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Hey ya'll, my excitement level is through the roof.  Such small things going on in my life and I just feel so excited.  I just scheduled my preop with my surgeon for 10/16.  It is so close i can taste it!  I think the scale will not be too kind to me today for my last nutritionist class today.  I am nervous about that.  My rep said try doing the liquid thing for the rest of the day.. and then two day prior to the preop appt with the surgeon do a Liquid diet so the scale doesn't go up.  I am nervous about that, but I am not going to dwell on it.

Preop requirements... Check!

Preop appt... Check!

Next stop Schedule the surgery!

That is the next stop right?

I just got an email from my rep and she asked for one more thing from my PCP and then I schedule my preop appt with the doc.  I am so excited...I won't lie i was losing my focus.. I thnk i was getting too comfy thinking i have all the time in the world ..well what do you know .. I don't.

It is coming fast!

I cant wait!

So I haven't really being posting anything and i just wanted to check.   I have been kinda staying clear of posting b/c I got called out on one of my comments.  People don't know me so I guess I should have posted with more care.  I think I am hilarious!  I would never write something to hurt someone's feelings or make someone feel less important in the world, i don't do that in real life and I wouldn't do it here!  

Oh well, a little update 10/8 is my last nutritionist class and then I guess I schedule the big day!!  I am not nervous, I am just ready.  I am done worrying about what might happen.  I think I was being silly worrying over something that might not even come to pass. I still have 9 lbs to lose .. So it is time to stop fooling around and get my sh!t together.  No more thinking if I only have a little it won't hurt me.  I don't want this fat girl life so I need to start acting like it!

FYI for all who read my post... I write them to remind myself where I am at on my journey, and if someone can relate I am glad!!  I am hoping in a year or so, I will look back and be like "I remember that girl, she had a good heart.  I am glad she will always be apart of me to remind me to keep going!"

Oh no, I am feeling really hungry today.  Well not really hungry but I definitely have the muchies.  I had my breakfast and My snack and I just turned to see what else I had and stopped myself cold and logged on.  Anyone have any ideas.... Maybe i will chew gum!?

So ya'll I had my Monday weigh in for Pre op... (drum roll please) - according to my scale I am down 14 lbs.  Now i know My scale and the doctor's scale do not exactly coincide, but I am just so very happy to see the numbers going down instead of up!  I felt like I ate alot this weekend too but it was more like little portions throughout the day rather than my big plate o' food, ya know what I mean.  

I did have a small triump this weekend.  We had an ice cream social at work last Thursday b/c we raised money for our local Humane Society.  Well I did partake in the ice cream social and it was yummy and I made myself pick better option all weekend.  I didn't want to eat ice cream and then be like oh well i already screwed up this week might as well go for whatever it is i want.  I was very controlled..  

I was so Hungry on Sunday morning.  I woke up early and my fiance' works third shift so when he got home at like 8am we went to go do our big grocery shopping at BJ's.  Well this is like a work out if ya'll ever been to a BJ's wholesale place, but when we got home I had to go to church so i needed to figure out something to eat and quickly and we just got a bunch of food and i wanted it all...so I sincerely stopped myself in my tracks, sat down (i must have looked like a freak to my dog) I was talking to myself, almost like talking me off a ledge haha - put the chicken leg down!!)

I grabbed the turkey slices and a slice of american cheese rolled them up grabbed a SF jello and enjoyed... 

I was full it was great and it was fast.  Grant it I was eatling lunch meat at 10 am but who cares, my dog didn't mind the extra treat that is for sure!

So I had 21lbs preop to lose and I am down 14...  7 lbs to go  (whoot whoot)

Hi ya'll  so I have been hearing all about how I am going to have to be on a liquid diet prior to surgery.  So can anyone give me a heads up?  Is it really just liquids? Yikes

Hi ya'll  so I have been hearing all about how I am going to have to be on a liquid diet prior to surgery.  So can anyone give me a heads up?  Is it really just liquids? Yikes

Hello OH community, for those of you who do not know me I am preop for gastric bypass but hoping for DS surgery in November.  I have now completed everything but my last nutrion class, which is scheduled for 10/8 :) YEAH!!!! I can't wait, so close yet so far away!!  My psych evaluation went well, they deemed me sane enough for surgery...lol i have them all fooled.  hahah just jokes!

I just had my second nutrition class on 9/2 and that went very well.  I am down another 8 lbs.  Whoot whoot!!  probably at my lowest weight in the last 2 years or so, so  am very excited about that.  I am trying to keep the motivation going.  I am constantly on here reading everyone's progress and set backs and stalls and just trying to take it all in.  I know everyone is different so I just want to know all of it. The good the bad the indifferent. It is definitely helping this process along and keeping me motivated.  I love the before and after pictures ... I am slightly obsessed.

To top everything off, my birthday is 9/15 and I will 39 years old.  

My ultimate Goal is that by the time I am 40 that I am even more fabulous then I am now.

;)  (no self esteem issues here!)

I am loving 2014 and all the changes that are coming my way!

Hope you all having a great day!  :)

Hello everyone... Cernigl1 here, I am coming on my Psych evaluations date and I am excited about that, however I keep researching and trying to hear all the good the bad and the indifferent about WLS and I know I want this for me but I am getting real nervous. I am starting the "what if" phase.  What if i don't lose the weight, what if i go back to my old habits, or just what if I do the lose the weight go back to my old habits and I gain it all back plus.

 Oh my goodness, that last one i just came up with.  I am normally a very positive person, i have my ups and downs like every one but ultimately I think everything will work out for the best, and there is nothing that i can't accomplish. (I get that from my mom).  I will not let this nervousness stop me this time, i am on this journey and I will see it through, but i have to admit to it.  It is weighing on me like the rest of my excess weight and I just want it off of me.

How can I stifle this what if voice inside me?

Maybe I could threaten it with exercise...LOL!

I am pre op dieting and I kinda felt a little discourage today.  I have been trying to eat heathy and excecise for weeks now.  I am just not dropping weight like I used to.  Although my one girlfriend did say I was melting away... ( love that )   So for today since i have been so good, I rewarded myself with Pizza.  I just had a slice of pizza as big as my head.  I feel sick to my stomach.  I cannot for the life of me know why I would do this to myself again.  Week of healthy light eating and then BAM a HUGE hunking slice of pizza.  Feels like a rock in my stomach.

I am writing this down now so that I remember how utterly gross i feel right now.

It is not worth it.