feeling like i failed

Sep 27, 2009

I had a new WLS called TOGA on March 11 of this year. I lost a lot of weight pretty fast. I have went from 270 to 204. But I have been loosing and gaining the same 4 pounds for 2 months. I have totally gotten off of track. I know I have stretched my stomach out because I can eat a lot more than I should. Last night I ate a whole double cheese burger from McDonald's. I have been eating like that for a while now. I cant stop myself. I tell myself NO NO NO, but I just do it anyway, I really cant stop. I know you will say that I can stop if I really want to. I am sure I can too, but its hard. I keep telling myself I will start back on track on Monday, but then I don't. Its hard to be around all the good stuff and not eat it. My husband and son are not on a diet and still want to eat like they did. They don't wanna eat like I need to and like they should be. They are also overweight. I need to get myself back on track and I don't know how. I don't wanna be stuck here at this weight. I wanna be smaller. And I am at an awkward stage in clothing. The plus sizes are to big and the regular sizes are to small. It really sucks finding cloths. I just don't know what to do to get myself back on track. I am sooo frustrated with myself.
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Links about TOGA

Apr 01, 2009

I am in the TOGA weight loss research study.

More info and a video 
http://www.wlshelp.com/toga-weight-loss.html                

First woman in the USA to have it done, her blog
http://thetogadiaries.blogspot.com/


a few more Blogs by the first women that had TOGA
http://mytogaexperience.blogspot.com/
http://togaprocedure.blogspot.com/

A TOGA support group on yahoo                                                      
http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/TogaSupportGroup/                    


http://mednews.wustl.edu/news/page/normal/12063.html
 

http://record.wustl.edu/news/page/normal/12074.html
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What I ate the past 2 weeks

Mar 26, 2009

March 11, 2009

had the TOGA prosedure done

March 12, 2009

Had some chicken broth, jello, and apple juice before I left the hospital at like 12:30.

Had some apple juice and chicken broth for dinner.

 

March 13, 2009

11:00am - 12:00pm : 1/4 cup apple juice

                                        1 pill Tylenol

                                        1 pill Prilosec

2:00pm - 2:45pm :      1/4 cup Water

4:00pm - 4:10pm :      1/4 cup apple juice

4:18pm - 4:35pm :     1 Tylenol

                                      1/4 cup apple juice

7:10pm - 7:45pm      1/4 cup chicken broth

8:10pm                        2 Tylenol

                                     1/4 cup Tea w/sweet n low

10:50pm -11:25pm 1/4 cup Tea w/sweet n low

March 14, 2009

9:15am                         1 Prilosec

                                     1/4 cup Tea w/sweet n low

11:30am - 12:00pm 1/4 cup chicken broth

                                       2 Tylenol

1:30pm - 1:45pm       1/4 cup apple juice

4:30pm                         1/4 cup chicken broth

6:45pm                          2 Tylenol

                                       1/4 cup apple juice

7:15pm f                      ew bites lemon ice

11:00pm - 12:00am   2.5 oz Sweet potatoes / baby food

                                      1/4 cup apple juice

12:15am                      few sips NyQuil

March 15, 2009

11:30am - 12:30pm   1/4 cup fat free orange sherbert

                                        1/2 cup apple juice

5:00pm - 5:45pm          5 oz V8 Vegitable Juice

6:00pm - 5:45pm         sips Special K20 Protein Water

10:00pm - 10:45pm     2.5 oz green beens / baby food

                                          1/4 cup chicken broth

March 16, 2009 Weigh in at 257.6 lbs (new scale)

11:00am                         1 prilosec

                                          sips Special K20 Protein Water

12:00pm - 12:30pm      1/4 cup cream of wheat (maple & brown sugar flavor)

1/4 cup                             Fat Free Keylime Yogert

12:30pm - 1:00pm          1/4 cup fat free key lime yogert

3:24pm - 4:15pm             5.5 oz V8 Vegitable Juice

9:15pm - 10:00pm          1/4 cup mashed potatos w/tiny margarin

                                            1/4 cup Fat Free Yoplait Light Keylime Yogurt

March 17, 2009 Weigh in at 256.2 lbs

11:00am                          1 prilosec

                                            sips Special K20 Protein Water

12:00pm - 1:00pm           1 cup cream of wheat cinnimon swirl w/fat free skim milk (couldnt finish)

4:00pm - 6:30pm              12oz V8 Vegitable Juice

March 18, 2009 Weigh in at 254.2 lbs

10:45am                            1 prilosec

                                             sips Special K20 Protein Water

12:00pm                            6 oz Fat Free Skim Milk w/ a scoop of Chocolate Unjry Protein

3:00pm                                5.5 oz V8 Vegitable Juice

5:00pm                                22 oz Fat Free Black Cherry Smoothie from QT (didnt finish it) I know bad girl.

