Ketones...
Oct 28, 2009
I am 6 weeks out now. I feel great !!! However, I found out that I have real high levels of Ketones. That's not good. I have to call my doctor tomorrow to set up a time to get blood work done. I heard that even anorexics only have a Ketone level of like 15 and mine was 150... I hope everything is OK with me. Anyways, I am down to 163 now. That is a loss of 36 pounds since I started this whole process. It has been coming off slowly but, thats because my body is in major starvation mode. I don't ever eat. When I do it's only about 1 to 2 ounces at a time. Well, you all take care.
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Bad Luck...I'm the 15%...
Oct 20, 2009
Hey everyone..I wanted to update everybody on my progress. I am now 5 weeks out from surgery. I have gone from 195 to 168 that's 27 pounds. I have been at a stall for about 2 weeks now. Those aren't any fun. Anyways, I found out yesterday that I am one of the 15% that don't get the full feeling. I have to measure everything i eat since I don't know when I am full. It stinks. The doctor said it would be harder on me than most. Other than that I am feeling great. My blood pressure was 101/71 the other day. I was so happy. I know this surgery has saved my life. Things have gotten so much easier. I can walk miles and miles with out breaking a sweat or getting out of breath. It's just a great feeling. I wish I could get motivated to get stuff done around the house...lol...Well ya'll take care.
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People treat you different...
Oct 11, 2009
It's been almost 4 weeks since my surgery. Time sure has flown by. I've lost 25 pounds and feel great. I've gone from 195 to 170 and from a size 22/24 to a 15/16. I'm gonna try to update my pics soon. Anyways, I noticed a few of my friends at the ballpark are treating me different now. They are ignoring me and just being real b!@#hes. I haven't done anything to deserve that treatment. I think they might be jealous but, I'm not sure why they would be. I mean they are both skinnier than me. I had read that people would treat you different but, I didn't know it would happen this soon. I would love to be a size 2 next time I see them so I can really give them a reason to be jealous...lol...
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Update...Almost 3 weeks out !!!
Oct 04, 2009
Hey everyone !!! I was wanting to update everyone on how I am doing. As of today I have lost 21 pounds. I lost 20 pounds the first week after surgery and 1 pound this week. I can now wear a size 16/18. I was a size 22. I haven't had any complications. However, I did overeat today and paid for it. I'm still a little shakey. I have cheated a little; I'm not proud of it. 99% of the time I am faithful. The whole mental part is harder than HELL !!! I was hoping the surgery would change the way I looked at food but, it didn't. It just sucks because now I wanna eat and can't. Anyways, for all you pre-ops out there; listen to me when I say you are going to have to eat slowly. That extra bite really does sneak up on you. In my case case, it was a few extra bites that snuck up on me. I felt the food back up into my esphagus and then I couldn't breathe and had to throw up. I am really shakey and tired now. I am more scared than anything. I am affraid I have stretched out my pouch or damaged it. Anyways, I really need some support right now. Thanks...
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I love my RNY !!!
Sep 28, 2009
The last week and a half I have had buyers remorse bad but, these last few days have been GREAT...I am loving my RNY...I am scared that I will become anorexic though because I never want to eat and when I do eat I feel guilty. I love to drink my water but, I can't stand taking my calcium or drinking my protein shakes. I am going to have to try to find a liquid calcium. I just can't stomach the chewies or wafers. They are too sweet. I just can't stand sweet stuff anymore. I have some unflavored protein but, I'm not sure how to use it...lol...Anyways, I really want to THANK EVERYONE for all your support and encouragement. Everyone on OH is great and ya'll are so caring....
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Walking is fun now....
Sep 25, 2009
I am happy to say that "I LOVE WALKING NOW". I am walking about 2 miles a day now and it feels GREAT....I don't get out of breath anymore and my body don't hurt. My calves are sore but, that's normal. Anyways, I can tell that the weight is coming off. I am already down a dress size....WHOOOOHOOOO...I feel great at the moment. This is definently an emotional rollarcoaster. Everyday I have my moments where I cry and moments of pure joy and happiness. I'm sure gonna miss my pain meds though. I ran out of them tonight. I'll probably be in pain tomorrow...
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Bad day....
Sep 22, 2009
Today was not a good day at all. I have had major depression today and have done nothing but cry, cry, cry.... I don't know why I did this to myself. All I want to do is eat like I used to. My mom came home tonight with a dozen donuts and watching everyone eat them killed me. I just broke down. This is so hard. I never imagined it to be this hard. I am having major buyers remorse at the moment. I've been having a sharp pain in my left side, so, I went to the doctor yesterday so they could check me for a blood clot; thank goodness I didn't have one. Today they checked my white blood cell count; I'll know the results of that tomorrow....My surgery was one week ago today and I have only lost 5 pounds. The doc said it was because I had 15 pounds of fluid I had to get off first. So, if you subtract the 15 pounds I gained during surgery and the 5 I lost after than it really makes a weightloss of 20 pounds. That's how the doc described it. That made me feel a little better. I ended up eating a strawberry tonight. I didn't know if I was allowed or not but, with the mood I was in I didn't give a rats patootie. Anyways, I'll update again soon.
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Home from the hospital...
Sep 17, 2009
I made it home from the hospital yesterday 9/17. The doc said I did great. I am still in some pain but, I have my pain meds to help me deal with it. I have NO REGRETS yet. Anyways, I will write more when I'm not so tired. Thank you all.
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Starting liquid diet.....
Sep 11, 2009
I have to start my liquid diet tomorrow. I am more scared to do the liquid diet than I am the actual surgery. I should be glad I only have to do a 3 day liquid diet when most people have to do a 2 week liquid diet. I have everything I need; popsicles, jello, water, applejuice and etc.....I am just so scared of how I will feel without food. On the other hand, I am sooo excited that my surgery will be here Tuesday. I have complete faith in my surgeon and GOD. I can't wait to be on the losers bench with everybody......
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1 week and 1 day till my new life !!!
Sep 05, 2009
My surgery is 1 week from Tuesday. I can't believe it. It really did get here faster than I thought. I was complaining not to long ago about it taking forever but, that sure has changed...lol...I am soooo excited !!! I have waited a long long time for this surgery. It's funny though because I have been eating everything in site. I know I will be able to eat that stuff again but, I'm not going to. The food I have been living off of is what has got me in this place.Once I start eating healthy and develop a routine of good eating behaviors I want it to stay that way. My mom said something to me that just made me bust out laughing. She said "Promise me that when you lose all your weight and get skinny you won't dress like a hoochie momma." I thought that was pretty funny. I plan on wearing things I've always dreamed of but I'm not a teen anymore and don't plan on dressing like a hoochie momma...lol...Maybe when I go to the beach I will...ha/ha...I plan on working hard to get the body I've always dreamed of and I will show it off when I can. That won't be very often.On the other hand...I know this journey is gonna be hard as hell but, with the love and support I get from all of you on this site I know I can do it. Anyways, I still have tons of stuff to do to get ready for my surgery, like : clean out the cabinets, clean out the fridge, do a good house cleaning, go grocery shopping, and etc..etc.... I have been too lazy. I never want to do anything but sit on my butt and eat...lol...I guess I need to get off my lazy butt and get to work on all these things. Y'all take care and remember...I love you guys !!!
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