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Just the beginning
May 06, 2010
My primary doctor said that he would like to see me at 130 pounds. I feel like that's too thin, so I'm trying to get to 160. That's 215 pounds. Is that even possible? I'm 100% determined to do what I need to do to get this weight off, & I know it's not going to be easy. But 215 pounds? I'll be a different person. I was laying in bed thinking last night (like always) and I started thinking that I've never been at a 'normal' weight. Ever. As long as I can remember, I was always 'the big girl' (& trust me when I say I've been recognized as that for many years). What if I'm unable to accept myself after I lose the weight? What if I don't look right thinner? I had so much running through my head that I had an anxiety attack. Luckily I have an appointment with a psychiatrist today, but I haven't had an anxiety attack in years. I'm sure lots of people have thoughts like this, but I've always been a 'glass half full' type of girl. I was speaking to my Mom & I realized that I need to replace the negative thoughts with positive ones. Like instead of thinking 'what if I can't accept myself', think 'I will accept myself, no matter what'. I'm am at the beginning of what WILL be an amazing journey.
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About Me
Newark, DE
Location
46.8
BMI
Surgery
07/27/2010
Surgery Date
Dec 11, 2008
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