9:45pm - 10:15pm            8 oz Fat Free Skim Milk w/ a scoop of Chocolate Unjry Protein

March 19, 2009 Weigh in at 253.8 lbs

10:00am 1                            prilosec w/ Crystal Light

10:50am                              8 oz Fat Free Skim Milk w/ a scoop of Chocolate Unjry Protein

3:00pm                                 5.5 oz V8 Vegitable Juice

6:30pm                                 1/4 cup Fat Free Orange Sorbet

8:00pm - 8:30pm                 1/2 cup chicken broth

                                               2.5 oz sweet potatos (baby food)

March 20, 2009 Weigh in at 252.8

8:45am                                 1 prilosec w/Special K20 Protein Water

9:10am                                 8 oz Fat Free Skim Milk w/ a scoop of Chocolate Unjry Protein

2:30pm                                 1/2 cup Pintos n cheese w/sause from Taco Bell

8:00pm                                 1/2 cup Mashed Potatoes w/gravy from Churches Fried Chicken

March 21, 2009 Weigh in at 251.6

11:15am                               1 prilosec

                                                8 oz Fat Free Skim Milk w/ a scoop of Chocolate Unjry Protein

4:00pm                                  8 oz V8 Vegitable Juice

10:00pm - 11:00pm            3/4 cup Fat Free refried beans w/

          (didn't finish it)             1/4 cup Salsa

                                                 sprinkle of Fat Free Chedder Cheese

March 22, 2009 Weigh in at 252.2

10:00am                                 1 Prilosec w/Crystal Light

11:00am                                 6 oz Fat Free Yoplait Light Yogurt 100 calories

4:30pm                                    7oz Fat Free Skim Milk w/ a scoop of Chocolate Unjry Protein

9:30pm                                     1/4 cup Leftover refried beans salsa cheese

                                                   4 oz Fat Free Yoplait Light Yogurt 100 calories

March 23, 2009 Weigh in at 252.2

8:00am                                     1 Prilosec w/water

9:45am                                      8 oz Fat Free Skim Milk w/ a scoop of Chocolate Unjry Protein

2:30pm                                      8 oz V8 Vegitable Juice

8:00pm                                      1/2 cup 98% Fat Free Baked Beans

                                                     3 oz Fat Free Yoplait Light Yogurt 100 calories

March 24, 2009 Weigh in at 251.4

8:15am                                       1 Prilosec w/water

10:00am - 11:00am                 1 cup Cream of Wheat cinnimon flavor

3:45pm                                        5.5 oz V8 Vegitable Juice

8:45pm - 9:00pm                      1 cup Cream of Potato soup

March 25, 2009 Weigh in at 250.4

8:30am                                         1 Prilosec w/water

9:30am                                         8 oz Fat Free Skim Milk w/ a scoop of Chocolate Unjry Protein

5:00pm                                         6 oz Fat Free Yoplait Light Yogurt 100 calories

8:30pm - 10:15pm                    6 oz whole grain noodles w/ Heart Smart spegetti sause w/ Fat Free Skim Motzerella cheese

March 26, 2009 Weigh in at 250.0

9:00am 1                                     Prilosec w/water

10:00am                                     8 oz Fat Free Skim Milk w/ a scoop of Chocolate Unjry Protein

2:00pm                                       6 oz Fat Free Yoplait Light Yogurt 100 calories

4:30pm                                        5.5 oz V8 Vegitable Juice 

 

 

 

 

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Here is what happened

Mar 13, 2009

Feb 18, 2009 : First visit. They talked to me about the Toga procedure and took a bunch of blood.

March 3, 2009 : I went in for the swallow test (Manometry). AND talked to the nutritionist.

March 5, 2009 : I went for the Endoscopy.

March 11, 2009 : I went in and had the Toga Procedure (i think)

March 12, 2009 :  Had a another swallow test to check for leaks. I got to drink some apple juice and chicken broth and jello. but i didnt have very much of any of it except the apple juice. I was soooooo thirsty.   and then I went home.

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Some info about what I am doing

Mar 09, 2009

Date Posted:  06/27/2008  

Keywords:
weight loss, transoral gastroplasty, stapling, Jonnalagadda, 08-0112, obesity

WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF THE STUDY?
This study will look at the safety and effectiveness of an investigational, transoral gastroplasty in the treatment of obesity.

WHO IS NEEDED?
1) Volunteers must be age 18 – 60 2) Volunteers must not have a history of cancer 3) Volunteers must have a history of obesity for the past 2.5 years

WHAT IS INVOLVED IF I PARTICIPATE?
Duration:The study will last 1 – 2 years. There will be 7 – 14 study visits.
Tests/Procedures:Upper endoscopies, medical and psychological evaluation, nutritional and surgical counseling, blood tests, questionnaires, x-rays, and upper GI
Risks:Risks will be discussed with volunteers as part of the informed consent process.
Benefits:There is the possibility of potential weight loss.
Compensation:$25.00 per visit for time and effort.

WHO IS THE PRINCIPAL INVESTIGATOR (DOCTOR)?
JONNALAGADDA, SREENIVASA, MD
660 South Euclid Avenue
Campus Box 8124
Saint Louis, MO 63110

WHERE WILL THE STUDY TAKE PLACE?
Washington University School of Medicine


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