Life After Regain

May 31, 2011

Yes there's life even after regaining some of your weight back. A young lady named Jupiter once told me on here that I was having an affair in a dirty public restroom by eating chips because they had no nutritional value. I got mad as heck at her because i was still losing and didn't think she knew what she was talking about. Then a few months later down the road she asked me what was I going to do when I started living life.  At that time I was going to the gym twice a day for two hour workout sessions. I didn't understand what she meant even then. I felt that the gym would always be apart of my life. Well fast forward three years later I can now fully understand what she was saying. The junk food is good but it doesn't fulfill you and if so not for long. Daycare ended for my children, I got a new husband, and my home life began to demand more of my time. Those two a day workout because once a day, maybe three times a week if I was lucky.
I've picked up 60 lbs during this time too. Last year I lost and regained the same 10 lbs five times. I returned to my old way of doing things. I went to a group where you weight in weekly, a support group where you take 12 steps, and then I tried to shame myself into losing those dreaded regained pounds. Nothing worked; so I decided I must learn to live with what I got and fight for my life not to regain any more. My line in the sand is 250 and yes I'm 17 pounds over that now.
Then someone said to go back to the basic. The basic for me has to be a way of life. it's not something I can do for a short period of time. I really understand this is a lifestyle concept for real now. No longer can I just eat junk because it's readily available. I have to be in control and look like a old bag lady who always have a bag with goodies inside. Now the goodies are fresh fruit or prepackaged snacks that I weigh and measure in advance. Also, every thing I put into my mouth is recorded.
It helps me to see the calories I consume. Also, I started going back to the gym more and began walking more at home with the kids. Another lady helped me to understand the calorie in and calorie out method. She told me to create a calorie bank where I saved calories each week, similar to a savings account. She said to save the calories for something really big like a new diamond ring. Sure you can reward yourself for every 3,500 calories saved but if you do you'll never have enough for the diamond earrings you want. Since I resumed the basic I've lost 7.6 lbs but I'm not spending my calories just yet. I have to get back down to my lowest weight before I spend or celebrate this time around.
Even with the regain I have a wonderful and full life. I'm very involved with my children and their activities. My husband and I have a active social life as well. I enjoy playing with the kids in the neighborhood and dancing in the park (even though I can't dance). I walked in several 5Ks, 1/2 marathon twice, and training to ride 50 miles in July. So I'm not going to beat up myself for the regain I've done that enough in the past. I'm using this as a learning tool. I can't ever let myself go again. I'm worth the effort and my husband enjoys the view!!

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