me through it all....so I learning to appreciate this journey...yes it's tough but you know what.... "What want kill me is only gonna make stronger!"

Love God first.....and Live life to the fullest for yourself!

I almost forgot it was today and I can not believe it's been a year... I have mixed feelings right now but wanted to mention it. Still losing......

I am currently 7.5 months out and I can say this is a journey or should I say I say this new lifestyle. I have to admit I am learning to make better choices in my food. I can say that even my family is making better food choices. My mother started her own journey when I started mine and has lost weight as well going from a 16/18 to a 12/14 and reduced her cholesterol and blood medication. Am I seeing the results I desire? Do I cheat sometimes? Do I feel discouraged at times? But I look at the bigger picture, I am making a difference in someone else life. My weight is coming off and again I know and realize I did not gain it overnight...so losing it will not be overnight!!!

Ok on another note, I went shopping for some new jeans and I thought maybe a 22 since I was a 26/28 and feel like I have not lost that much weight, Ashely Stewart is closing in my area so needless to say they had a ton of 20 petite or 18 tall. My daughter said try them mom cause you never know, I told her I can not wear a 20....but she convinced me and guess what THEY FIT and the shirts was a 20 as well ....you know i said well they are stretch jeans but I got 3 new pairs of 20's.

Then I took my girls to Old Navy for jeans and I love Old Navy but I have been limited to shopping there plus size collection on-line and even the 2X's in the store would not fit. I am proud to say I got several 2x shirts from the rack and wanted to appease myself and tried on a size 20 khaki and an 18 straight leg....The 20 fit but I did not buy them and the 18's fit in the legs but TIGHT on my stomach...I was amazed because!!!  I walk around with this weight and is very critical of it. But to my surprise I am losing the weight!!

So I guess the moral to my story is PATIENCE!!! I can do all things through Christ whom strengthens me.....and 99.5 won't do!

Well no more 300, 290's, 280's, 270's, 260's for now but 250's here I come.

I had my third fill which brings me to 7cc's in my band. The PA told me I was doing fine so long as I was losing weight. I was concerned because all that I am doing and to lose 4 pounds. She also reminded me that muscles weigh more than fat.....

Well I know and realize with the band it's a slower process so I have come to the conclusion that the weight is coming off I am good. I am in the gym and the days I can not go I walk the neighborhood. I still cheat sometimes but I know I do not want to go back to the place I was at and with God's help I will not.

I gained the extra weight one day at a time and I guess shedding it is the same process plus working out and a quarter of the food in take!!

Until next time...May God bless us on this journey!!!!

I am getting another fill next week on July 9th..I am continuing to exercise 5 to 6 times a week with some days 2 times a day...I am ready to get a fill for that "sweet spot" I want it...no i need it!!!

But to God be the glory!!!

Greetings to all,

I do apologize for not posting in a while I did not want to post daily nor did I want to wait so long either.

This Band that I have has been quite an experience for me. I am working hard to lose the weight; watching what I eat, working out and taking my vitamins more. If someone say that getting the band is the easy way out that is a LIE!!! It only helps you eat in moderation with your portion size. I feel that with the band you work three times as hard because you have so many requirements.   I have even encouraged people to start working out. Sometimes I wonder is it for me or them. Because some people don’t want you to do well, so that they look even better when they are not succeeding.  When they say, “I am not going today or let’s not go today”. My response is, “When I get to your size I will miss a day but until then I have to go.” I have finally decided that this is for me and only me!!!   Sometimes I feel that the weight is not “falling off” like I thought it should or would but I now realize that it is a tool to help me not an easy fix for my morbid obesity. I have gained as much as 125 pounds since my first born 17 years ago, so if it takes me another couple of years to get there I am fine with it. But I do know everyday I am a step closer to my goal of 150 pounds. And if I fail one day then the next day I push it harder to make it up. I do not regret getting the Band but sometimes I get discouraged.  I have to admit it is making me stronger and more determined to lose the weight and to keep it off.   I would be the first to tell you what I have learned in this short time about the Lapband;   1. You can eat (if you like to munch or graze) the restriction is for large meals. I like to skip breakfast and munch with the kids throughout the day. (I know I need breakfast and I also know not to graze all day)   2. You must work out (so you can not think I got a quick fix). I am in the gym six to seven days a week and that includes Sunday (I ate 7 days a week so I workout that many).   3. You must have a great support system…meaning when you feel that you have made the wrong choice they are there to workout with you, eat what you eat, and there when you feel that you have not lost any weight this week (a compliment or two).   4. Understand that it took time to gain the weight and it takes time to loose it especially when you have 100 plus pounds to lose.   5. Chew your foods….no thick or tough food or it will get stuck!!!!   Many blessings to all that are on this journey with me!!!

I got my second fill on June 2nd about 15 weeks out and it was a nightmare. The PA could not find my whole in my port. The first fifteen minutes of her hitting the port and re numbing me was fine then after another five minutes of trying she admits to me that she has only been doing this for six months and that she has a 90% success rate...Thanks but that was not the time to tell me that....
Finally she went to get the other PA to assist her and she was much better; no bumping my port, soft calming voice and most of all assuring me that it was fine and that some are hard. She got it after about 15 minutes of trying. She made a diagram of it because it is tilted so the next time it would not be as complicated. I went back at 2:20 and found it at 3:10...then they wanted blood work. I got my second fill on June 2nd about 15 weeks out and it was a nightmare. The PA could not find my whole in my port. The first fifteen minutes of her hitting the port and renumbing me was fine then after another five mintes of trying she admits to me that she has only been doing this for six months and that she has a 90% sucess rate...Thanks that was not the time to tell me that....
Finally she went to get the other PA to assist her and she was much better; no bumping my port, soft calming voice and most of all assuring me that it was fine and that some are hard. She got it after about 15 minutes of trying. She made a diagram of it because it is tilted so the next time it would not be as complicated. I went back at 2:20 and found it at 3:10...then they wanted blood work.

My daughter gave my band a name Lil' Mama because I could not eat my dinner and she said "Lil Mama is on her job cause you definitely got restriction now". So there it is....Lil' Mama!!!!

Well it has been 2 months since I received my BAND. This has been a journey in itself already. I have had some good days and some even worst ones. I am learning that I have to stay focused and motivated at all times because just like before I was out of control with eating. I could easily do it again if I do not keep my eyes on the prize (A NEW ME)!!!

I do love all the support that I receive from here because when I get to a place when I feel that I can’t I will come here and read…Sometimes my family do not understand but I have to have something that ALL for me. I am a wife, mother, childcare provider, event coordinator at church and a full time student so when I am ME… I have been doing all for everyone and excluding me …not loving me enough to take care of myself but drowning me in their issues in the meanwhile my go afloat. To God I owe all the glory.   BUT this is a new day I GOT A FILL on yesterday and I feeling great!!! I had 2cc’s at surgery and he added 3 more so I have 5cc’s. He said I will not get another for another month or so….I know that a fill is not the cure but it is part of the solution to my problems. Some family said to me “Why did I get the Lapband you still gotta workout and eat right, so therefore you ca do it yourself”; I use to explain my reasons but Romans 13:8 tells me that owe no man nothing but to love them.

I did not get a fill today because he had an emergency so he had to cancel!!!